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I’ve been kinda feeling like I wanna be alone more these days. I love my boyfriend but idk if I can stay…. I’ve been having dreams of seeing other people and it almost feels right. He’s helped me so much…. Helped me in so many ways, actually genuinely cares, and wants to see me flourish… I don’t know. I have no clue what I want. I feel smothered. I feel like I’m settling. I feel like I’m fucking myself up. I really have no idea what to do

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And now he's psycho and he hit me holy shit how did I stay with him so long?

he lied to me... the whole text telling me to fuck off was lies

So the guy I really like hates me and cut me off lmfao And I’m honesty sad as fuck

I'm honestly sick of feeling like I don't matter It's been so long since I felt like this.... Like I wanna die. Like I wanna cut. Like I'm irrelevant as can be. I'm so tired.

Ps

Why am I so depressed after months of being ok???

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If I'm depressed and you don't even try to help me then you shouldn't date me. I warned him from the start I'm a lot to handle but I guess he can't listen And now I just have to feel empty and sad over this shit

Wow I really haven’t posted here in almost a year…. a lot has happened in that time I finished probation Got broken up with for smoking pot Got sexually assaulted Got hit by my ex Quit both of my jobs And now I’m talking to someone new and with the way I’m feeling, I kinda wanna leave him

I never feel fully awake and eat more food than I have in like 8 months.....

been eating so much and so tired and moody... What's wrong with me???

P sure my rapist came by my job. This girl I know actually let him apologize and was in the car with him. I'm pretty sure it was him though.... She asked me "hey do you wanna talk to.... Oh never mind." and made this awkward face. I never clearly saw the person in the passenger seat but I didn't want to talk to him if it was him one bit. Fucking scarring me for life. Making me feel disgusting. I honestly would have probably spit on him. And this girl says "he's changed, I just refuse to drink alcohol with him." Like that's an amazing person right there! He only gets rapey when drunk! So it's fine to hangout with him sober.... Stupid bitch. And he's a stupid cunt that deserves his cock ripped off.

#tw rape mention

I always want your attention and idk why. It’s pathetic and you have no idea. I’m honestly worthless trash with a bunch of issues so no one I actually like will like me back. And I don’t like you I guess. I don’t know you that well. But I guess it’s a minor crush. You’re so adorable and make me laugh. I just dump a lot my bs on you and always get good advice. But I regret that. Getting so personal so fast. Like why the fuck do I do that? And then wishing you’d talk to me more… grossly pathetic. I’ll get over it though

Kinda been feeling like I want everyone to leave me alone lately except very few select people. And smoke weed. Not smoking is killing me. And I hate my substance abuse class. Always accusing me of fucking up. I’ve done all they asked for the past fucking 2 months and get treated like I haven’t. I also had a dream I was sexually assaulted by someone I know irl. I don’t know them well but it’s still kinda weird. I also had a dream I smoked weed…. And then freaked out cos I did

been thinking about when i was most likely pregnant last year these past few days and it's fucking me up kinda hardcore

Haven't been on here in a while.....

I've been kinda feeling like I wanna be alone more these days. I love my boyfriend but idk if I can stay.... I've been having dreams of seeing other people and it almost feels right. He's helped me so much.... Helped me in so many ways, actually genuinely cares, and wants to see me flourish... I don't know. I have no clue what I want. I feel smothered. I feel like I'm settling. I feel like I'm fucking myself up. I really have no idea what to do

I can't leave this hell hole anyway I have fucking court next week Can I just die instead?

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