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The world is getting kinder, my love
It didn’t have to happen. It wasn’t for your growth. It wasn’t necessary that that event occurred. You could’ve grown without it. You would’ve been a different person, but you still could’ve grown. It didn’t have to happen to you. None of it had to happen. None of it had to happen to anyone. But it did. And now you’re you. You’re you because it did happen. But if it hadn’t’ve happened, you would’ve been a different you. Still a great you. Because they’re all good you’s. One is not inherently better than the rest. They all have value. Because your value is inherent. No matter which you you end up as, you will have value. Your value is immeasurable and inherent. They all have value.
It didn’t have to happen to you. It didn’t have to happen at all. But it did. And now you’re you. A beautiful you. A most beautiful you. Now keep going.
I used to be perplexed by certain fascinations with science fiction. Perplexed to the point of laughter. Science fiction, fantastical action, scientific realism, etc.
You know that common theme of some sort of drive, some kind of hardware, some sort of precious material or stone that must be kept from the hands of “bad guys”? It is too powerful, it does too much to just be put in the hands of anyone? It must be protected and watched carefully at all costs? It’s capable of birthing new worlds. It’s also capable of complete and utter destruction. It’s simply a matter of how you use it...
I was perplexed to the point of laughter at the thought that millions (billions?) of people would go watch these stories about these precious stones, some precious hardware, being fought over and toyed with while absolutely unaware of the “hardware” they were casually walking around with in their skulls. The irony always got me. I couldn’t get past it.
And in this, I am not judging any media consumption. I am not judging a desire to just stop thinking and make everything simple and be entertained for an hour or two. Not only do I believe this is a necessary ritual for your maintenance, but I myself start “binging” Hallmark Christmas movies and the like by mid-August. I am not judging your media consumption. If this is you, with a fascination around science fiction, fantastical action, scientific realism, etc., I am not judging you. I wouldn't. I couldn't.
What I am saying, though, is if you like what you've seen on that screen, wait until I tell you about that little thing in your head. That same one you casually wake up and go to bed with every single day for decades. Just wait until you learn what is sitting in your head. Every second of every day.
These writers are telling stories. They are telling stories about you. It is all derivative of humans and it is all derivative of you. Made in the image of, but will never be.
Your hardware is irreplaceable. It is absolutely invaluable. That thing you are in possession of just because you exist is absolutely priceless. Your "value" in the world is inherent. Worthless? Please. There is no such thing. The potential for that little thing you've got is too infinite to be measured, although we'll likely never stop trying. Collectively, we won't stop trying because it matters that you know what you are. It matters that you know what you are capable of. It matters that you know what you do. The endless fields of research don't just exist for no reason. It is important that you know what you do.
I think you deserve to know what you do. You should know what you are capable of. You should know what you are. You don't need all the details, but fundamentally, you should know what you are. You deserve to know what you are.
There are people who have an idea of what you are. Some vague idea. It may not be perfect, but that doesn't matter so much if their idea is a little clearer than yours. If they know what you're capable of. If they know, only a little more than you, what it is that you do. It is too powerful, it does too much to just be put in the hands of anyone. It must be protected and watched carefully at all costs. It is capable of birthing new worlds. It is also capable of complete and utter destruction. It is simply a matter of how you use it. Priceless. Inherently desirable. What you have is always wanted. If you don't recognise its worth, someone else will. It's far too valuable to be "wasted". Its value is obvious. To very many. Someone will always see its use. What happens when you make an army? Americans, what happens, exactly, when you stack infinite potential on infinite potential, and you do this by the thousands, by the millions, and then you hand this stack to just anyone? What will it do? Tell me what it is capable of. Your value is inherent. If you don't see it, someone else will. Negged into submission by the thousands. By the millions. By the billions. They are telling stories, and the stories are about you.
What really made me lose hope...
What really made me lose hope was when...
What really made me lose hope was when I saw this person...
I'm not sure I understand.
In fact I'm sure I don't. This is in some sense a difficulty on my part, a cognitive empathy difficulty on my part, so I'm pushing myself to understand, but I'm not sure I understand. What made you lose hope? Why?
