Am I?

huge ass chaotic overthinker who has a weakness for cheesy shit

[thinkin-in-petals]

Repeat after me

Taking care of others shouldn’t be at the cost of taking care of yourself. Put yourself first and the rest will follow.

- jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

November 5th, 2023

In the depths of the night

While the moonlit shines

All I see is the twinkling in your eyes

The lingering smell of your cologne

For that I thought I would never be alone

And I would love you to the bone

Instead I am lying in my bed

Thinking about at the tears I shed

With you stuck in my head

Will I ever forget ?

The day that we met?

- jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

A friendly reminder:

In all human connections, respect sets the path between you and I. With no respect, there is no you and I.

- jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

October 12th, 2023

Falling in love is hard to do when the only one I see is you.

- jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

October 11th, 2023

It’s still on my mind

I wish I could press rewind

To go back in time

Where everything was fine

And he did not cross the line…

- Jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

October 6th 2023

Sometimes I wonder

Who I would be

If there was no you and me

Would I finally see

That you’re not for me

Would I finally open my eyes

Instead of believing your lies

Would there be a different me?

Without you being my key?

- Jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

September 17th, 2023

Often you are your own worst enemy. Even though it might feel like you vs the world. In reality, we are usually fighting ourselves. Fighting against the beliefs we made up in our anxious minds and trying to prove ourselves wrong. That indeed we are worthy. Indeed we are able to do anything as long as we put our minds to it. So today I'll do it again. I will fight my own demons and prove them wrong.

-Jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

September 2nd, 2023

I don’t seem to be a person who can process grief. The only way to escape grief is to remove yourself from the pain because if I face it I do not know how many lifetimes it might take to get over it and in the meanwhile new grief builds up over other matters. An endless cycle. I guess that’s curse of feeling so deeply for life.

-jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

August 30th, 2023

No one will care so much about your past as you do yourself.

- Jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

August 20th, 2023

From today I hope to do everything my parents ever wished for. I’m curious of the outcome. I hope it will be a good one.

-Jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

Can someone tell me: how do you get over the love of your life even after everything he has done? I once said that I can’t live without you but in reality I have already been living without you. So it has proved to me that it is possible however I can’t help but crave and long for the love we used to have. I have been looking through oceans and seas to find that type of love but with no success. I am starting to wonder if this was a once in a life time thing and I will never feel like that again..

-Jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

I want to find someone who will love and protect me the way my ex did however I don’t want to find someone who would treat me like my ex did. What a tragic paradox..

- Jba

[mc-kennaashton]

[thinkin-in-petals]

To be the bigger person

Untold stories

Scars beneath

Keeping silent because no one would believe

while the loud ones keep screaming

We can only keep dreaming

about one day

Where the world finally hears your voice

Beneath all the shields you have build around you

And scars you have grown accustomed to

You will finally know what to do

It burdens you to hold the key

To the truth and all the tea

Letting go of all responsibility

To live a life away from the toxicity

Leaving stories untold

And see how it will unfolds

- jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

After all the hurt, I am not sure whether I am capable of love anymore.

- jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

When I was younger I used to believe in forever. Now I know that everything is temporary.

-jba

[thinkin-in-petals]

It’s frustrating how some dicks just feel nicer than others.

-jba