Impermanence;

Shanai - 24 - Sydney, Australia

[pawcakes]

other social media platforms are so glossy and fake .. like on tumblr the girls are suffering right out in the open

[wearedriftedstars]

if someone is really into you, i cannot stress enough how important communication is. if they really like you, they won’t leave you confused about anything. you’ll never be stuck awake at night wondering if you’ve done something wrong, or how long they’ll ignore you for the next day. you’ll never wake up sad that he didn’t text you in the morning - because if he likes you he will. you’ll never question whether you’ve said the wrong things, or if you’re talking too much because if he’s interested, he won’t be able to get enough of you. if someone is truly down for you, they will reciprocate all of your energy all of the time. don’t settle for someone who is only a “sometimes”.

i had high hopes for you. you never reciprocated the love i gave, and that’s okay. maybe it really was you and not me.

[makeitdissappear-deactivated202]

[loveistheword]

maybe someday I will stop hating myself for letting you in.

–gstxb

[eszmeletlenul-szeretlek]

I didn't change. You did. You stopped loving me.

- unknown

[worthless-misery]

"I put on my daily facade, but then I just end up getting hurt again by myself."

Linkin Park, "By Myself"

[silent-insanities]

I want someone to be terrified to lose me.

[anxiousbutconfident]

when lazy kissing gets intense with that deep breath and hip pull

[asoftwrongness]

[perfectfeelings]

“I pray you never again get attached to a person who isn’t for you.”

—

[quotesyoucanrelateto]

[perfectfeelings]

“I got betrayed while my heart was pure. I will never forget that.”

—

[sweetboysig]

So I did kiss you.. and you kissed me. It was like fire that burned down my spine, a deep, insatiable hunger. My heart ached as my lips fell against yours perfectly for the first time since December.

When you dumped me, I blamed myself for coming on too strong. I had another relationship a few months later that ended poorly, as they do. So when you came to me, saying that you liked me, that’s you still had feelings, I initially told you to give me a little time.

I never stopped loving you, not really. And as I’d done the majority of my healing, I thought that maybe allowing myself to love you wouldn’t be so bad. So I waited, I did my best to read all of your signals, I wanted to be sure and I thought that I was.

So while we were cuddling in your bed, as merely friends. Whilst you tried to argue with me that the dimples on your face weren’t adorable. I leaned in and you did too. Our faces were just far enough apart for me to see you glance at my lips and smile softly

So I kissed you and you kissed me back, hard. Afterwards we smile, and laughed, our cheeks as red as fine wine, and hot with a passionate fire. We took a midnight stroll in the rain, barefoot and holding hands. We talked and laughed. Everything seemed so perfect in that moment.

The next day after I left your house, we were messaging back and forth, happily chatting about frogs. I thought that everything was fine. I thought that maybe this was the start of something new and beautiful for us.

But the second I asked you to discuss it, you ghosted me for 2 days. I was terrified that I had upset you, or hurt you. When you told me you didn’t know what to say, I just thought you were embarrassed. I told you how I felt about it, how I still liked you and if you were willing to try again I would love to. You left me on seen for many hours, and I knew what your response was going to be.

“This isn’t going to work out.”

I told you it was okay. It is okay. I would never force you to do anything and I value you as a friend and as a person. I said “let’s just be friends, :)” , you never responded.

I wish we hadn’t kissed. I don’t blame you at all. And I don’t mean to seem selfish, but I feel a bit, lead on, even used.

You told me you still had feelings, you invited me over so we could cuddle, and then, we kissed. And you seemed so happy… I feel like you only want me when you’re lonely..

I don’t blame you.. it just hurts a little. But of course, I’d never tell you that.

There will always be a special place for you in my heart, my dear. Because I like you..

A lot

[allthesepurplelights]

Kygo feat. Zoe Wees // Love Me Now

[tearsoakedarmor]

I Miss You

I miss you I will always miss you I will forever want to scream, “Pick me!”, Because I can’t seem to grasp the fact that you do not want me Despite all the ways you have told me, even screamed it at me. Maybe it is my mental illness that won’t let my brain accept it. Or, maybe I so desperately want a second chance at the only time in my life I felt loved. No matter how toxic it might have been. 

[jupiters-saddest-alien]

“Is it too much to ask…is it too much of a chore..for someone to stick around unlike everyone before..”

-Abby glover- don’t go

[wisp-of-thought]

I have this reoccuring dream

In which I am loved.

That is it.

That is the poem.

Short.

Because it never lasts

It never lasts.