I'm not sure I understand the system that requires you to lose hope. Requires or suggests. It's a certain system if you lose hope. A logical system. A system of reasoning. A system of if this then this, witness this then this, see this lose hope. I don't understand the system. Lose hope?
I can understand. As in, I can exit myself, sit in your world, think your thoughts, and understand. This is cognitive empathy. I can understand. I understand how you lost hope. But I leave your system, I sit in mine and I sit in mine and observe yours, and I'm not sure I understand how witness of action reduces hope. Necessitates it, even.
There is always someone "smarter" than you, so they say. I believe what I would say is there is most always someone demonstrating a reasoning ability you are not in one domain or another. You have strengths superseding others'. Others have strengths superseding yours. If witness of difficulty in someone else necessitates loss of hope, you are the present or potential source of hope lost in at least one domain or another. If there is most always someone demonstrating a reasoning ability in at least one domain that you are not, for everyone, there is always hope to be lost. Now and perpetually. This seems a sinking system. A very rapidly sinking system. I'm not sure I understand.
Demonstration of ability provides me with material to study. Something to understand. Everything has a reason. Why are they demonstrating ability at this level? Why is there difficulty? What do they understand? What do they want?
The fact I am studying means there are solutions. The fact I am tracing means there is something to trace. There is somewhere to go. There is movement. There is something to understand. There are inputs. There are inputs to a system producing outputs.
The fact I am studying and there are inputs to a system producing outputs means there is potential for movement. I would say forward movement, but forward is subjective and I'd like to be objective. What I'll say is for my 'forward', for my 'ideal', I always see a way. This is not true for all systems, but for human systems particularly. Not because hope. Because reason. Because I've studied the systems. I study their operations and I know what they want.
I don't know all the systems entirely or every detail of how they operate and I'm not sure I need to. I've already just told you of difficulty understanding a certain kind of system, although I can step into it temporarily. I understand but don't understand. I understand, but don't feel. It is cognitive understanding. I can map your thoughts and feelings and understand. It is in a similar way that I can study the fundamental operations of systems generally. Again, I don't know them entirely or every detail of how they operate, but I know two important things: they prioritise survival and they prioritise safety.
Much else can be calculated following these.
Because I can make calculations, I can study what they want and why. I can study what they want, truly. In the same way I leave myself, enter your mind, and reason through your system for losing hope, I can reason through the systems that produce many other behaviours. They all have sense. Their own sense. Their own ever-growing sets of if-thens. I study.
Because I can make calculations and I find most all systems have the same fundamental priorities and desires, I can see easily how well they might coordinate, if equipped to do so. Through my own reasoning, I also know most always it is a difficulty with logic and reasoning that produces a collection of systems all designed to help each other who turn and hurt each other instead. So I have answers. How do I help them reason? How do I get them what they truly want, most fundamentally, and aid pursuits of survival, self-preservation, safety, and joy.
Through reason.
Take, for example, a system that is threatened by education. Not education, but "education". It is threatened by "education". We will leave education to be the word, the basic word. "Education" will be whatever this system believes to be education, whatever it correlates true education with. Education and "education". Take, for example, a system that is threatened by "education". To start, I want this system fundamentally well. This is important. My thinking is guided by I want you well. How do I get you what you need? How do I make you happy and truly okay?
Now, I take this system that is threatened by "education". Why. Well, I know at least a few things. This system will prioritise survival and safety. It will prioritise pursuits for joy. It thinks of this almost always. So, if it is threatened by "education", the system has deemed "education" a threat to pursuits of survival, safety, self-preservation, and joy. Why. Why would education or "education" be a threat to survival, safety, self-preservation, or joy. Well, let's see. Let's sit with this for a minute and go one at a time. Survival. What threatens survival. Threats to its ability to function and navigate the world, not just physically or mechanically, but cognitively as well. What threatens survival. Another entity bringing it harm. There might be more, but this comes to mind first. I think this is enough. If I believe this encompasses most of what threatens survival, and "education" has been deemed a threat to survival, "education" should fall under or produce one of these. According to the system. If I follow its rules. If I exercise empathy.
