aksara, cahaya

an extra-terrestrial human being

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

Everglow.

“We see people come, see people go.”

People that you love, all of them.

The one that you really, really love.

Were never yours, in the first place.

They are not your possession, 

one day, they eventually will go

bahkan mereka yang mengaku paling menyayangimu,

bahkan mereka yang benar-benar menyayangimu.

“I know you might be gone.”

Jarak.

Waktu.

Perasaan. 

Kematian.

“So how come things move on How come cars don't slow, when it feels like the end of the world, when I should but I can't let you go”

Semua akan merubah, dirubah dan berubah.

Jadi jangan lagi anggap, mereka harus selalu ada, mereka akan selamanya ada. 

Jangan menuntut sesuatu yang bukan hak kita.

Orang-orang yang kita sayangi, tidak pernah menjadi milik kita.

Dan kita, tidak pernah menjadi milik siapa pun.

“Life is short as the falling of snow.

I know I'm going to miss you, I know.

Oh, what I would give for just a moment to know, yeah, I live for this feeling, it's everglow.

So if you love someone, you should let them know Oh, the light that you left me will everglow.”

You can't save people, you can only love them.

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

1.30 am

Dylan Sada wrote this, once, as her caption (on her instagram).

"I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text message & telling people i love them & telling people they are magical human beings and i cannot believe they exist. I love saying "kiss me harder" and "you are a good person" and "you brighten my day". I live my life as straight-forward as possible. Because one day, i might get hit by a bus.

Maybe it's weird, maybe it's scary, maybe it seems downright, impossible to just be- to just let people know you want them, you need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you dont see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether it's your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands.

But there is nothing more beautiful than being desperate and there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care. We are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not in control as we think we are. 

We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans. We never know when the bus is coming." -unknown.

I'm not that expressive, but yes ya' know, carpe diem, seize your day. Have no regrets.

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

疲れた.

i want you,

to understand that being sad is my nature.

is not because of you, is not because of us, 

for me sadness is beautiful

as beautiful as the silence that we share on our way back home at 3 in the morning, so serene

as tranquil as the breath that we take when we sleep, that rhythm, can you hear that?

sadness is a blessing

i even cry when i see the sky, because it reminds me that we, yes we, human being are sad.

as sad as when i look into your eyes

as sad as my prayer every night

as sad as my way back home.

i want you,

to understand that i have a lot in my mind

a lot

the color of the rain

the scents of your pain

the sound of the wind

the plea of my dream

the touch of the death

and i don’t need you to know what i feel

i just want you to embrace me at 3 in the morning

because i don’t need a friend in the daylight

at dark, i feared my mind the most.

.

.

.

but you don’t understand.

[wordsthat-speak]

Maybe happiness is this: not feeling like you should be elsewhere, doing something else, being someone else.

Isaac Asimov (via girlinlondon)

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

She was full of yearning. To leave, to be someone else, somewhere else, to start moving and never stop. And yet the more the innermost part of her screamed to move, the more she recognised that she was frozen to one place, one life.

Richard Flanagan, The Narrow Road to the Deep North (via anamorphosis-and-isolate)

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

ketika seorang yang penting bagimu telah menerima "your-act-of-kindness", itu saja katanya, sudah cukup.

kamu harus sudah merasa cukup.

kamu harus sering menarik nafas, tutup mata, diam untuk sejenak, belajar untuk melepaskan semuanya, bahkan yang paling kita sayang.

tidak ada yang lebih khusuk daripada sepi yang menyambutmu lagi pulang, tidak ada yang lebih sabar dan mendengarkan dari dingin pukul tiga dini hari, ketika kamu akhirnya sadar "tidak ada yang lebih menakutkan dari dilupakan" 

tapi pada akhirnya, malam akan menepuk pelan bahumu,

"sabarlah, semua ini pernah kau lalui, sampai pada saatnya nanti kamu mungkin mengerti, tidak perlu sesuatu yang sempurna untuk kau cicip bahagia"

"kamu cukup, kamu harus merasa cukup"

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

...kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

Selalu ada kata-kata yang tidak tersampaikan untuk kamu, tersembunyi dan terselip dibawah bantal dan kasurku. 

Kamu selalu ada dibawah kepalaku, tiap malam datang dan menjelang tersebut dalam doa yang tidak pernah berani kusampaikan. 

Selalu ada 'selamat malam' yang tidak akan kukatakan, walau jarak kita hanya sebatas satu tombol send. 

Karena aku tidak pernah berani, tidak pernah pantas. 

Untuk sekedar menyelipkan jemarimu dalam jemariku. Untuk sekedar menyampaikan bahwa sayangku, untuk kamu itu lembut dan pelan. 

Selembut sinar yang merayap dari jendela kamarmu pukul 5 pagi, sinar yang tidak pernah berani untuk menyetak dengan sengatnya. 

Pelan seperti suara detik jam di ruang tamumu. 

Tapi perasaan ini terlalu nyaring, sayang. 

Terlalu nyata, walau aku tidak mau. 

Terlalu ada, meski orang bilang yang seperti ini tidak nyata. 

