“Methamphetamine addiction is a destructive act of faith. It starts as a near spiritual experience—a gift bestowed by a chemical god, a healer of long-festering wounds and insecurities, an enhancer of all that is good. The glassy-white powder seems to instantly re-create the user in a vastly improved form—braver, smarter, and sexier than ever before.
Once you ingest the drug, you gasp for air and feel your hair standing on end. Your brain kicks into high gear and thoughts come fast with razor-sharp focus, the surrounding world captured in vivid detail and overflowing with brand-new possibilities. But that kind of high cannot last. Using crystal meth is, from a biological perspective, like borrowing from a sadistic loan shark who demands resources faster than you can reasonably replace them—and the interest rate is unimaginably high. When the drug is discontinued, the crash is brutal, the high quickly replaced by a state of bottomless depression and hopelessness. Unlike heroin and cocaine, where this agonizing after-party is relatively ephemeral, when it comes to methamphetamine, there is often a legitimate fear that the depression will last forever.
The clinical term for this state is anhedonia: the inability to experience pleasure. When once even the most trivial activities may have created an excitement bordering on euphoria, now it seems nothing—sex, romance, money or children—can make you happy
-TheFix
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