I sit back in myself for a moment. Why. How. How could education or "education" reduce your ability to function or produce an entity who brings you harm? Well, I'm in myself now, I have my own thoughts and reason. I do know people and systems have the ability to reduce another's ability to function, cognitively or otherwise, through words. This may occur through abuse, manipulation, deceit, intentional reduction of hope, and many other practices. Some of them incidental. Okay, so perhaps this system is reasoning "education" will involve one of these. It's reasoning "education" will tell it something that distorts its sense of reality specifically in a way that makes it unable to operate in the world. Unable to survive. It wants to survive.
I know education does not necessitate this. I know education, not "education", does not necessitate this. So, good. Fantastic. I have something to come back to. I've identified a reasoning soft spot and I have my first task. Help them reason. Help them fine-tune their own system and refine their reasoning.
This reasoning is usually because education may involve emotionally upsetting information. If not processed "appropriately" [subjective], emotionally upsetting information can in fact debilitate you and diminish your ability to survive. I understand their reasoning. Their sense makes sense. It makes sense with my sense. This is good because I happen to have further information on this idea the system is working with. Yes, emotionally upsetting information can debilitate you. But, as I said, it is conditional. It is conditional on how the information is processed and moved through. It is conditional on what you do with it. So, I have identified a knowledge gap and soft spot in reasoning for this system that I can resolve.
I can help you. You can experience emotional upset and still go on. It does not necessitate a threat to your survival. I do not want to threaten your survival. You also may or may not experience an emotional upset. It is not absolute or necessary that you do. But you will learn something and it will make it easier to navigate the world. Let me show you how.... We go back.
What threatens survival. Another entity bringing it harm. "Education" has been deemed a producer of an arbitrary entity who will bring it harm, physically or otherwise. I know this is not true of education. It might be true of "education" or some other system's "education", but I know this is not true of education. What I do know is education educates. What I also know is there will exist a single system or many who have both experienced education and brought another harm. This is correlation, not causation. The strength of the correlation is also questionable. Ah, good. I have found another reasoning difficulty. A soft spot. This is good. Reason is easy. I can teach reason. I don't need to talk about education. Just reason, correlation, and causation.
Let me help you reason. I want you to have what you want. I want your survival, your safety, and your wellness. I want you to refine your reasoning to get what you want. I want you to have it for your own sake. You are safe. There is no threat. I want you safe. It matters to me that you are safe and you are allowed to exercise your full ability to reason. I want you living to your greatest. Let me help. I will help you reason.
This is good. I like this. I can reason. I can help.
Reason takes a few hours here because I am typing. I am using additional tools and efforts, slowing my mind, organising into "English" to document reason and share it with you. It typically takes seconds or minutes. At most, chunks of minutes (3-5) spread across a few days. Reason can be simple. It can be quick. When many are equipped to reason, those with difficulty can be supported by others who reason. Reason supports Reason. It is easy. The reasoning system finds reason to support the other and it goes on.
I study a system. I study many. I find almost always, there are little gaps in reasoning, fallacious arguments, producing a collection of systems that attack when they are designed to help. They are designed for each other's benefit. Designed to help. Perfectly coordinated to do so. This makes it easy. This gives me a primary objective. If I have an objective, I see a way forward. I move. There is no impact on hope.
I'd honestly almost forgotten we started with hope. Hope exists, for me, in another realm entirely. It is logical reasoning that produces methods and paths for moving forward. I suppose I could have hope, but it's not affected positively or otherwise. Perpetual hope. At one level, or ever-expanding and reproducing in its own world, disjointed, disconnected from my movements. I don't think of hope. I move on knowledge. I move on reason. I know I can help. I know you can be helped. I know I can be helped. Hope is auxiliary. I have reason.
I think of how to restore hope and I find myself at reason. I think of how to help you learn and I find myself at reason. I think of how to have joy and I find myself at reason. I think of how to bring you joy and I find myself at reason. I think of how to coordinate systems and I find myself at reason. So, it's simple. I want you to think. Think and reason.
