(Meows at you because I don't know how to start conversations)
The name's RainyCat, Rainy for short. 🐈⛈️ Adult (20s), Greek, AuDHD
Favorite characters:
Alastor, Speaker of God (Hazbin Hotel)
Gladstone, Kildare, Fethry (Donald Duck comics)
Polyurethane, Panty, Polyester (PASWG)
Todomatsu, Ichimatsu, Jyushimatsu (Osomatsu san)
👇Below sharing my 18+ (you can have the nsfw channels muted if you want) Gladstone Gander discord, join us if you like Gladstone and are a fellow adult
(Edit: My Gladstone fixation comes and goes so the server may be active or inactive depending on the day lol)
Check out the 🍀Gladstone (and others!) Fans server🍀 community on Discord - hang out with 6 other members and enjoy free voice and text chat.
hello fellow artists. google has fallen. pinterest/duckduckgo AI filters don't work. do not despair; here is a list i made of places to find reference images without having to sift through piles of worthless garbage. (for future editing convenience i am just linking my blog post on dreamwidth.)
✨ good places to find art reference that are not full of AI trash 🌈
can i be an overly woke hater for a second? i REALLY don't vibe with the idea of alastor seeing rosie as a mother figure.
like ngl, i find it really fun in fics and stuff, especially as an oedipus thing, but as an actual interpretation of the show... my black heart just cannot.
strap in for an interpretation of radiorose through a black lens:
rosie calls him an animal, says he's part of her zoo, and understates the racism of his era to just "so much", his murderous retaliation and bloodlust born of trauma as being "a bit naughty". she calls the powerful whites in jim crow deep south usa "yuppy".
what the actual FUCK is she talking about "yuppy"??? if her implication is that these fuckers were getting by on generational wealth, that wealth is from literal slavery... but she wants to whitewash that down to a modern term, so far removed from it. kay.
and is 'young' ever even a thought when you look at those mfs?!!?!?! or is the first thing you notice how they look like they wanna fucking kill the young buck 💀?
and this idea that he 'got mistaken for a deer'...
SAYS FUCKING HER????
unless the guy explicitly said it out loud, that's a such a shark jump to a conclusion. whatever the reason is for him getting shot, it's that alastor's humanity went unrecognised, just as it did every fucking day in life. but rosie literally thinks of him as interchangeable with an animal. she genuinely thinks that it's that easy to 'mistake' a human being for an animal. and she's fucking pissing herself laughing IN HIS FACE about it.
also can i tell you guys, there is another meaning to "buck". and yeahhhh, it's a racist one. from alastor's time period.
a buck: a racist stereotype of black men being dangerous predators to white women, used to 'justify' lynching. and rosie thinks he's easily mistaken for a deer. she makes a joke about alastor sexually preying on charlie in her first fucking scene???? and ohhh isn't she always going on about how he's such a "charmerrr", meanwhile, people are up on velvette's stream calling him greasy. why does she have to make her slick little comment on his asexuality? man, NOBODY else gives this much of a shit about his appearance and sexuality in the show. i don't even think vox cares this much 💀.
and alastor feels the need to dress up in his pink little valentine's number and bring her a bouquet of roses just so that she'll serve him as owed.
also she says that alastor could learn some manners from charlie. what????? alastor is one of those dapper ass "manners maketh man" types, to the point that we were all SHOOK when he said "fuck" for the first time. but rosie thinks alastor needs to better know his place, that he's rough around the edges, that he's a fucking animal, looks like a buck and that's exactly why he died... kay.
cracker.
"i'm not your pet, you lousy cracker," it was on the tip of his tongue. hypocritically, perhaps, but entirely understandable besides that. she is suffocating, and this is how he sees her.
slavery's over, there's no jim crow in hell, and earth has moved past it, but alastor fucked himself into having to eternally call this woman his master.
alastor's ultimate goal is to have fun. he was legally not allowed to party just wherever, however, with whoever he wanted to and with the dignity he deserved. he was forbidden from taking the kind of pleasure out of life that any human being should've had the EQUAL right to seek.
and he explicitly told rosie that was what he wanted – to be free to have fun as he pleased. but she just continues to dehumanise him and keep him on an immortal leash.
he's pissed at himself for getting wrapped up in this. that's why he doesn't even argue with her framing of things, because at the end of the day, it was him who did everything he could to bring this on, bastardising and appropriating black spirituality to do so. he's the one that fucked it, and ended up with rosie instead of a deity of vodun, an orisha, his black ancestors, or literally any entity that would come to aid him in the struggle.
he wants to be treated like a fucking human being. he wants to make good on the fun he lost out on because society failed to recognise his right to live his life.
and i'm supposed to think he sees this woman as his mother.
allegedly alastor was a momma's boy, so he LOVED his mum, right? and this woman dehumanising him and very happy to remind him of that is on par with his flesh and blood, womb for the growth, milk for the nuture, mother?
when he really needs rosie's help to fucking heal the gash in his fucking CHEST, put there by the greatest powers that be, she calls him an animal, and tells him to fuck off... this resembles the mother he adored so much? who is also presumably in HEAVEN??
unless the show goes out of its way, this headcanon is NEVER running in this house, i hate to tell ya.