Jadi aku titip pesan pada surat yang tidak akan pernah sampai ini, 

Untuk kamu menjaga dirimu, Untuk kamu selalu bijaksana, Untuk kamu selalu bahagia, 

Selalu menyayangi orang-orang di sekitarmu dengan lebih lembut, Selalu ingat kepada Dia, Selalu sabar meski saya tahu kamu tidak sabaran, 

Selalu tahu batasan untuk lebih percaya pada apa yang ada di dalam dirimu yang sebenarnya. 

Tidur yang lelap. 

Bersyukur yang banyak. 

Merasa lebih luas. 

Mencintai lebih nyata. 

Dan ingat, ketika semua orang kamu rasa telah pergi. Aku akan tetap ada. Dibalik pintu yang hanya tinggal kamu ketuk. 

Karena aku, seklise apapun terdengarnya, Akan selalu sayang kamu. Untuk kamu yang seadanya, dalam baik dan burukmu. Selamat malam,

[taenypush-deactivated20141013]

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

HAHA LUCU

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

INFPs are rare, katanya sih. aing juga INFP wkwk I love you Nyenye!

yeay we are rare species, hip hooray.

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

My personality type is INFP ,katanya.

INFP personality

INFP personalities are usually perceived as calm, reserved or even shy. However, such an exterior can be deceptive – even though INFPs can be somewhat cautions, their inner flame and passion is not something to be taken lightly. People with this personality type are really affectionate, a trait not often seen in other types.

This compassion can be really fervent and long-lasting – but the INFP will use it quite cautiously, directing their energies towards a few selected people or a worthy cause. Idealism is the banner of INFP personalities – and they are proud of it. Unfortunately, it also means that INFPs can often feel misunderstood and isolated, as they are relatively rare (only 4.3% of U.S. population).

People with the INFP personality type have a clear sense of honor, which inspires and motivates them. If someone wants to get to know an INFP, it is crucial to know what drives them, to understand their chosen cause.

INFPs seek harmony in their lives and the surrounding environment, often feeling dejected because of all the bad things happening in the world and trying hard to create something positive. People with this personality type tend to see things and actions from the idealistic perspective, rather than the prism of logic. They respond to beauty, morality, virtue rather than utility, effectiveness or value.

INFPs can easily speak in metaphors and parables, and they also have an amazing gift of creating and interpreting symbols – for this reason, INFPs often find it natural to write and enjoy poetry. This personality type does not worship logic, unlike the NT types – from their viewpoint, logic is not always necessary. It is also likely that an INFP will not enjoy hypothetical or never-ending discussions.

INFPs may also often retreat into their “hermit” state (this personality type can easily switch between the two states), withdrawing from the world and getting lost in their deep thoughts – their partner may then need to spend quite a lot of effort to energize and “awaken” the INFP.

INFPs have the trait common among NF types – their aptitude for foreign languages is unmatched. INFPs also often become great writers and actors, as they can easily reflect and convey their own personalities using the fictional characters. Generally speaking, people with this personality type are extremely creative, innovative and goal-oriented – they can be great advocates for causes they truly believe in.

Finally, most INFPs have the ability to notice even the slightest hint of good in other people. In INFP eyes, even the most revolting person will have something worthy of respect or, at the very least, sympathy.

Introverted (I) Reserved, listen carefully, prefer solitary activities, more comfortable when alone than when around other people, get exhausted by social interaction

Intuitive (N) Introspective, rely on their imagination, absorbed in ideas, focus on what might happen

Feeling (F) Sensitive, follow their hearts, keep feelings close to the surface, focus on harmony and cooperation

Perceiving (P) Probing, prefer keeping their options open, reluctant to commit, relaxed about their work, seek freedom

  HMM KITU

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

seriously, what is wrong with your mind?

for Stephanie

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

i want to find myself by the sea, .... gonna dive and have no fear

VCR - the xx

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

Aksioma fiksi

Karena sebenar-benarnya saya sangatlah sayang sama anda. Oleh karena itu,

[durianseeds]

[iyo-blog]

Hi, you. To be blatantly honest, this is exactly what I feel right now. 

durianseeds:

“I Think I Am In Friend-Love With You” written by and illustrated by Yumi Sakugawa, published in Sadie Magazine, 2012.

[thisisnotgoodforyou]

dont get any closer to each other, because you will destroy the "beautiful things" and both of us will be so ugly.

image cr: tumblr org lain.

[hi-mi-zu-deactivated20130927]

You lost all interest in this world. You were disappointed and discouraged, and lost interest in everything. So you abandoned your physical body. You went to a world apart and you’re living a different kind of life there. In a world that’s inside you.

1Q84, Haruki Murakami   (via mmariamula)

[pavorst-deactivated20181204]

You Learn —by Jorge Luis Borges After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning And company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts And presents aren’t promises, And you begin to accept your defeats With your head up and your eyes open With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child, And you learn to build all your roads on today Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn… That even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your garden and decorate your own soul, Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure…  That you really are strong  And you really do have worth…  And you learn and learn…  With every good-bye you learn.