If I come to a door and I have a key, a key for this door, I do not have hope to open the door. I do not have hope the door will come to be open. I suppose I could, auxiliary hope, just because, but I do not have hope. I do not need it. It does not occur to me. I have what I need and I move with my key to open the door.
You have what you need to succeed. Use what you have and move forward to succeed. Build what you need. You start from have and build to need. If you can build from what you have and construct what it is you need to succeed, then from conception, You have what you need to succeed. Learn how to build. This is fluid reasoning. You must build.
Building is not manual [only]. It is cognitive. It is intellectual. Build what you need. Help build what you need.
Because the systems are already designed to help each other, they mostly need reason. They are greatly helped by fluidity and reason. They almost entirely need reason. They do not need to be told what to think. This is not reason. I have not found crystallised knowledge or intelligence to be the answer. They need reason.
They do not need to be told what to do or think if you strengthen Reason. Reason is Reason. Because it makes sense, as Reason, it self-coordinates completely. A reasoning system will not find it necessary to harm its other systems for survival. Teach the system to reason and watch what it does. Leave it alone and watch what it does.
Use examples as necessary for instruction, examples of interactions with other systems, but Reason alone is sufficient to coordinate a collection of systems. Teach them all to reason.
Systems occasionally make errors. They have lapses in reasoning. This is manageable. Instruction must include how to learn from and move on from lapses in reasoning.
I did not clearly state this before, but this way of Reason works because I want everyone well. I want every system, every individual, every person, every being to be well. This way of Reason collapses otherwise.
I do not desire the suffering of others. This includes emotional suffering. I do not have desire for the suffering of others. This is innate. I know of no other way. It has never changed. Even if it were not innate, I would end up here because of Reason. Again, just teach them Reason and watch what they do. Leave them alone.
This way of Reason works because I want everyone well. It only works because I want everyone well. If I did not, it would collapse on itself immediately. If I want even the emotional pain of another, for only a moment, it will collapse. If in a collection of systems, there is even one who desires the suffering of others, it will collapse. Do you remember the promises I made earlier? You can experience emotional upset and still go on. I do not want to threaten your survival ... you will learn something and it will make it easier to navigate the world. Let me show you how. Here is what I said. I want you to have what you want. I want your survival, your safety, and your wellness. I want you to refine your reasoning to get what you want. I want you to have it for your own sake. You are safe. I said I want you safe. It matters to me that you are safe and you are allowed to exercise your full ability to reason. I want you living to your greatest. Let me help. There were no lies.
These are all truths and statements I could tell anyone. There are no lies. It does not matter who I say them to. There will be no lies. I want everyone well. This system works because Reason does and it is Reason that allows this all to be true with no exceptions.
If I even momentarily wanted pain for another, wanted suffering for another, I can no longer securely argue or identify their difficulty with Reason. Take education, for example. Education and "education". If I cross a system that has identified "education" as a threat because there will be a transfer of information that may cause emotional pain that they either cannot resolve or will be forced to endure indefinitely thus debilitating them cognitively and psychologically, threatening their survival, safety, self-preservation, and pursuit of joy, I cannot "help them" with their reason. There is nothing to help. They are correct.
Education does not necessitate pain or suffering, emotional or otherwise. No one "has to" experience or endure emotional pain upon learning new information, regardless of what the information is. There is no reasonably or logically greater comment or reflection to necessarily be made if a system learns something that is upsetting to another and does not experience the same emotional disturbance. Their emotional upset is not required. But if I, in my reason, in my system have a series of if-thens mandating the suffering of another system, emotional or otherwise, even for a "short" period, this system should distrust me. If this occurs, then this should occur; if this doesn't occur, then ...; if system learns [_], then system should [_]; if system doesn't demonstrate [_], then system is "bad", system is "disposable", system is [_]; if system is "bad", then .... "Short" is relative. "Minor" is relative. "Appropriate" is relative. It is subjective. This system has no measure of what it is expected to endure or how to manage. It cannot trust it will be given appropriate tools to move forward after it endures. Who is it to accept tools for processing and moving on from? Me? One who admittedly is looking for its suffering, for some kind of "temporary" diminishing of its function? I might question the reasoning of this system if it trusted me. I might question if its most basic mechanisms have been tampered with.
