nymphie ᝰ.ᐟ

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔ 16 | 168cm | cw136.2

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everytime i eat an apple before sleeping i always wake up weighing less . . . cant tell if its a placebo thing or if there’s an actual reason ( i read online that apples before bed can help you sleep better ? maybe thats related )

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-0.8 today :D im so close to bmi21 but not quite there yet

just remember to stay focused and the weight will keep going down (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ

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didnt lose today :c could just be backed up but its kinda annoying.

i feel like i havent been hungry enough, i always feel good about losing weight when im hungry a ton and i havent been that hungry so thats probably why im just maintaining

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omading soup today yayay the broth is so filling and i get sm protein :3 hopefully i dont feel too full tho and end up purging ,,,

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my older sister called me skinny/skinnier than her today (she’s shorter and weighs less), i think all that really means is she has body dysmorphia t_t she’s not tiny but she is still skinny

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+0.6 today but i think its because ive been constipated for like 3 days . . . just have to stick to my rules and it’ll go back down

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went down -0.4 today (˶◜ᵕ◝˶) ik it can be hard to see the scale go up sometimes but remember fluctuations are normal !!

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doing nothing all day knowing ill have to pace around in my room for two hours at night to hit my 10k step goal >>>

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im trying to do it a little earlier today bc im lowkey worried one of these days my parents will get mad if they hear me walking around at midnight (im supposed to sleep at 10pm i usually stay on my phone till 2am tho)

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doing nothing all day knowing ill have to pace around in my room for two hours at night to hit my 10k step goal >>>

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i hate hate hate going out and doing things but it makes it sm easier to fast/avoid food (unless its food related)

i just wanna be home in bed or pacing around my room but it makes me think abt food sm ( • ᴖ • ｡)

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+0.6 today but i think its because ive been constipated for like 3 days . . . just have to stick to my rules and it’ll go back down

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ate way too much for dinner and now my stomach hurts so bad and im trying not to pvrge . . . at least i can pretend like my stomach is tiny because im still under my cal limit for the day

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i ended up eating more and pvrging later :c tomorrow will be better !

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ate way too much for dinner and now my stomach hurts so bad and im trying not to pvrge . . . at least i can pretend like my stomach is tiny because im still under my cal limit for the day

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my jealousy consumes me

i try so hard to be supportive to other girls and be a "girl's girl" but i feel so much jealousy and rage sometimes. i wish i was tiny. i wish i was one of those super short thin small framed girls that everyone treats so gently and kindly. when i meet one of those girls and she is so sweet and kind and a walking angel, i get so enraged. i have to avoid sm girls as potential friends because i know id be a bad and jealous friend. id feel torn between falling into the trance and trying to take care of them, or secretly try to sabotage them. i hate intrasexual competition!!!! i feel so evil for being like this. its just another reminder that ill never be one of those perfect tiny girls, my heart is not pure enough

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started this month at 138.4 and june 2nd it already dropped to 136.8 ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝ even losing just 1 pound a week would make me happy, small progress is still progress

maintaining weight for an entire month is almost as depressing as gaining it

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ever since i began having a small breakfast its been sm easier to stick to my kcal limit all day instead of waiting to omad dinner (i usually binge in the evenings after that)

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i just want to be perfect 𖹭

just documenting my wl and inner thoughts here please block , dont report

cw 136.8 hw 185 gw 111 𖹭