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Working on a new blog that will just combine this blog and my @lonelysnowprincess so i wonāt have to handle multiple blogs on different accounts. It should be done today and Iāll be replying to rps again
Itās mostly done now. Main muses are done and working on a rules page and etc. Name is the same @thxrabbithole
Working on a new blog that will just combine this blog and my @lonelysnowprincess so i wonāt have to handle multiple blogs on different accounts. It should be done today and Iāll be replying to rps again
Ā it was during this game dimitri realized how much he didnāt know about kuro. he had spent so much time with him, but what he knewā¦ was merely him pretending to be raven. aside from questions about his condition, dimitri became curious of his more mundane interests. what was his favorite food? color? animal? what kind of music did he listen to?
Ā Ā Ā Ā he wanted to know everything.
Ā Ā Ā Ā dimitriās eyes widened a little at kuroās question. now it was his turn to blush. he reached a hand into his tangled hair and twirled a strand around his finger. ā iā umā¦ n-no, ā he laughed, embarrassed, ā iā¦ i g-guess weāre both on the same boat, huh? ā
Imagine that. According to Dimitri, Kuro had been freaking out about it while Dimitri was in the same predicament. Maybe thatās why he was laughing at him before. In any case, his answer only caused Kuroās heart to beat even faster and his breathing to become more shallow. It was more than obvious what he was thinking about, at least to him. He wasnāt sure for his cuddle buddy however.
āT....Then.....my next question,ā he cleared his throat then paused as he tried to gain up the courage to even ask it. What was he doing? There was a high chance of this all blowing up in his face if he said it. In fact, he was almost positive that it would but....he couldnāt help but to do it.
ā....w...would you want to....kiss me?ā Once he finally managed to get it out, he quickly followed up with insulting himself, hoping to lighten things up in case Dimitri rejected the offer.Ā āI-I mean ya know....heh....like....practice and stuff. O-Only if ya want but....um....I-I....wouldnāt mind it...ā
dimitri wasnāt necessarily asking out of possession or because he wanted to be the only one who knew. he simply wondered if the reason kuro didnāt have any friends besides him becauseā¦ he was the only one to know kuro even existed.
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā oh, ā dimitri answered softly, nodding his head with understanding. he pretended to be raven around others just like he had done to him in the past. of course, there were obvious differences that anyone who actually knew raven could point out, but not enough to convince someone that the person inside ravenās body wasnāt raven.
Ā Ā Ā Ā new questions swirled in dimitriās head. was he really raven, too? did he mean that in the sense that he was raven because it was his body as well? he wondered if kuro pictured himself differently than what his body looked like. but for now, he shook his head, shaking the thoughts off.
Ā Ā Ā Ā he didnāt want to be too intrusive all at once. ā itās your turn. you can ask two questions if you want, since i went twiceā¦ ā
Kuro didnāt want to focus much on what heād just said about his....Ravenās family. Nor did he want to pay mind to his comment about him being Raven. In truth, it hurt him to say so. It was important to him to think of himself as his own being, but at the end of the day he was stuck like this.... and there was nothing that could be done.
āUh...,ā Kuro opened his mouth, trying to find something that he could ask the boy. He had a multitude of questions for him, but for the moment he could only ask two? After his mind wondered on what he should ask, his heart beat began to quicken again. Kuroās eyes fluttered down to Dimitriās lips before biting down on his own.
ā...well....since you asked me I um.....h...have you ever kissed anyone?ā He breathed, holding his breath as he asked. He wasnāt sure what he would get out of the question, but he had an idea of what he wanted to ask next.
Ā dimitri couldnāt help but giggle as kuro stumbled on his words. usually he was the one getting flustered, so it was almost refreshing to hear it from kuro.
Ā Ā Ā Ā he covered his mouth with his palm, trying to muffle his laughter. it wasnāt so much his answer that dimitri found amusingā he hadnāt kissed anyone either ābut hearing kuro stutter like that wasā¦ kind of endearing.
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā heh, y-yeah, of course, ā he nodded, pursing his lips to hide his grin, ā iā¦i know itās not my turn now butā¦ c-can i ask another question? ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā his expression shifted then, the playful look on his face transforming into one a little more serious. with a small smile, dimitri quietly asked, ā ā¦am i the only person who knows about you? besides ravenās family, anywayā¦ ā
Kuroās blush finally began to fade away, but not after Dimitriās muffled giggles made him pout his lips up like a toddler. After that question, Kuro had honestly forgotten to ask anything after. He had been to busy thinking of other things...
So, when Dimitri took it upon himself to ask another, Kuro quickly turned back to the boy in surprise. He wasnāt asking anything too personal, at least not to him, but it had just taken him by surprise. He was surprised to hear someone even care about something like that.