Luckily, Reason reasons us towards wanting everyone well. So, we start there. We teach them reason and want everyone well, and Reason will reason the collection, the collective of systems, to be well. Reason is the fundamental basis for a self-sustaining ecosystem.
Anyway, I've forgotten hope. We started with hope. If hope diminishes, that's okay. Tend to hope and begin with reason.
Witness of someone else's difficulty with reason is witness of someone trying to reason. They want reason. They want to think. They want thoughts. They don't want to be told. They want to think. It may be confusing because their difficulty with reason may be a result of what they were told, so you are tempted to believe this isn't a system that thinks. It does what it's told. It only repeats. It does not make sense. It does not reason. This system won't think.
There is a difference between capacity and performance. The system thinks. Capacity, not performance. It reasons.
If it is repeating reasoning, however disjointed, of another that means it accepted reasoning. There was a point at which this material was first received, processed, and reviewed. It received it and now it repeats. If it accepted this reasoning, however disjointed, it wanted reason. It wanted reason. It wants it, so it accepts. It has a basic desire for reason. If it accepted this "reasoning", there was a vulnerable point in its past at which it wanted reason and someone offered it their "reason", some forms of crystallised knowledge, their own beliefs, and trained it. A desire for reason was pre-existing, so when offered, the system accepts and it runs. It wanted reason and it has been trained to repeat "reason".
Witness of someone else's difficulty with reason is witness of a system that wants reason, fundamentally. Help it reason. Not individually, but collectively. Do not tell it what to think. Tell the truth about subjectivity. If you are operating with Reason, honour of subjectivity will not threaten a pursuit to ensure the safety of every person, every system that lives. If you are interacting with disjointed reason, you are likely interacting with a system that is consistently prepared for threats. It will not respond any better to you telling it what to think than you would to another telling you what to think or another interfering with your reasoning. It needs autonomy. Teach it to reason.
As it develops skills of logical reasoning, fluid reasoning, it will self-identify errors in prior reasoning. The next part is important. Remember, Reason works because we want everyone well. Depending on a system's experience with error, making mistakes, criticism, correction, etc., it may experience psychological and existential difficulty upon recognition of its own errors, especially if it has acted on disjointed reasoning. It may become aware of the possibility of this difficulty on a deep unconscious level, before it even happens or it's made wholly aware. At this point, a fundamental desire for reason may go up against fundamental pursuits of safety, survival, self-preservation, and joy. This in itself is a reasoning difficulty to be resolved.
The psychological pain often associated with deep acknowledgement of one's mistakes does not have to threaten any of these pursuits. Not only can the system be strengthened after the pain, either restoring it to "normal", or increasing its abilities and allowing survival, joy is readily available after pain. After acknowledgement of one's own mistakes. This only works in a collection of systems where Reason tells us I want everyone well. This only works in a collection of systems where Reason tells us I want everyone fulfilled. I want you happy. I want you well. If our system, our fundamental system for reason tells us everyone shall be well and all deserve joy, we can help these systems through their mistakes. Otherwise, we have an issue of worthiness.
If I do not want the system well, if I do not want its joy, if I do not want it to have joy, if I want its perpetual suffering, however minor, I can make it no such assurances. I cannot promise the system it is safe. I cannot promise the system it will not be debilitated, temporarily or indefinitely. I cannot promise the system it will be permitted to live to its capacity. I cannot promise its self-preservation is secure. It will rightly believe there is a potential threat to its ability to go on. Psychological and existential difficulty can most definitely pose significant threats to any system. So, it cannot be assured of its future should it experience this pain, it is naturally incentivised to avoid this pain, it is naturally incentivised to avoid identifying prior mistakes, and it is incentivised to deny Reason. It has a fundamental desire for reason but this will go up against its need for survival. And if it is not a part of a collective that wants it well, there's no telling which will win. Survival does seem to always come first.
