Velle Vae

-ˏˋ welcome to my diary ˊˎ- ✧.* 18, Aussie *.✧ ☾ poet ☽ ✯Emma Stone is why I'm here✯

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

❧New Intro☙

Hey! I'm Velle <3

Well done finding my secret hideout. Not many people are allowed this far.

I don't advertise this place to many, and don't feel pressure to stay, but if you do, keep it secret; read, but don't ask questions.

This is a dark place, this is my mind, in all its weird webs and fucked up poems and random thoughts.

I'm seventeen, somehow, and this serves as a character study on myself more than anything else. The things here are real, dark, sometimes sadistcally funny, but real. This is my brain if you disected it.

I also have ASD, ADHD, anxiety and OCD, if you were wondering

Stay a while, try to figure out how I work <3

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DNI homophobes, any nsfw accounts - I'm a MINOR, Emma Stone haters, and really anyone that doesn't want to read some poetry or whatever

Also, why do I have to say this? But ALL MY WRITING IS MY OWN, FUCK AI <3

[fairycosmos]

mental illness is like you will crave love but never feel comfortable around anyone ever. your welcome

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

Feels like the summer

In 6 degree weather

And it's winter

But it feels like something is beginning

Or happening

I haven't

Felt

This

At peace

In a while

And I'm worried

But driving in a support worker's car

Feels like I'm 14

Or 13

Or 12

Or 15

Again

Jelly-belly car scent things

Feel nostalgic

For moments

I didn't even know

I missed

It feels like summer

And it feels

Like I can do

Something

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

I am something like looking over the edge of a cliff

And seeing the mangled remains of my body below

Next to the shoreline

And seeing me call out

Knowing

No one would climb down that cliff face

To check I'm alright

I'm the bystander effect,

I only know the bystander effect;

Ignore me

And shun me

And believe

That someone else could help me

Could love me

Could hold me

Could want me

You watch as I blink through nothingness

And you can see

If my eyes

That I know no one is coming

Yet I keep looking up

At the grassy edge of a cliff

Acting as if

I'll be helped

I am something like

Or something certain

Because I don't want to be certain

Of my fates being damned

But I'm afraid

All I know

Is a mangled body

With tar on my tongue

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

Do you think of me still?

Am I a roving thought in your head

Or is your happiness

At the expense

Of me?

[22-cal]

.22CAL

[daddystinygirll]

“you’re so funny” thanks i would have been lobotomized in the 1940s

[hell-on-sticks]

Today in australia they started senate hearings on the bill the government hopes will make enough disabled people die or disappear to make us all less irritatingly expensive for them. We had two weeks to submit feedback on over 400 pages of complicated legal terms. They don't care what we have to say and they don’t care that this will kill people and disenfranchise disabled people across the country.

There are 760,000 Australians on the National Disability Insurance Scheme, the system that - if they feel like it and your personalised plan says you get to have it - provides funding for everything from personal hygiene care to support workers to therapies to assistive technology. It's already very hard for disabled people to get on the NDIS, regardless of your disability. It's near impossible to access most support and equipment without being on the NDIS. And the government has announced that they want that number to drop to 600,000 in four years. 160,000 of us cut off the Scheme - and countless more denied access. This will cause deaths. People will die and people will suffer because there is no safety net. The NDIS is the only option for most of us. Even private health insurance doesn't cover most of these things. Nobody will swoop in to save us.

The bill wants to give the (non disabled!) NDIS minister basically unlimited power to cut our funding. They're already planning what they'd do with that power. What rights they'll strip from us. What dignity and freedom they'll remove to make their budget look better.

The bill wants to force people to try every treatment out there before they're allowed to be on the NDIS. Including if the treatment is literally impossible to access. There’s a lot of us living in regional areas or out bush who can't just pop to the capital cities for specialists. This will especially hurt disabled First Nations people in regional and remote communities, who already experience limited access to healthcare.

If you're australian and worried, the ABC did a good breakdown of the proposed changes.

