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21, he/they, vent space, tw for BPD/ED

[tinyeggyolks]

vent blog, don't report just block

TWs for

BPD

ED

SH

suicide

SA

abuse/neglect

DNI

minors

pro-ana/ED

anti-recovery

homophobic, transphobic, racist, misogynist, etc

TERF

transmed

[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b culture is doing things for attention and then being like "why the fuck did i did that"

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[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b culture is lovebombing everyone in your life without even realizing it because you have no idea what an acceptable level of affection is

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[harmingtheseraph]

i cannot tell if i start craving again more when hes around or less- his presence flares up my addiction so intensely and i cannot explain why

[tinyeggyolks]

i hate you so much, you let me run away and you keep letting me again and again and you won't pay attention to me when im screaming for you to notice me and hurt me and punish me and you gave me the most comforting hugs and the sweetest of kisses and made me feel so loved and fucking safe and i hate you so much for it.

why couldn't you hurt me like everyone else has?

[beforethelobotomy]

september is coming up so here’s your yearly reminder to leave billie joe armstrong the fuck alone

[bentheechidna]

Well of course. We don’t wake him up until October 1st.

[geekandmisandry]

His dad is dead, just don’t.

[korrasera]

In case anyone reading my blog is unaware, this is a reference to the Green Day song titled “Wake Me Up When September Ends” a song that Billie Joe Armstrong wrote following the death of his father in September of 1982 when Billie Joe was ten years old. The title of the song references his desire to sleep through September in an effort to get some emotional distance from the death of his father.

He’s since been open about the emotional difficulty of having written the song since many people now message him on October 1st to ‘wake him up’ despite the song being a memorial to his departed father.

It’s generally seen as respectful to not try to wake him up. Let him sleep and let him remember his father in peace.

[blankblankblank01-deactivated20]

reblogging again because the end of September is coming up. leave him alone.

[boosyboo9206]

Reblogging as a reminder to leave Billie Joe Armstrong the fuck alone on October 1st and any day after it if your message is going to contain anything to do with “waking” him up because September will be over.

[just-sad-vibes]

everytime anything goes wrong i get the overwhelming urge to just end it all and i dont understand why

[tinyeggyolks]

why yhe fuck did i let myself think you cared when you felt comfortable going to sleep when i was literally losing myself to my self induced paranoia that YOU fucking caused in the bed next to you

[bpdcrybaby213]

Me every day on social security, in my apartment alone, suffering from debilitating mental illnesses.

[tinyeggyolks]

why haven't you abandoned me yet.

why won't you let me rot like everyone else did.

it was easier, when they let me sit here and suffer alone, cause now im even more attached now which makes me detached cause what if you decide after 6 years of dealing with my shit non fucking stop that it is too much?

why am i not too much for you? why can't you hurt me and abuse me and make me feel like shit like everyone else?

please stop dressing my wounds, let me die like a fucking wounded animal please

[sickdelights-deactivated2023091]

cant talk rn i'm busy being a danger to myself

[vippieswrld]

please don’t leave,,

I CANT FUNCTION WITHOUT YOU

[mosscaller]

"Your ideas are radical" Bro, I just want everyone to have food, water, shelter and healthcare.

[tinyeggyolks]

you love me too much and you haven't abandoned me yet and i almost hate you for it

[bpdgotmelike]

maybe they’re born with it, maybe it’s their cluster b personality disorder

[lild3m0nsworld]

[tinyeggyolks]

brb, gaslighting myself to stop being suicidal on your behalf