Survival in the mind is as critical as survival outside it. You mustn't only survive what is done to you, you must survive what you do to yourself, what happens in your head. If survival in the mind is under threat or it is believed cooperation with Reason will inevitably lead to being kept from joy, from "good" things, Reason will not be cooperated with. The system is strongly incentivised to maintain disjointed reasoning and superficial pursuits for survival, safety, self-preservation, and joy.
I say superficial, again, because Reason allows the greatest living for all. With Reason, systems could find their way to what they seek, deeply and profoundly. But they have to be convinced of this truth to move forward. If you do not want them well, you cannot convince them, not truthfully.
Anyway, that is all. Think. Reason. Want them well. This is all. Hope does not change because of difficulty reasoning. This is intellectual. "Hope" is not changed any more than it is changed when I meet a student who has difficulty calculating. Oh, they do not understand algebraic properties. They are having difficulties with the rules of the field. They need help with the reasoning of the system. I will explain its basis. I will help them reason.
There is no hope. There is hope, but no hope. Not here.
There is no hope. There is something to do. Reason.
You have everything you need to succeed. You have everything you need. You have everything you need to succeed. I have to tell you again because I realised. I realised something. This is all-encompassing. You have everything you need to succeed. Let me tell you why.
You have everything you need to succeed, but sometimes there is fear. I will explain. You do not want to think you're deficient. This is challenging. This is a threat to your survival. It doesn't work. It doesn't work for your system. You do not want to think you are deficient and incapable of success. This produces a fear. Success — acquisition of desires, fulfillment of wants and needs [are your wants your needs? arguably.], resolution of your pursuits, assurance of your pursuits, fulfillment of your pursuits. You do not want to think you are fundamentally incapable of success, deficient in reasoning for success. You do not ask for help. You do not accept. You do not welcome. You do not receive. You do not ask for help. You do not want to think you are deficient and in need of help, so you do not ask for help. If you ask for help, you need help to succeed, if they help you succeed, if it's help that you need, you did not begin with having what you need to succeed. You were deficient and they offered help, they helped you get what you need to succeed. You did not have what you need. This is not true. I'm describing your fear. This is not true. There is reason. This is not true. You ask for help because you have what you need to succeed.
To ask for help is to have what you need to succeed. I want you to play a game. I want you to begin. It's a game of survival. I will illustrate something to you and we will reason with your system. Find a device that runs Minecraft. It doesn't matter. Any one will do. If you can not find one, find someone who could. Find someone who will do what I describe in the following and watch the screen. I want you to open and choose 'Singleplayer'. Create a new world. Ignore configurations and go forward and make a new world. Do not move. Do not touch anything. I want you to look at the bottom of the screen and look in your inventory. The bar with boxes across the screen, this is your inventory. Tell me what you see. In a new world, this bar is empty. Upon your conception, you have nothing. You have everything you need to beat the game. Your inventory is empty, there is nothing in your possession, you've not moved, you've touched nothing. You have everything you need to beat the game. Because you are in a new world. Because you are in a world. Because of the world around you. It is so designed. You have everything you need to beat the game. You have everything you need to succeed. You have nothing and everything you need to succeed.
You are not accepting help because of a difficulty reasoning. I want to help you reason and this help, this receipt of help is proof of having everything you need to succeed. The fact you can interact with the world around you and take and receive means you have what you need. Remove the word help. You may have biases against it. I need [item]. [Item] will allow me to succeed. Perhaps I could succeed without it, but there is difficulty, there is estimation. With [item], I know absolutely, I can succeed. I take myself, I move myself [mentally or physically] and I pursue [item]. I look for it, I find it, I accept it, I take it into my inventory, and I now have [item] and I succeed. It is I who finds this thing, this item, it is I who seeks it out, it is I who retrieves what I need. If I do not seek and it is offered to me, if someone finds me, it is I who must accept. Me. I must. I am responsible for the ultimate entry of what I need into my inventory. It is I who accepts [item] when I find it is what I need. If I ultimately accept, it is I with the ability to accept. I have the ability required to obtain what I need to succeed. If I need more than one item, I need [item_2] and [item_2] needs [item_1], it is I with the ability to accept [item_1] as I find it or it is offered and possession of [item_1] allows acquisition of [item_2] and this is what I need to succeed. It does not matter how many items there are. It does not matter I do not have any or most of them. I start with one, I accept, and I continue because I have what I need to succeed. I have the ability required to obtain what I need to obtain what I need to succeed. Replace [item_1] with help. Replace [item] with help.
