What A Feeling, Being Alive

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[thxripper]

"The problem with humanity, my dear- is that they hate what they can never understand."

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Addiction | Organized Crime | Nobility Mental Illness | Loneliness | Debauchery Greed | Taboo | Breaking Boundaries

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[rpmemes-galore]

aches and pains … sentence starters

tw for chronic illness / chronic pain and body dysmorphia 

“Shit, it hurts!”

“I’m used to it hurting.”

“It’s nothing. It just hurts, again.”

“I just can’t ever get comfortable.”

“My whole body just feels… wrong.”

“No, it’s normal pain. I’m used to it.”

“I wish these scars would just go away…”

“It hurts too much to stand up, I need to sit.”

“I’m tired of feeling off all the time, that’s all.”

“I think I need a hot shower and some painkillers.”

“It doesn’t even feel like this body is… me, anymore.”

“God, I wish I could be healthy for one day. Just one.”

“No, it doesn’t really hurt today. It’s just uncomfortable.”

It’s a bad day, again. I might need some help getting up.”

“It just feels like there’s something in me that’s not… me.”

“I don’t even remember what it’s like to get a good night’s sleep.”

“What’s it like waking up and NOT always hurting? Must be nice.”

“Man, if I hurt this much already, it’s really gonna suck to get older.”

“I need a hand up. If I start crying, don’t stop, it’s manageable pain.”

“I’m only (age)! I shouldn’t have the aches of a 90 year old woman.”

“I feel like a burden. I wish I was healthy so no one has to look after me.”

“This doesn’t even feel like a body, anymore. It’s just a big ball of pain and ick.”

“It feels like my body’s never… right. Like there’s always something wrong with it.”

“I don’t want to stay in bed, ‘cause my brain’ll tell me I’m lazy. But, it hurts too much to stand up today.”

“I don’t want to have to ask for help. I wish I could just do these things by myself, but my body won’t let me.”

[raesource]

angst-y sentence starters

if you are sending to a multi-muse, remember to specify the muse that the sentence starters are being sent for .

“ I never asked you to save me - I asked you to stay. ”

“ You keep saying you’re fine, but I can still see the blood on your hands. ”

“ Don’t touch me. Everyone I love ends up broken. ”

“ I forgave you the first three times. There won’t be a fourth. ”

“ You weren’t there when I needed you most, so why are you here now? ”

“ I stopped counting the days since you left - turns out forever is shorter than I thought. ”

“ All those promises you made sound like lies when I say them out loud. ”

“ I kept your side of the bed empty for a year. It’s time to admit you’re not coming back. ”

“ You look at me like I’m a ghost, but you’re the one who killed us. ”

“ I would have burned the world down for you. You wouldn’t even cross the street. ”

“ Say it. Say you never loved me so I can finally stop hoping. ”

“ The worst part isn’t that you lied - it’s that I still believed you. ”

“ I practiced smiling in the mirror so you wouldn’t notice I’m falling apart. ”

“ You taught me how to trust again. Thanks for the lesson. ”

“ Every time you walk away, a piece of me goes with you. ”

“ I didn’t lose you. You threw me away the moment someone better came along. ”

“ Stop apologizing. The damage is already done. ”

“ I still reach for you in my sleep and wake up colder than before. ”

“ You said ‘forever’ like it was easy. ”

“ I keep replaying the last time you said my name, trying to hear love in it. ”

“ The silence after you left is louder than any fight we ever had. ”

“ I was ready to die for you. You weren’t even willing to live for me. ”

“ Tell me where it hurts, so I know where to stop touching. ”

“ You moved on so fast I didn’t even get the chance to miss you properly. ”

“ I built my whole world around you, and you just walked out the door without looking back. ”

“ The worst lies are the ones we tell ourselves to survive loving you. ”

“ I finally deleted your number. My phone still autocorrects ‘I’m sorry’ to your name. ”

“ You weren’t the villain - you were just cruel with good intentions. ”

“ I hate that I still check if you’re okay when I’m the one bleeding. ”

“ We didn’t break up. We slowly tore each other apart until there was nothing left to save. ”

“ You said you’d never make me cry. Look at me now. ”

“ I keep the voicemail you left the night everything fell apart. I’ve listened to it so many times I know your pauses by heart. ”

“ Loving you feels like drowning in slow motion while you stand on the shore. ”

“ I wasn’t enough to make you stay, but I was enough to make you feel guilty about leaving. ”