āH-Huh?....oh um....yea...,ā he answered softly, voice almost a whisper. To his knowledge, no one else knew about his situation with Raven. To everyone else, he was just Ravenās bad side. Still Raven...just the side everyone hated. It was hard to say really. The entire thing was confusing for everyone, and so they didnāt really talk about it.
āI.....donāt really interact with them...,ā he admitted, voice still quiet.Ā āI mean....I-I still act like Iām Ra...him....when I do come out but....I-I never told them like I did you.ā He then laughed softly, not wanting to turn the conversation south.Ā āI mean Iām Raven too right? So it doesnāt matter...ā
Ā Ā ā y-yeah, i guess thatās trueā¦ ā he murmured, nodding his head. kuroās situation was definitely a unique one, one that dimitri didnāt think was possible until he actually witnessed it.
Ā Ā Ā Ā dimitri furrowed his eyebrows at kuroās joke, confused, until he actually elaboratedā¦ his cheeks flushed, a shy laugh leaving his lips. dimitri shifted his arm up, cupping kuroās cheek momentarily only so he could locate the otherās nose to press it back, ā w-who are you calling a dork with a joke like that? ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā he moved his arm again, pulling it close to his chest as kuro asked his question. ā hmmā¦ my favorite food is pepperoni pizza, ā dimitri started, ā but i like all kinds of sweet stuff too. and my favorite drink is orange soda or ginger tea. i drink a lot of coffee, butā¦ ā he made a face before laughing, ā i actually donāt like it. ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā it was as if dimitriās nightmare begun to fade away, the giggles and silly conversation drowning out the voices in his head. his next question, he asked rather shyly and out of pure curiosity, ā hmmā¦ h-have you ever kissed anyone..? l-like not your body or raven, i mean you? ā
Kuro locked Dimitriās answer in the back of his mind. Heād have to remember that, and bring him it as a surprise one day. Pizza wasnāt hard to get or that expensive, so Kuro figured it wouldnāt effect Raven too much if he used his money for it. Not that he really cared anyway.Ā
However, when it was Dimitriās turn to ask a question again, it was Kuroās turn to become flustered. His cheeks slowly burned red at the question asked. Kissing..... no. He had never actually done so to anyone. Whenever Raven had his encounters with someone in that sort of manner, Kuro would instinctivelyĀ āturn off his sensesā.Ā
āAh...uhhh....n....not really...I mean!.....ā He stumbled over his words for a moment. He didnāt want to lie to Dimitri, but he felt like if he told him the truth he would think he was lame for not having done it.Ā āI uh.....ugh..no,ā he sighed, eyes lowering to glance at Dimitriās own. He swallowed hard then blinked and turned his attention to anywhere but Dimitriās face.
ā....b-but it aint like I couldnāt have ya know! Itās just that....I-I didnāt want to so...,ā he huffed, now sounding like a little kid.Ā
Ā Ā Ā dimitri squealed, which was then quickly followed by giggles, as kuro threw both of them to lay back on the bed. he squirmed around as he got into a more comfortable position, laying on his side with an arm draped over kuroās torso and his head rested on his chest.
Ā Ā Ā Ā the sound of his heartbeat caused dimitri to smile.
Ā Ā Ā Ā when kuro suggested they play a game, dimitri nodded his head, humming as he tried to think of a good question to ask. he didnāt want to get too personal, at least, not for the first question, so he finally settled on what he was going to ask: ā do you believe in aliens? ā
āAliens huh?ā Kuro blinked, surprised by the question he had proposed, and turning to look at the ceiling as if he could see the nighttime sky. Things like this were never really on his mind....or rather he could never really focus on one particular factor. His mind was always wondering on every little thing....perhaps he had thought about it at one point.
āI mean....I guess ya could say I do,ā he chuckled, scratching his head.Ā āI canāt really say I donāt when we got a situation like the one Iām in ya know? If thatās possible then I think anything is.ā He glanced at Dimitriās face once more for a minute, then smiled even brighter.Ā āBesides, you definitely gottaā be an alien,ā he teased, playfully tapping Dimitriās nose.Ā āI mean....cause youāre outta this world, dork.āĀ
His terrible pick up line aside, he laughed at himself for saying it in the first place then began to think of a question he could ask Dimitri.Ā āHmmm.....whatās your favorite thing to eat? Oh....and drink!ā
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Raven: Quality Time
Even though his test took the longest to choose, I can actually see this being correct. Raven isnāt very physically, not until he gets very close to someone. Until then, he just enjoys being in close proximity to his special someone.
Archer: Words of Affirmation
Archer loves to be toldĀ āI love youā and how much you appreciate him. Heās like a puppy who will jump up and down every time you praise him. Words are special to him and mean a lot.
