ThoughtsOfAnEnby

{they/them} //25\\ \/(•∆°)\/ I'm really funny and cool and beautiful and sexy actually. And a teeny tiny bit odd. Perchance.

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They say that consistency is key. But who are "they"? And what is the key for? A sort of lock? What does it unlock? What awaits beyond?

What I am trying to get at is that consistency is not something you will encounter much on my page: I don't upload consistently at all, and the themes and topics and stuff that I post are also highly inconsistent. Sometimes I am silly (which is what I tend to be). Sometimes I am depressed. Sometimes I am trying to dismantle the system.

But I am always me. Whoever that may be. I am prone to having existential crisis (plural¹). Tee-hee.

¹ "plural" as in the plural of "existential crisis", not being plural. Because I'm not actually plural, nor do I want to accidentally claim to be. I just felt like clearing that up before anyone asks.

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I wonder... I ponder... I... pond? Am I... a pond? A pond, contained within a bag of meat? A meat bag pond? No, that sounds gross and off-putting. Off-... pudding? Am I a pudding? But wasn't I a pond just now? Am I a pudding or a pond? I wonder... I... ponder? Pond her? But I hardly know her! Additionally, how would one pond someone? What does that entail? So much to ponder... Although I am certainly not about to pond her! Whatever that means... And who is she? Who am I? Am I losing my mind? Do I even have a mind? But how could I possibly lose something if I didn't have it to begin with? Oh my... I may need to lay down for a bit... Possibly for the rest of eternity... And I shall not ponder. But what shall I do then? I wonder... I ponder... Oh god not this again!!!

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Imagine hating me, meanwhile I'm just minding my own business in my own little bubble looking like this:

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If it wasn't for *insert disturbingly long list here*, I would be absolutely unstoppable

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I just feel like I made the world worse, and I won't be alright before I undo my harm and mistakes, and make it better again, but I don't know how to do so...

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I haven't really been on here for a little while. I guess that means I've been doing well lol

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"I'm so tired. I need to go to bed" I say and spend over an hour putting together an utterly useless Instagram post consisting mostly of selfies I took a couple days ago because my makeup looked rather immaculate

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I am tired and exhausted – of course a tidal wave of sorrow and despair washes over me

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It was, in fact, not a common cold – it was influenza (or something along the lines of a flu). And I was rather ill last week, with a high fever and everything. But I survived.

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Okay so you know how I'm non-binary, right? Well, for the last couple of days, I have been rudely and consistently misgendered by this mysterious and odd phenomenon known by a select few as "man flu". I am not a man, and I find it extremely rude and inconsiderate of my very own body to misgender me in this highly unacceptable manner. I shall be speaking to my lawyer about this, that's for damn sure! And there will be a lawsuit, and I will emerge victorious. Mark my words...

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I have caught a common cold. I will therefore have little to no future. I should simply drop out of university and retire in the countryside to enjoy the little time I have left on this blue marble. I shall not bid my friends adieu, for that would be far too taxing for both them and myself. I shall simply glide peacefully into the mist and never look back, never return. I will become one with the mist.

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He p my us 'til I sy

(with a little effort, this could be pronounced as "he pee in my ass 'til I sigh")

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He g my string 'til I thong

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Cooking some sausages (and chips/fries) in the oven rn🤤🤤🤤

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Trimmed my undercut today, and I'm feeling really stunning and sexy and beautiful and slay (although my pose says otherwise lol)^^

And yeah, of course I cut my hair myself – why would I go to a hairdresser when I have my gay audacity? I've been cutting my hair myself since the summer of '22, and I definitely prefer doing it myself, because I have the vision to guide me, and the gay audacity to push through and slay every single time.

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I've been on a mission to get a better sleep schedule all year (2026). So far I've been very much unsuccessful. Insomnia is a bitch, but I'm trying to make it my bitch. However, it seems like I'm its bitch instead...

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Yearning for a T4T relationship rn