the wicked's diary

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Oh k...

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Marem’s Preach about First Love is on point!

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Unrequited

I prayed and begged for it now its happening,

But why I am still in pain?

I cried then dared for it,

Now it came,

What’s the consequence?

I want peace.

I want to rest.

Should i start quitting?

In this life full of cruelty,

Whose hands will i’ll hold on?

Love?

Feelings?

Pride?

Or myself?

Love failed me then where it will lead after the fallen?

No one but myself.

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Parallel Universe: The Article (PU:TA)

“Parang nakita na kita somewhere.” kahit naman hindi pa talaga. ‘Yung tipong “ngayon-lang-kayo-nagkita-pero-parang matagal-na-kayong-magkakilala” vibes? ‘Yung déjà vu kuno na “Parang nangyari na ‘to” na hindi pa naman talaga, pero sa isang parallel universe, baka nangyari na nga. Baka lahat ng ito, nangyari na sa isang parallel universe.

Since may koneksyon tayo sa ibang tayo sa ibang parallel universe, nagsend sa’yo ng information na inakala mong déjà vu pero distortion lang pala ‘yun galing sa’yo at sa ibang ikaw (or ibang ikaw na nasa future) sa memories mo kaya akala mo na nangyari na ‘to, pero sa toto, nangyari na nga talaga ‘to sa ibang ikaw.

Minsan, nakakalimot ka sa mga bagay ‘pag lumalabas ka ng pinto. For example, naghahanap ka ng medyas. So bale, pagkalabas mo ng pinto, nawala sa utak at ‘di mo alam kung ano gagawin mo or kung ano nga pala ang hinahanap mo. Ang dapat mong gawin ngayon ay pumasok sa pinto kung saan ka lumabas para maalala mo. Babalikan mo ang dinaanan mo at galaw mo na parang bumalik ka sa oras, tsaka mo siya maaalala. Pero saan napunta ‘yung iniisip mo kanina na naghahanap ka ng medyas? Void? Wala na?

What if ‘yung panaginip natin ay hindi pala panaginip? Usually, sa panaginip natin, tayo ang bida. Kahit na hindi na natin maalala ang mga nangyayari, malaki ang tsansa na tayo ang bida sa mga naging panaginip natin. What if vision ‘to ng ibang tayo sa ibang parallel universe? ‘Yung minsan naka-third person ang view natin sa panaginip natin, na wala man lang nagtataka na nananaginip siya. ‘Yung mga “multo” daw, ay baka tayo ‘yun sa ibang parallel universe na may sinasabi lang. Or ibang taong gustong magparamdam.

Kunyari, namatay si Ganito. Ngayon, si Ganito, wala na siya sa mundo natin o sa universe na ‘to. Pero nage-exist parin siya sa ibang universe, nanaginip or nawala or something na napunta siya dito na parang ghost-like ang katawan or something na parang namumukhaan niyo na siya ‘yun. Baka siya nga talaga ‘yun? It’s either nakita natin siya dahil nagparamdam siya sa dimension natin, or nakita natin siya dahil nakaramdam tayo ng pagpunta natin sa kanila, or may distortion na naganap na naman sa dalawang options…?

Sa sobrang daming parallel universe, sure akong merong nasa future na ang setting, merong nasa past parin, merong kasabayan natin, merong wasak na ‘yung solar system, etc. May mga palipat-lipat ng dimension dahil sa ibang universe, naimbento na nila ‘yung machine na makakapunta ka sa ibang universe… kaya nangyayari ‘tong mga ‘to.

Sa ibang parallel universe, hindi number 24 ang favorite number mo. Sa ibang parallel universe, hindi nagkatuluyan ang mga magulang mo. Sa ibang parallel universe, CEO ka ng malaking company. Sa ibang parallel universe, palakad lakad ka lang sa kalye. Sa ibang parallel universe, matangkad ka. Sa ibang parallel universe, may boobs ka. Sa ibang parallel universe, may special abilities tayo. Sa ibang parallel universe, nanalo ka ng lotto. Congrats! Sa ibang parallel universe, nasagasaan ka ng 10-wheeler na truck. Sorry! At sa ibang parallel universe, minahal ka niya at hindi ka niya iniwan.

May mga bagay na nakakapagtaka talaga na parang out of this world… or baka out of this universe nga talaga?

