rantin‘ and chantin‘

holy shit she did | it’s ur local emotionally unstable queen (she/they)

[catasters]

[thought-but-not-said]

no you dont understand how attracted i am to young miko i'm yearning

[thought-but-not-said]

the rain making a peaceful white sound but the uneven sound of cars driving by and the harsh sound of bulky droplets falling from the balcony above are destroying my peace of mind. the peace of mind i can only create by nurturing my body with an amphetamine derivative that gives my synapses what they need. but even the substance often fails to work so the options left are moving my body aking my body sweat and tremble and gasp for air

or kissing a beautiful woman.

[vampvre]

Dream blunt rotation but I'm the blunt

[thought-but-not-said]

i'm not okay but i don't know whats wrong. maybe not depression maybe not borderline signs, a little suicidial but so sensitive, actually too sensitive and a lot of adhd abd naking myself feel bad for not doing things on time doing everything unorganized and putting people who do all adult things so adultuous and not like me on a podest not realizing that i shouldnt be that hard to myself but everything is so exhausting and i need help but i dont feel like i am getting the help i need and theres things i could do to help myself but thyre super hard for me because of adhd and possible depression symptoms also why am i even questioning again if i have depression or not, i am invalidating myself. why am i suicidial again and why do i feel like it's a very special person i had in my life and i ruined it and i cant have her back but she was the one who made me survive or sth i dont know thats not weven true but iwant that feeling with her back and it feels like that will never happen and i cant believe i fell for this trap called love AGAIN like its enough cant there be someone who is innocent and also not but like idk i need love i need someone to care for me i feel so fucking neglected and i start wondering again if i should just end it becuase i feel like this will never ever change and then why should i stay like that why does everything hurt why is everything exhausting i dont even want to ask for help anymore sometimes i think why just not take heroin and throw my life away but before that experience a great trip to finally feel peace again and hope but also i kinda started hating the word hope because its something little, something that seems like change and makes you want more of that but its actually not really a change and you will not be getting more of it and then i look bac and think what the hell what did my 14 and 16 and 21 year old self survive for if all i do is feel like shit all the time and ocasionally be in a good mood i am sick and it feels like nothing will make sense but also maybe it will change once i finish my studies get a job and can pay someone to help me with everything in my life so i dont feel so bad about neglecting my obligations and literally is this where all of this is coming from? what the hell adhd can really make you sick in this world okay but also everything else when people didnt have love for me

[butchprinc3ss]

im manifesting extremely passionate lesbian love and freaky sex 🧘🏻✨🧑🏻‍❤️‍💋‍🧑🏻

[prettysheepy]

Fingers in my mouth please? Condescending praise while your fingers are in my mouth please??? 🥺

[aggystuff]

[kotabutch]

being dominant about consent

“you will tell me if something makes you uncomfortable.”

“can I touch you here, sweetheart?”

“would you like me to think for you for a bit, smart girl?”

“i will always take care of you. you can put your trust in me.”

“tell me your color, or i will stop.”

“tell me with words, or i will stop”

[ilovelesbianz]

sighhhhhh i love lesbians so much my heart is going to explode

[inaloversquarrel]

!

[inaloversquarrel]

!

[thought-but-not-said]

ich kann mit meinen gedanken bei mir bleiben

bis der gedanke kommt dass sie mich weniger will und das gefühl sich von meinem bauch in den ganzen körper ausbreitet, das von ablehnung begleitet wird

ich werde nicht gewollt

was ist wenn sie mich nicht mehr will

was dann

wieso kann ich mit der ablehnung nicht umgehen

[thought-but-not-said]

dieses jahr bin ich ständig dem rausch hinterher gerannt

[thought-but-not-said]

what does it mean when you constantly have gay panic around that one person? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (is whats going on in my head)

[thought-but-not-said]

ich hab nur 2 moods

frech oder süß

[thought-but-not-said]

für die eine ist es hilfe für den andern nur musik