Therapy 5/9/17
Today’s therapy session was amazingly productive. Usually when I leave a session I am sad because I have to wait an entire week for the next session and a lot of times we don’t talk about what I’ve been wanting to talk about, because I chicken out and don’t bring it up. Recently this this topic was me being sad that I have to stop therapy when I go off to college in the fall. I was terrified to talk about it. I was terrified that we wouldn’t talk about it and then suddenly I’d be leaving and we wouldn’t have talked about it. I was afraid that she’d say well you’re leaving, keep in touch and that I’d have to find a new therapist. But guess what?! She brought it up! I didn’t have to! She told me that she’s going to be pushing me a little more because the clock is ticking down… I’ll be leaving soon. She said it’s bittersweet because she is so so excited for me, but will also miss seeing me. I said that’s how I felt! I told T that i had made a list of things that scared me about college and having to stop therapy was like my #1 fear. She assured me that I wouldn’t have to stop… that she does FaceTime sessions all the time. And that I could come in when I’m on break. This just totally took a huge weight off of my shoulders. Ever since I decided where I was going to college.. well even before that… I was so so sad and scared about stopping. I’m so happy that I don’t have to stop. FaceTime isn’t the same as being in person, but I will definitely be happy to do it! It’s so so so much better then nothing. Ugh I’m just so so happy she brought it up… cause who knows if I would’ve on my own.