Vermillion: Physical Touch
Vermillion prefers physical touch, and although this might sound strange because heās so shy and fragileā¦itās actually pretty spot on. He loves hugs and being close to you, snuggling and cuddling you. Heās very touchy, but in a gentle and soft sort of manner.Ā
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Ā ā hm? ā dimitri hummed, eyebrows raised as kuro hopped up from the bed and dashed out the door. once he returned and explained what he was doing, dimitri nodded his head.
Ā Ā Ā Ā he sometimes asked talon to put makeup on him, usually on days he felt extra insecure about his appearance. but after going on with his day, he sort of forgot it was there, and left it unremoved. only then did he realize with all his crying hoe smudged it must have been. he probably looked like a raccoon. ( he was now partially thankful raven didnāt see him in such a state. he didnāt want to embarrass himself any more in front of raven than he already has in the past. )
Ā Ā Ā Ā as kuro stumbled on his words to try to comfort him, dimitri giggled. it was amusing, but overall, heartwarming, that even though he didnāt know how to comfort dimitri, he did everything he could think of to make him feel better. he returned kuroās embrace, resting his head in the crook of his neck, ā hugsā¦ hugs are good. y-youāre doing good. ā he answered softly. the tears had stopped by now, and though he was still sniffling, he was now smiling.
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā c-can we just, likeā¦ c-cuddle and talk?ā n-not about my dream. justā¦ talk. about good things. ā
Hearing Dimitri say that Kuro was actually doing well caused the boy to perk up as if he were a puppy. He smiled brightly and wrapped his arms around Dimitri suddenly, throwing them back onto the bed. He held him close, staring at him with a goofy grin on his face.Ā
āCuddles I can do,ā he whispered, reaching his hand up to play in Dimitriās hair.Ā āAnd we can talk about whatever ya want.ā He thought for a moment, wondering what he could ask him to distract him from his nightmare.Ā āHm....howĀ ābout we play a game? Question for a question. You can ask me something about myself....and Iāll ask you something about yourself. Aaaand Iāll be nice and let you go first.ā
Ā dimitri snaked his arms around kuroās waist, holding onto him tightly as if he was assuring himself this wasnāt a dream, he was really here. with his face was buried in kuroās chest, he nodded his head with a muffled, ā okay. ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā a quiet noise escaped him as he was swiftly picked up, arms instinctively wrapping around kuroās neck in order to support himself. ā p-prince? ā dimitri stuttered, a shy and wavering smile on his lips. he leaned his bowed head against kuroās shoulder, trying to hide his flustered expression behind his messy hair as he was carried back into his bedroom.
Ā Ā Ā Ā once he was placed back on his bed, dimitri pulled his legs up to his chest, an action he typically did when he felt nervous of vulnerable. he wrapped his arms around them and rested his cheek against his knees. after a moment of contemplating kuroās question, dimitri sighed.
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā n-notā¦good, ā he answered with a breathy laugh and a sniffle, ā b-butā¦ better now that y-youāre here. ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā i justā¦ r-really hate being alone like thisā¦ then i-i start thinking t-too much and it hurts. ā
Kuro wore a soft expression on his face as he gazed over Dimitri before realizing he still needed to clean his face.Ā āHey, give me just a secā mkay?ā Kuro quickly hopped from the bed and headed towards the bathroom, looking for a cloth to dampen. Once that was done, he had returned to Dimitriās side post haste.Ā
āAaaaand back,ā he smiled.Ā āLemme clean ya up okay?ā He made sure that Dimitri was aware of everything he was doing, being as gentle and caring as possible. He didnāt want to alarm or trigger him in any way that would make him start crying again.Ā
Taking the cloth, Kuro wiped away at the makeup and tears across Dimitriās face. When he was done, he simply placed the cloth beside him on Dimitriās dresser then turned his attention back to the boy.
ā...mm....,ā Kuro could be a shoulder for Dimitri to cry on, but he didnāt really know how to help him. He wasnāt exactly the best at being uplifting, at least he thought. He wasnāt smart like..... Kuro rolled his eyes for even thinking that thought, sighed and wrapped his arm around Dimitri.Ā āI uh.....I donāt think I know how to handle this...but um....I wanna hug you alot and give you everything you want and need so....I-I....that....makes you feel better right? Iām not doing anything wrong am I?ā
Ā Ā Ā dimitri gripped his cell phone tightly, knees pulled closer to his chest, and toes curling as he listened to kuro scramble to get up on the other side of the line. he couldnāt help the weak smile that reappeared, not because of his joke, but because dimitri was genuinely touched that kuro would go against ravenās wishes to comfort him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā okay, ā he answered, shaky voice no louder than a whisper. and with that, he hung up.