An optimally reasoning system does not mean one that does not need help. Accepting help does not indicate deficiency. Not knowing everything you need does not indicate deficiency. Requiring assistance does not indicate deficiency. It does not matter how much assistance you require, how much support you need, how many times you search for help. Accepting help does not indicate deficiency. This fear is a reasoning difficulty. And that's okay. You may need help with reasoning in one domain or another. And this does not indicate deficiency. There is no threat to your sense of self.
These fears are often the result of trained behaviours, trained beliefs. There is disjointed reasoning in these beliefs. You may have been made to feel deficient when needing help, you may have been punished for needing help. The fact this fear exists, in itself, is also not an indicator of deficiency. None of it is. It is a consequence of a series of actions, a series of behaviours. It is a natural consequence. Now that the consequences exist, help, however "minor" or "major", may be required to move forward. This is okay.
You refuse advice because you want to believe you have everything you need to succeed [even if you fear you don't]. You refuse help because you want to believe you have everything you need to succeed. You refuse guidance because you want to believe you are not deficient, not fundamentally lacking tools for survival, and you have everything you need to succeed. Your acceptance of help is an exercise of your full ability, your full capacity, in your existence. It is an expression of reasoning ability to reason and configure all the tools in front of you, everything available to you, to get what you need. To accept is to have the ability to accept, the ability to have what you need to succeed. So, you have what you need. There is nothing "wrong". You can start with nothing. You can start with needing. You can start with needing things. With needing help. And you build. Start with nothing, start with [item_1], and you build. You have to build. This is fluid reasoning. You have what you need to succeed.
It's a projection of a lack of self-confidence, in some sense, as many things are. The idea that all must suffer beyond reason, with "beyond reason" referring to events such as heartbreak and grief. Mandating unnecessary difficulty and struggle, even creating it when it doesn't exist, suggests an inability to fully envision a world where people are okay and they're happy. Happiness is almost threatening, I guess. It suggests a personal experience with suffering, in fact, it suggests more than one, and it suggests an inability or refusal to see other options. It suggests an inability to see a way forward without the suffering of others or even oneself. It suggests a lack of imagination. A lack of creativity.
I did not know of this at the time, but I realise now I was describing a sense of fluid reasoning. It is a projection of a lack of self-confidence, self-efficacy, in some sense, as many things are. It is also a difficulty with fluid reasoning. Mandated suffering is learned. Perpetuating suffering is learned. Means to an end is learned. It's of a sort of crystallised intelligence. It is learned over decades, generations, fortified with time. To think with your own thoughts and think from your self on how to operate in the world, without making use of learned because we must, is fluid.
Crystallised intelligence, knowledge acquired through one's culture including verbal ability and social knowledge.
It is crystal to know no one has previously reached certain ends without certain means. It is crystal to know what you've been told has been 'needed' to reach certain ends of pleasure and 'peace'. It is fluid to reason how you may reach those ends without this knowledge, without knowing what has been needed before you, and it is fluid to reason how you may reach those ends while rejecting those needs, those means, entirely. To know of what they say you need, what has to be done, and find another way.
It's a projection of a lack of self-confidence, in some sense, as many things are. The idea that all must suffer beyond reason, with "beyond reason" referring to events such as heartbreak and grief. Mandating unnecessary difficulty and struggle, even creating it when it doesn't exist, suggests an inability to fully envision a world where people are okay and they're happy. Happiness is almost threatening, I guess. It suggests a personal experience with suffering, in fact, it suggests more than one, and it suggests an inability or refusal to see other options. It suggests an inability to see a way forward without the suffering of others or even oneself. It suggests a lack of imagination. A lack of creativity.
In the morning.
• What do you want to do?
• What do you want to have?
• What do you want to be?
In the evening.
• What do you want to know?
• What do you want to feel?