Depression, Anxiety, Loss, & Rebirth...
I grew up poor, with a younger brother, and a single mother. I lost my father at four, by his choice. I think that day the child in me somehow realized he had to become a man on his own, but knew he was not ready, so the crying, scratching, and desperation started that same day coming from the inside out. Small memories of cries for dad, animosities towards mom, and countless fights and temper tantrums still haunt me today. It’s not so bad now that I am twenty-three. All of that negative energy went towards my father over the years. I’ve shed a lot of it by now. I found my passion for writing in high school, throughout my middle school years along with the high school years, compliments on my writing across all fields fueled me even more to continue. Around sixteen I was faced with a depression, not knowing why things just never felt right, I spent days after-school with my English Teacher Mr. Lewis who would become an open ear, and a mentor for me. He wasn’t too much older at that time, maybe twenty-five. He is a person I will never forget. It wasn’t until a recent tragedy that I rekindled my passion for writing. Previously living in manhattan as a Tao Group Nightclub promoter, I left the city and came back to boston for a two week vacation with old friends and family. During that vacation, I went out one night with family and friends having drinks, one too many. I was in another depressed point in life also, which probably contributed to my consumption. Long story short, I flipped over my vehicle while driving home. This was hard on me mentally. Many sleepless nights, anxiety attacks, some PTSD symptoms affected me. I quit drinking for a few months, and found writing again. A year has passed since, and I regret nothing for I have learned so much. I’m a romantic in a sense, and always will be. I’m the kind of guy that knows what I want, and I know I will achieve those things one day. Thanks for inspiring me to write today, And again Robert, PS: here is a link to my blog; holehearted.tumblr.com If you have any questions feel free to contact me!