“ You came back like nothing happened, but I’m still picking up pieces you don’t even see. ”

“ I stopped leaving the porch light on. You never noticed anyway. ”

“ The saddest part is I still defend you when people ask why I’m not over it. ”

“ You didn’t just break my heart - you broke my ability to believe anyone else. ”

“ I finally understand why you always said ‘don’t get attached.’ You never planned on staying. ”

“ Every happy memory we had now feels like evidence in a crime scene. ”

“ I wish I could hate you. It would hurt less than this. ”

“ You keep asking what you can do to fix this. Start by going back in time. ”

“ I smiled in all the photos so no one would know you were destroying me behind them. ”

“ The hardest part of letting go is realizing you let go first. ”

“ I still flinch when someone says your name like it’s a curse. ”

“ You weren’t a chapter - you were the whole book, and now it’s on fire. ”

“ I didn’t lose feelings. They were murdered, slowly, every time you chose not to choose me. ”

“ I hope one day you look for me in a crowded room and feel what I feel every single day. ”

“ You walked away like it was easy, but I’m still here trying to remember how to breathe without you. ”

“ I finally stopped waiting for you. That’s the closest thing to healing I’ve managed so far. ”

[scarletsourcesarchived-deactiva]

This is an oc x canon safe zone.

[hatsudaikon]

               i’m suppose to be the STRONGER  ONE             you always seem to prove that theory wrong

[rpmemepalkia]

Please reblog this if your blog is crossover friendly

aka you are happy to write with muses who aren't in your same fandom (fandomless muses of similar genre for instance)

+ specify in tags what kind of crossovers you're open to

[thxripper]

"Oh, you build ONE neutrino bomb and suddenly it's the Naughty List for life? That's not fair, mate."

[thxripper]

" Ah, a fellow Ripper I see. But a different kind of Ripper. You see.....I left my humanity behind long ago to become something.....better.

Young Ripper.....meet....the Father of Rippers."

( @whitechcpel)

Edward let out a hungry chuckle, the bellowing starting in the pit of his chest. "Young, he says."

"Mate, I'm nearly three hundred years old."

Hyde offered a deep bow, dignitas and respect painting the smirk on his face. One killer to another, there had to be a certain respect for the artform, and the artist- and as it were, they had been one and the same.

"I was never a human in the first place. But perhaps the reasons are quite the same, my good man."

[rpmemes-galore]

send my muse a question about their life / their goals / etc. + an age, and they will answer it the way they would at that age! 

[patchs-muse-hub]

hey so I have a week and a half left before rent and other bills are due and still need $475 dollars.

So, emergency commissions again.

HMU if you want one!

[johannes-van-helsing]

"Because I'm just too damn kind-hearted?"

The Hunter remarked with a soft chuckle, he smiled a little, not leaning away from Edward's touch, it felt nice, oddly soothing. He paused for a moment before speaking again

"Thank you, Edward" He said softly, looking up at the scientist. "I'll admit, I don't...I don't know what to do about this...thing. This curse. Its something I'll likely have to live with, at least for the moment...But thank you, for reminding me that I'm still...well...me."

[thxripper]

"Johannes, you're incapable of being anyone but yourself. Why do you think our little peace treaty has worked the way it has?"

His touch lingered, craning the Hunter's neck to meet his gaze more firmly. Guiding him, in a way, to match his own posture, his gaze. "Monster or man, you are too good to not be yourself. We'll manage the curse, help you find your pace. Poppet and I won't let you deal with this alone."

"You're stuck with us, old boy. Hell or high water."

[johannes-van-helsing]

"Edward I was completely out of my mind, I was barely able to wrestle back control from the curse, what if-" The words seemed to catch in his throat at the mere thought of it "What if I had killed you?" It seemed a strange thing to be worried about, they had been rivals for years before their alliance and had tried to kill each other many times.

Though as the years had gone by it had become less about trying to kill him and more match him, their rivalry had brought about a level of mutual respect that had made him care for Edward in a strange roundabout way. Now the thought of it brought on a hollow feeling in his chest, a kind of dread he had never felt before.

"If I had...I never could have lived with myself..."

[thxripper]

"But you didn't hurt me. Did you?"

Edward brought his hand to cradle the Hunter's face, gazing on him with a softness that Edward had never actually shown him. His palms,. calloused from centuries of labor and research, scarred by bloodshed and mayhem, somehow felt strangely soft in that moment.