Ā Ā Ā Ā it was only a few minutes alone, but it truly felt like agony. dimitri was too scared to fall asleep on his own, but staying awake meant he would have to deal with all the thoughts in his mind. the nightmare replayed repeatedly in his head, ravenās false words and his refusal to come echoing in his ears over and over until dimitri couldnāt take it.
Ā Ā Ā Ā he sat on the kitchen floor, the wood cold against his bare legs. had he been in his right mind, he would have put on some pants as soon as he knew company was coming. he never liked letting people see how pale and bony he was, his emaciated limbs disgusting himself. but at this point, dimitri could barely get himself to stop crying, much less change his clothes.
Ā Ā Ā Ā so as soon as there was a knock on the door, dimitri swung the door open. he looked up toward kuroās voice with puffy, watery eyes, old makeup smudged on his eyelids from how many times he had tried to rub away his tears. he stood there with shaky legs, an oversized grey hoodie, and boxers decorated with skulls. and with only a moment of hesitation, he leaned forward and let himself fall against kuro.
It was a shock at how fast Dimitri had opened the door for Kuro after he knocked. It was almost as if he had been waiting there for him. Before Kuro could act however, Dimitri fell into his chest, and Kuro wrapped his arms around the shaken young man.Ā
āH-Hey whatās.......itās okay,ā he spoke in a gentle, calm voice as he hugged Dimitri tight and rubbed his back to sooth him.Ā āI told ya Iād make it here in a flash right? And here I am,ā he smiled, looking down at the top of his head.Ā āSo what we can do is get your face all cleaned up and then sit and talk in ya room till ya comfy okay? Or, whatever ya wanna do.ā
Without warning, Kuro bent down and placed his arm underneath the back of Dimitriās legs to lift him up and hold him bridal style.Ā āDonāt even bother with walking cause Iām gonna carry my distraught prince all the way back to his fort,ā he joked, leading Dimitri into his bedroom.Ā āYour knight is here to save the day,ā he hummed, stepping into the boyās room and over the messes that were all over the floor. He had no problem with Dimitriās room, and he especially would not make a comment about it at his particular moment. His only concern was Dimitri and Dimitri alone.
āāHere we go,ā he said as he placed Dimitri on his bed and took a seat beside him.Ā āHow are ya doin?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā dimitri sniffled, whimpering quietly as he tried to hold back his tears. why was he crying? just because raven said no? it felt like rather than simply being told no, it was the weight of that and his dream, his fears, his sadness, and anxiety all bubbling up in the manifestation of tears.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā iā iām s-sorryā¦ i-i just, ā he quickly wiped his face with his arm, before pounding himself on the head once more, ā i-itās okay, i-i understandā ā but dimitri cut himself off to try to focus on breathing once again.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā once he had calmed down enough to speak again, he quietly asked if raven was still there, only to be met with silence. dimitri assumed he probably fell asleep, and though he could have hung up, he didnāt. he wished he had never asked raven to come over. maybe then he wouldnāt have felt so empty with rejection, listening to silence on the other end of the phone.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā dimitri stayed like that, the phone pressed against his ear, listening to ravenās quiet snores. he allowed a weak smile to lift his lips at the sound. but then, he heard scrambling, and ravenās voice againā more frantic this time.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā with furrowed eyebrows and puffy eyes, dimitri quietly answered, ā ā¦k-kuroā¦? y-you donāt have to, iāā¦ i d-donāt wanna be a burden, o-or anythingā¦ ā
āNah..,ā Kuro answered, scrambling from Ravenās bed to quickly slide on his slippers. He didnāt care if he wasnāt dressed appropriately. He needed to make sure that Dimitri was truly alright.Ā āIāll be over there in like ten minutes alright?ā He did his best to try and lighten the mood, trying to make a joke of the situation.Ā āAnd ya better not fall asleep or Iāll knock some sense into ya for leavinā me out at the front door.ā
With that last message, Kuro hung up the phone and shoved it in the pocket of his pajama pants. Rushing down the stairs, Kuro found himself almost stumbling and hurting himself to get to his motorcycle. His family was obviously asleep, but that wasnāt on his mind right now. He didnāt care how much noise he made.
After a few more minutes of tripping over random objects in the dark, Kuro had been able to start Ravenās motorcycle and was on the highway towards Dimitriās apartment. They didnāt live too far away, and with the exception of his vehicle and the fact that there was barely any traffic on the road Kuro had made it there in just about ten or fifteen minutes.Ā
Parking the bike, he hopped off and tossed his keys into the pocket that held his phone and hurried to knock on the door of the home.Ā āDimi?? Dimitri you there?ā He asked while beating on the door. He was honestly worried about the boy, having heard how distraught he was. He hated seeing Dimitri cry. It made him feel powerless, and he wanted to do all that he could to make the boy feel better.Ā āItās me! I made it!ā
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