I know australia stuff doesn't really pop up on the radar on this site, but I want everyone to know what's going on. What we're fighting for here. Your australian disabled friends might be NDIS participants fearing for their life, rights, and freedom. They might not be a participant and afraid these changes mean they never will have access. We deserve better. The government built a system with no backup plan, and now they want hundreds of thousands of disabled people to pay the price for their bad planning.

Sorry we're too expensive to have rights, I guess.

[ancillarypancakes]

It enrages me whenever they say that they're reducing the NDIS because "it's being used for things it was never meant to support" or whatever, and they claim that those things will be shifted to other services.

they haven't actually set up those other services, as far as I know, so it is just cuts. It's just reducing or removing support from some of the most vulnerable and in-need australians.

what a stupid fucking bureaucratic bullshit thing to care about. "oh, these disability supports should be delivered by many agencies instead of one" okay cool that doesn't justify plunging hundreds of thousands of disabled people further into poverty what the actual fuck

[hell-on-sticks]

Today in australia they started senate hearings on the bill the government hopes will make enough disabled people die or disappear to make us all less irritatingly expensive for them. We had two weeks to submit feedback on over 400 pages of complicated legal terms. They don't care what we have to say and they don’t care that this will kill people and disenfranchise disabled people across the country.

There are 760,000 Australians on the National Disability Insurance Scheme, the system that - if they feel like it and your personalised plan says you get to have it - provides funding for everything from personal hygiene care to support workers to therapies to assistive technology. It's already very hard for disabled people to get on the NDIS, regardless of your disability. It's near impossible to access most support and equipment without being on the NDIS. And the government has announced that they want that number to drop to 600,000 in four years. 160,000 of us cut off the Scheme - and countless more denied access. This will cause deaths. People will die and people will suffer because there is no safety net. The NDIS is the only option for most of us. Even private health insurance doesn't cover most of these things. Nobody will swoop in to save us.

The bill wants to give the (non disabled!) NDIS minister basically unlimited power to cut our funding. They're already planning what they'd do with that power. What rights they'll strip from us. What dignity and freedom they'll remove to make their budget look better.

The bill wants to force people to try every treatment out there before they're allowed to be on the NDIS. Including if the treatment is literally impossible to access. There’s a lot of us living in regional areas or out bush who can't just pop to the capital cities for specialists. This will especially hurt disabled First Nations people in regional and remote communities, who already experience limited access to healthcare.

If you're australian and worried, the ABC did a good breakdown of the proposed changes.

I know australia stuff doesn't really pop up on the radar on this site, but I want everyone to know what's going on. What we're fighting for here. Your australian disabled friends might be NDIS participants fearing for their life, rights, and freedom. They might not be a participant and afraid these changes mean they never will have access. We deserve better. The government built a system with no backup plan, and now they want hundreds of thousands of disabled people to pay the price for their bad planning.

Sorry we're too expensive to have rights, I guess.

[ancillarypancakes]

It enrages me whenever they say that they're reducing the NDIS because "it's being used for things it was never meant to support" or whatever, and they claim that those things will be shifted to other services.

they haven't actually set up those other services, as far as I know, so it is just cuts. It's just reducing or removing support from some of the most vulnerable and in-need australians.

what a stupid fucking bureaucratic bullshit thing to care about. "oh, these disability supports should be delivered by many agencies instead of one" okay cool that doesn't justify plunging hundreds of thousands of disabled people further into poverty what the actual fuck

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

Decaying;;

Admired

[mournfulroses]

Margaret Atwood, from an essay featured in "In Other Worlds," originally published in 2011

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

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[filmnoirsbian]

From the bottom of my heart: im not sorry for anything i put on yalls dash, i am my own target audience and i find my taste immaculate but thank u for witnessing 💕

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

I AM LIKE A PINPRICK ON YOUR TONGUE

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

You could not love me for me,

Look around,

I'm the red of blood on your tongue

[thisismynamenowxpoetry]

I only

Feel safe

With you

~ save me

from myself