Tidal VVaves

bad poetry

[tidalvvaves]

DPM

i don't miss you the way our friends think i do

poorly playing piano

you sat and listened heart wide open

anxiety attacks always

still, your arms are the only ones i feel

did i ever help you

did i ever hurt you

why are you gone

where did you go

what the fuck did i do

to deserve

radio

fucking

silence

7-16-23

[tidalvvaves]

G*d Damn It

the eggshells under my feet

feel like broken glass

avoidant meets anxious

and i fought for it

7-16-23

[tidalvvaves]

fireworks

silently sitting

my open hand waiting

watching the fireworks

cast colors over your face

the phenomenon

of you sitting next to me

but not being there

where are you

look at me

see me

7-15-23

[tidalvvaves]

Rot

i have your name tattooed on my ribs

and ive given it some thought

if you leave i wont cover it

ill watch it fade and rot

6-21-23

[tidalvvaves]

Empty Beds

i never wanted to get used to sleeping alone again

3 1/2 years went by with my body intertwined with another

woven together as one

summer nights have never felt so goddamn cold

never let me go again

6-8-23

[tidalvvaves]

Giving

i give

and they take

i only want you to reciprocate

5-28-23

[tidalvvaves]

The End

i dont plan on staying here that much longer

then again ive been saying that for years

i just want you back here so badly with me

despite all my fears

5-19-23

[tidalvvaves]

Liar

he said hed never leave me

and i fall for it every fucking time

5-20-23

[tidalvvaves]

Fetish

It was my first fetish dynamic relationship

he was not my boyfriend

to be completely owned

having my days planned for me

what am i supposed to do on my own?

i put my green texts to you

in the notes of my phone

nothings the same

my world is collapsing

to see your name on my ribs

i want to peel my skin off

5-20-23

[tidalvvaves]

Aware

i became too self aware at 22

people watching

cut and paste

we're all cut and paste

i dont like it here

5-17-23

[tidalvvaves]

Self Care

extremes are fatal

gluttonous for pleasure or pain

find your balance, sweet boy

5-15-23

[tidalvvaves]

Mess

i cant see clearly when im wrong

i wish you knew i want you gone

5-7-23

[tidalvvaves]

Migraine

night after

sleepless night

i feel myself

rotting

5-2-23

[tidalvvaves]

Bodies

to feel your arms around me

to put your hands in mine

to think of what we'll be

fucking asinine

5-1-23

[tidalvvaves]

Sleepless In Fine Arts

my head is throbbing

listening to my professor

lecture about movement

you are the only artwork on my tired mind

5-1-23

[tidalvvaves]

Allergies

today is cloudy and allergies make me tired

lay with me and watch the rain run down the windows

4-29-23

[tidalvvaves]

Hope

After everything you said

And didn’t say

I took you back anyway

4-27-23