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Her verbs

Haunted in the past, securing by the present and chasing her future.

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One in joy and one in despair

RIP LOVE IS DEAD

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Broken Arrow

Unmoved or stuck in memories,

Broken and defeated in a love battle,

But he’s trying his best to fix and save her,

A knight who is ready to shield her,

She’s in love with the wrong one,

He loves her in the wrong time,

He thought, “Wrong time it is, but I am in the right place, love.”

He may be too late, but time doesn’t define his love for her,

She was a wreck, and he’s willing to be her builder,

He doesn’t hug nor kiss her because these reminds her pain,

She cried, he clenched his fist ready to attack,

But he hold still cause he knows her well that she will be hurt more if he will,

Time is ticking, days and nights passed, but months of loneliness and mourn continues,

He still standing there, nothing else to do but patiently waits,

She lay down like a fetus, messy hair, reddish eyes, dark bugs,

Yet he is still amazes her beauty,

He was smothered, so he breathed out,

“He’s worthless”, he said as he held her tiny pale hand.

She shook her head,

He sighed and released it,

In his thoughts, he wished that he pulled the arrow without breaking it,

His fault, he is the worthless,

So the beast’s broken arrow remains,

And made her numb, slowly fades.

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Haunting

Your eyes I see everytime I closed mine,

I can feel your lips eveytime i pressed mine,

The air I breathe reminds me your scent,

You are gone yet I can still memorize your face, 

Head to foot, Smile to frown, 

You are the reason I lay in my cold bed,

To see you and touch me like you used to,

You are my nightmare yet my escape to my  reality,

So please, just keep haunting me, Love!

08.22.16

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Colors

I was black and white before,

You invaded me and I became peach to crimson,

Every morning with you I see yellow and blue above us,

Night came yet blue, green, and red I see while you danced me,

Rainy days are cold and dark yet we were glowing while cuddling in the cold bed,

The air I breathe smells like cherry, even the water I drink tastes like champagne,

You affected me so much, It’s crazy but it feels right and beautiful,

Keep doing it, Love!

Open or close everything is in color.

 08.23.16

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" Closure is a made-up word that women invented so they can overanalyze something and talk about it-to death. And then, aftet it's been blessed and buried, closure gives them the excuse to dig the poor fucker up and talk about it-some more."

#LOVETIONARY #happierre

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Nag-iba na ng Presidente, pero siya parin nasa utak mo!

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CYCLE

2012, nag-umpisa ang lahat. 2012, natapos din ngunit di lahat. Lumayo siya dahil sa inakalang makakatakas pa. Ngunit habang tumatakas,ay lalo pa siyang hinabol. Akala niya blessing ngunit di nagtagal naraelize niya isa pala itong sumpa o laro ng tadhana. Ngunit matapang siya, pero sumuko din dahil siguro naisip niya “anong laban mo sa tadhana?” “WALA!” Di maintindihan kung bakit siya pa, totoo ba lahat ng nakikita at nararamdaman ng taong yun kung alam naman niya na may mas hihigit pa sakanya. Pinilig nalang niya ang ulo niya at nagpatianod sa daloy ng laro ng tadhana.PinakIlala siya sa mama niya at normal reaction talaga, normal reaction nga ba yun? pag tinanong ka na “ano ka niya?” “bestfriend lang po” totoo naman kahit higit pa dun. di siya mapakali kung mag-mamano o ngingiti nalang! pero tulad din siya ng iba iniisip na sana “matapos na sana at aalis nalang” bulong sa isip niya. Nagmahal na siya dati, at di na niya aakalain na may hihigit pa sa pagmamahal na yun. pagmamahal na nawala na parang bula. Katulad nito, ito ba yung sequel na tinatawag? pareho din ang katapusan? bakit di nalang naging maganda ang katapusan kahit closure man lang. Closure lang sapat na. 

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Huwag ka nang umiyak, sa mundong pabago-bago.

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MINSAN

Minsan ngingiti ka nalng kahit gusto mo nang umiyak.

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PANAGINIP

Sa panaginip nalang sila pinagtagpo at tinadhana.

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Don't let me down.

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"I loved a man who had opened up a world to me but hadn't loved me enough to stay in it."

 Louisa Clark