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Hey, it's been many many years since I've opened this account. It does get better.

#hope

I hate myself

So I cut my hair

No one will ever hate me as much as I hate myself. Therefore, I don’t give a damn about what you think of me.

Me, watching the boy I love, stop liking me and start talking to someone else: Wow, now that was a lot of damage.

#hurt #love #lonely #useless #worthless #pain

I want to be wanted

#love #hopeless #lonely #hurt #hurting #pain #death #falling #useless #worthless

Make sure to write ‘Unlovable’ on my grave.

#suicice #depression #unloveable #useless #worthless #suicidal #depressed #sad #hurt #pain #guilt #death #dead

When I was a kid, I used to get horrible stomach pains, like all kids do when they eat something they shouldn’t have or had too many sweets.

Those stomach cramps were the worst pain I had ever been in. Having been a child I had yet to feel anything horrible so those stomach pains made me think I was dying.

I remember lying on the floor of my bathroom, writhing around, crying begging God for it to stop.

But it didn’t.

And I remember thinking, if I just stabbed myself through the stomach with a knife, the pain would go away.

And thus, the idea that death will make the pain stop was planted into my head.

Now, whenever I’m in pain, my first instinct is to kill myself.

#death #pain #suicide #dead #painful #suicidal #worthless #nothing #childhoodmemories #depression #depressed #hurt #crying

The only thing keeping me going right now is the idea that if everything goes wrong, I can always just kill myself.

#suicide #suicidal #depressed #depression #death #unalive #pain #hurt #nothing #meaningless #comforting #die

I’d rather die-

#suicide #depression #death #useless #nothing #worthless #unloveable #pain #suicidal #depressed #die #unalive

Anxiety

A winding path

Full of bumps and bruises

What if she chooses

Wrong

Will she deal with the aftermath

of her mistakes

Will she deal with the aches

The pain that over takes

Her explosive mind

A coherent thought impossible to find

Anxiety corrupts

Building till it erupts

Yet a body cannot explode

Only implode

On itself

- TheWords-Left-Unsaid

#poem #poetry #anxiety #pain #path #wrong #depression #depressed #anxious #suicidal #suicide #cry #explode #too much

The break

From everything

School again

I was doing so well

So well

I don’t want it to get bad again

I don’t want to regret waking up each morning

I don’t want to be in pain again

I was fine

I was doing so well

#pain #suicide #depression #depressed #suicidal #school #death #mental health

It’s one of those days where everything is too loud

It’s one of those days when the urge to sleep forever is strong

It’s one of those days when music that makes you cry shows up on recommended

It’s one of those days when your chest aches for something that isn’t even real anymore

It’s one of those days

Again

#sad #sadness #depressed #depression #suicide #suicidal #pain #nothing #worthless #useless #empty

Hmm imagine suddenly loosing interest in everything that ever made you happy 🙄

#sad #depressed #depression #suicide #suicidal #pain #bored #empty

I am either

Too much

Or not enough

#sad #pain #notenough #depression #suicide #suicidal #depressed

As the pieces stack up,

One by one, I drown

No way to release, no way to swim

Unless...

I relapse

Now mental pain becomes crimson scars

#relapse #pain #suicide #selfharn #SH #Depression #depressed #suicidal #death #school

Dear teachers,

I’m sorry I didn’t get the homework done

I didn’t think I would make it through the night

I fell asleep not planning on waking up

Thank you,

A student who is drowning

#suicide #suicidal #depressed #depression #od #overdose #killmyself #school #teachers

Sobbing is so exhausting.

#pain #sad #crying #depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal

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