All the Challenges since Day 1
She smoked THC while operating a vehicle
She gave the waiter an up and down look like she thought he was cute in front of me. She never offered to split the bill. I paid that damn waiter she checked out Tip even though I didn't want to in order to not look "cheap" even though I am poor and he didn't do anything to deserve tip
She cancelled meeting me on Day 2 despite how I made her sushi and boba tea from scratch. She gave me attitude for being late to meet her despite the fact that I worked that day and was late because showering and cooking is time consuming
When we finally met for the 2nd date I asked about the drawing on her phone's home screen. It was a drawing that her ex made. I wondered if she still had feelings for him.
I smoked 1 "hit" from her vape pen and was super high for 5-6 hours. She kept taking hits from it like she was immune to it.
I decided on this date that I want to marry her. I felt she was the woman of my dreams. I felt so comfortable around her. Like I never felt around ANYONE before. I felt so relaxed- even before I got "high". I felt I couldn't lose with her, since the beginning, but this feeling although it served me well- hurt me later on when I realized she has low standards and had sex with many other men and women before me- none of which I imagine loved her like I did- or some who did but still chose to leave her for reasons unknown to me
On day 3 or 4 I was allowed to visit her home. She told me her female cats like men. I couldn't help but wonder how many male sex partners she introduced to her cat for her to get the impression that it likes men.
When I hugged her for over 30 seconds she always broke up the hug first- as if she didn't enjoy them as much as I did. She said to me in the first date or 2nd "I'm not the touchy feely type"
On the 2nd date I brought homemade sushi as well as brought cherry juice extract and soda water- to recreate the cherry soda she ordered at the restaurant on our first date. I brought a 64oz water bottle to the park and she looked at it and said something along the lines of "I like them that big" as if giving a hint that she likes big dick.....On the 4th or 5th date she asked if I had a big dick.....Meanwhile later on in the relationship she claims she wasn't the first to bring up sex....A lie.
She cancelled another meeting with me to have lunch with a friend of hers
She made comments in text that make me think she highly values looks, and sex, and fun conversation above all else
She asked me on a date "Do you get bored easily" and before I could answer she said "Because I do" and I took this in reference to being bored of monogamy/a partner but I didn't ask her what she meant by that. I figured it was about monogamy/a partner because that was the subject before she asked and she told me about how she dated a guy before (I guess the artist) who had bad teeth, a messy bathroom, and who never did anything new with her in terms of dates
She asked me if I wanted to join her in her drive to Tampa. Even though I was sleepy from working night shift I agreed to join her in the morning because I love her. Her mom called her during the car ride and told her to make sure she tells her psychiatrist that she is having memory issues. Once we arrived I repeated what her mom said: and reminds her to tell her Dr. When she was in the office she left her phone behind and unlocked. I picked it up. I wish I had snooped in it but I didn't because the receptionist saw me look through it and gave me the evil eye. I saw that she had the BLK dating app and I was hugely offended because by that time I considered her my girlfriend already and meanwhile she still had a dating app and to date black men. I thought it was disgusting and offensive but I didn't click the app to see if she used it and I regret not doing that. When I brought this up to her over a month later she claimed that she installed it "as a joke" when really I'm sure she installed it in search of big dick and there is nothing at all funny about that. its disgusting and humiliating.
On a date I put my hand on her thigh and moved it upwards toward her private area. She stopped me from touching her and said "I want to be engaged first before I go any further". I was happy and proud of her for saying that. I really thought she was a good girl for saying that and I was surprised because I was under the impression she was a bad girl. the truth is that she IS a bad girl and that requesting an engagement first was due to her having HPV. She didn't reveal that truth until weeks later AFTER I engaged to her. I felt so humiliated.