Me: "Damn people are REALLY BAD at knowing when to tag their eyestrain art/images...either that or they just don't care about photosenitive epileptic people like me. I feel really sad now."
Person: "But Allison, what if they just don't know or understand what qualifies as eyestrain and what doesn't?"
Me: "You know what? That could be a factor...While it is always better to be safe rather than sorry (so YES people should always tag eyestrain even if they're unsure if it "counts" or not) maybe you've got a point?"
Anyways! HERE'S YOUR HANDY GUIDE TO WHAT CAN COUNT AS EYESTRAIN! I'm pulling this straight from the Artfight rules page about what needs to be labeled and filtered as eyestrain because it's VERY helpful and VERY accurate! I also know not everybody has an AF account and might not always have access to this handy guide, and this is an important resource; That's why I'm sharing it here! (under the cut)
PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!
Full eyestrain AF page link
"But Allison! How were you able to screenshot that example if you're so sensitive to eyestrain?"
I dimmed the HELL out of my computer screen and looked away while taking the screenshot and did the same when putting it into this post, that's how lol. BUT YEAH ANYWAYS!!! Once again:
PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!
intentionally preventing people from resting in public spaces is like, one of the most blatantly evil and despicable things you can do but it's so normalized. but it's one of the cruelest parts of modern society PLEASE treat hostile architecture with the disdain it deserves
I wish more people in the fandom weren’t afraid to wear their merch or freely express their love of Hazbin without fear of being judged because liking Hazbin is cringy right now.
I’ve been in many ‘cringy’ fandoms. And I can’t say people won’t be jerks because it’s in to bash on us, but I guarantee life is brighter and happier if you say fuck the haters and proudly love what you love.
And if I know trends like I think I know trends, in the future Hazbin will end up as one of those series that people think was overhated.
I’ve seen it happen in real time.
I remember when liking Naruto was cringe. Now you’re excommunicated from the anime fandom if you’ve never watched it. ( which is equally as dumb)
Hell, I remember when liking anime itself was cringe. Now look at it.
So wear your Hazbin T-shirt outside. Make that fan edit. Buy that merch. Talk about Hazbin without giving a fuck about the haters. Never feel ashamed of enjoying what you love, especially if you’re not hurting anyone!
narcissism/NPD recovery resources, because there’s like nothing good out there
Books and things to read:
Borderline, Narcissistic, and Schizoid Adaptations by Dr. Elinor Greenburg - Aimed at providers but apparently super great for self-help too
How Do You Develop Whole Object Relations as an Adult? by Dr. Elinor Greenburg - Tips on how to stop seeing yourself and other people as only either all-good or all-bad
10 Stages in the Treatment of Narcissistic Disorders by Dr. Elinor Greenburg - Goes through the stages of treating NPD
Rethinking Narcissism by Dr. Craig Malkin - A book about promoting healthy narcissism instead of unhealthy narcissism
Antisocial, Borderline, Narcissistic and Histrionic Workbook: Treatment Strategies for Cluster B Personality Disorders by Dr. Daniel Fox - what it says on the tin. May be best done guided by a therapist
Shame in patients with narcissistic personality disorder PDF - What it says on the tin.
Narcissus and the Daffodils - an essay about NPD by someone with NPD. Probably the best description I’ve ever seen
Things to watch and listen to:
Recovery FOR the Narcissist by Dr. Eric Perry - A compassionate podcast to provide insight, support, and encouragement to anyone who exhibits narcissistic tendencies. Very in-depth
Early Morning Barking - A YouTube channel by someone with BPD and NPD about coping with and educating people on BPD and NPD. He also has a Recovery from NPD by Dr. Todd Grande - A video about this provider’s experience with helping people recover from NPD
Misc:
Narcissism Self Help Therapy website - A daily program for people with NPD (may have some triggering aspects in Part 2 of the program)
NPD Safe carrd resources - More resources for NPD (I have not gone through all of these so I don’t know how good they are)
NPD Recovery Comics by The Ego System - A bunch of fantastic comics about recovering from NPD.
"objectively physically attractive but in possession of negative rizz" is one of my favorite character concepts. i think it's so great when there's an absurdly hot person who's just a complete fucking loser. the mood is unsalvageable the moment they open their mouth kind of deal. you get no bitches because you're so sucks.
Random thought: Gladstone Gander is a huge Lana del Rey fan.
Gladstone has the same aesthetic, old-fashioned, elegant and old money vibes Lana del Rey’s songs have -especially those from “Born to die” and “Honeymoon”. Also, Lana del Rey’s “Young and beautiful” has been written for the movie “The great Gatsby”, and I think Gladstone gives off Gatsby vibes as well. But that song, at least for me, works even out of its context.
That’s all, if you wanna comment feel free to do so.
SO!! I wanted to give the Duck Avenger design an update to fit in with the Ducktales universe. My backstory is that of many, Donald was a super hero as a teenager but stopped after a while. I wanted it to look modern but not too different from the original. He doesn't have the hat as it's too much of a giveaway, and the lack of pupils just give him a more aggressive appearance (contacts cough) my other thought is that no one has ever heard him speak, so no voice box.
I'm not the best artist but I wanted to try drawing this for a while 🤷🏻♀️