Peaceful, even.

"You didn't. Because you wouldn't. And we both know why.. don't we?"

[thxripper]

"You know, it wouldn't be a bad career opportunity. A merger between Hyde Consolidated and Voxtek would be incredibly profitable for all involved."

You can trust him, Vox. Totally.

Voxtek Employee Hub

[thxripper]

"Why didn't you run?" Intervention Starters - @johannes-van-helsing

"Because I wasn't afraid."

"We have been rivals for years, Johannes. And I know that even in your most feral, bestial, animalistic state, you are too good and kind to actually harm me if I've done nothing deserving of it."

[memesomething]

Intervention starters

starters where the idea is one muse is intervening in a situation that’s threatening to go badly wrong. maybe these memes are said to a third party, or maybe they’re said directly to receiver! feel free to specify.

before

“He/she/they said ‘no’.”

“Hey, I think it’s time for you to leave.”

“Maybe you should take a breather.”

“Don’t be a dick.”

“I can’t let you do that.”

“You can’t do that.”

“This is against the rules.”

“Listen, I’m gonna have to ask you to leave.”

“If you keep this up, you can’t stay here.”

“This is your last warning.”

“It doesn’t look like they like that.”

“Maybe you should stop.”

“Stop it!”

“Stay away from him/her/them.”

“You’ll have to get through me.”

“Put it down!”

“Drop your weapon.”

after

“I’m going to turn you over now, okay?”

“I”m sorry he’s/she’s/they’re like that.”

“You’re safe, now.”

“Let me look at your wounds. I want to help.”

“I brought something to wrap it up with.”

“You should stop provoking him/her/them.”

“Sometimes people are just angry. They don’t have to be angry at you.”

“It comes with the job.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You didn’t deserve that.”

“Sometimes it’s better not to say anything.”

“Have you always been this… spirited?”

“Why didn’t you run?” 

“You were so afraid.” 

“What happened in there?”

“I didn’t know it was like that.”

“You never told me this sort of thing happened.”

[thunderousmemes]

✧ Halloween-Inspired Headcanons ✧

Traditions & Celebrations

How does your muse celebrate Halloween? Do they love it or avoid it?

What’s their favorite costume, either past or ideal?

Do they enjoy trick-or-treating, haunted houses, or parties?

Have they ever pulled a prank or loved planning one?

How do they decorate their home (or hide from decorations)?

Fears & Phobias

What scares your muse the most—ghosts, monsters, the dark, or something else?

How do they react to a haunted house or horror movie?

Have they ever been genuinely terrified on Halloween?

Do they enjoy facing fears, or do they avoid them entirely?

Supernatural Connections

Does your muse believe in spirits, witches, or other supernatural beings?

Have they ever had an unusual or eerie experience around Halloween?

What would they do if they encountered a ghost or creature on Halloween night?

Do they secretly wish they had magical powers, or fear them?

Childhood Memories

What’s their favorite Halloween memory from childhood?

Did they have a tradition of picking out pumpkins, going to parties, or telling scary stories?

Were they shy, daring, or mischievous as a kid during Halloween?

Have they ever had a costume disaster or a funny trick-or-treat moment?

Mischief & Secrets

Has your muse ever scared someone on purpose?

What’s the most daring prank or “trick” they’ve pulled?

Do they have a dark sense of humor that shines around Halloween?

Would they prefer being the ghost, the hunter, or the monster in a Halloween scenario?

Mood & Aesthetic

How does Halloween make them feel—excited, nostalgic, anxious, or inspired?

Do they prefer cozy autumn nights, full moons, or foggy streets?

Are they drawn to pumpkin spice and autumn décor, or do they ignore the season entirely?

How does the Halloween aesthetic influence their fashion or personality?

Romantic / Emotional Hooks

Would they enjoy a spooky date (haunted house, pumpkin patch, horror movie) or find it terrifying?

Do they like sharing candy or treats with someone special?

Have they ever had a Halloween crush or secret admirer?

How do they feel about intimate moments during the eerie, cozy Halloween season?

[patchs-muse-hub]

Happy Devil's Night everyone! I'm making this post to let y'all know that ALL OF MY BLOGS ARE TRICK OR TREAT FRIENDLY! If you want to particpate in that ancient RP tradition, all of ym blogs are open for Trick or treaters!

Hope you enjoy your holiday!