okay but all in all naruto would make a decent knight... not the one in charge of everything that's for sure, but maybe this makes it even easier to rope him into doing these things that he knows he shouldn't....
oh my goshhh, yes⊠he reminds you of a puppy when you first lay eyes on him; even more so by the time several months pass and you get to know him better and fall in love with him - with his charm, his grin, his heart, the sunlight which seems to live inside him.
heâs eager to please and painfully naive, and he harbours such a tremendous amount of awe and dedication for you, his lady, that he will do anything, anything you ask of him.
and that also means that he will agree to sneak you out of the castle late at night, when everyone is fast asleep aside from the two guards who stand watch at the gate, surely his comrades, and who now conveniently decide to turn a blind eye after spotting two figures slipping past, heading towards the nearby forest.
and then, when youâre alone in the woods with him, nothing but the sound of the breeze swishing between the trees and the low chirp of insects filling your ears, heâll obediently come to a stop when you reach out to tug on his sleeve, moonlight reflecting in his pretty blue eyes that donât appear blue at all in the dark at that moment, and heâll smile warmly and ask what you want him to do next.
and then youâll take his hand with both of yours and youâll guide him a couple of steps forward, until your back is pressing against a tree, the ridges digging into your spine, and youâll guide that same hand to the side of your face, making him caress it, feeling the warmth of his palm, and youâll utter something along the lines of i want you to take me now and youâll nearly tremble in anticipation, the buzz, the excitement of it all.
when he finally lets your request sink in and leans in to tentatively press his lips to yours, itâs done so with caution at first, a mere whisper of a kiss, like he almost doesnât believe that youâd ask him of doing such a thing. he shudders when you respond by immediately wrapping your arms around his neck and opening your mouth a fraction wider; gets increasingly more hungry with each passing breath you exchange with him.
before you know it, heâs everywhere all at once. starved for touch, aching and desperate and insatiable and still so, so eager. like heâs been waiting for you to give him a taste for all his life. he presses you further up against the tree, makes you gasp at the uncharacteristically brute force behind it, in the way he deepens the kiss and lets out almost a whine-like sound when he grabs both sides of your face and shoves his tongue inside your mouth now.
his whole body aligns itself with yours. you are so close that you donât know where your chest ends and his begins. he messily kisses the corner of your mouth, your cheek, your jaw, then buries his face into your neck. he pushes even closer and his hips buck forwards brazenly, like they have a mind of their own, like he doesnât have manners, and you can immediately tell how badly he desires you - as if the kissing didnât tell you enough already.
the hardness of him that you feel now pressing against you and which reminds you that he might be kind and sweet but is still a man at his core causes you to whimper out a sound youâve never heard yourself make before. he silences it by greedily putting his mouth on yours again, almost like he wants to swallow it, to make it a part of himself. you can taste him, smell him, feel him, all his want, all his intensity, all that sunlight; it makes you arch your back, away from the tree and further into him. you wish to be full of him, of his warmth.
but then, he suddenly pulls back. breaks the kiss.
heâs panting when you peer up at him from underneath your lashes. his chest rises and falls in quick motions, his face is feverish, you can feel the heat of his forehead as he rests it on yours. his thumb strokes your bottom lip. you wince at the slight pain his teeth must have left behind.
when he speaks, he isnât formal. however, that is to be expected, since he hasnât spoken formally a day in his life.
âi need to take you back to the castle first.â
you blink, dumbfounded.
âback to the castle?â
âyes,â he says, taking a step back. his voice is hoarse but when he looks at you again, his eyes are full of that same warmth that you now miss feeling on your skin. âgotta do it the proper way.â
i think the entire thing is⊠frustrating in the beginning. complicated. upsetting.
especially because kiba has always been known to be impatient and prone to quick anger, you know? so he pretty much SUCKS when it comes to teaching a new wolf self-control. heâs strict - heâs so strict - and heâs unforgiving and annoying, and gosh; you just want to bite his fucking head off to make him stop pestering you all the damn time about how you should live your life.
he doesnât let you do anything by yourself. doesnât let you see your friends, always telling you that you arenât ready yet and to make up bullshit excuses whenever they ask to hang out. doesnât let you open the door, even if itâs just the mailman carrying the hundredth package youâve ordered in the last two weeks out of sheer boredom. doesnât let you eat what you want.
he doesnât let you breathe.
instead, he forces you to keep consuming vegetables and other foods that werenât once a living thing and that now taste absolutely disgusting to your palette whilst they travel down your throat. apparently switching to an only meat diet all of a sudden âdoesnât pass as normalâ in the human world. neither does gulping everything down instead of actually chewing, but you still have to work on that.
second, he makes you stretch. a lot. your arms, your legs, but especially your spine, shoulders and jaw. you havenât had your first transformation yet, but itâs approaching fast and he says that those parts hurt the most during the change. he doesnât sugarcoat it. in his words, itâs supposed to be awful, disgusting, painful. pain like youâve never experienced before and which youâll have to learn to live with during every full moon from now on. so every little bit helps.
besides the weird yoga, he also takes you out for runs in order to blow off steam, like youâre some goddamn dog. always at night and always when thereâs barely anybody around. and even if you hate being told what to do by him, running feels good. so you run and run and run, letting the cold wind hit you in the face and your heart quicken its already unnaturally hurried heartbeat, but despite it bringing some sort of satisfaction into your new life, itâs never enough.
youâre so fast, inhumanly fast, but youâve still got so much energy left to spare even after your legs give out and you fall onto your back and tell him in-between sharp, rapid inhales that you canât do this anymore, that youâre done. youâre fucking done.
he stands above you, breathing fast, too, obscuring some of the stars and the fat sliver of the moon that now keeps calling out to you both, taunting you. giving you a look of what you could almost say is full of pity, which only causes an atrocious wildfire to erupt deep inside your chest, your veins, your mind.
thereâs just so much anger and resentment swirling inside you now. all this terrible, animalistic rage that had never been a part of you before the bite, but is now digging deep into the very center of who you are as a being. monster. whatever the fuck you are now.
you canât stand it, canât stand being holed up inside an apartment and your own body day after day, breaking at the seams because of all these emotions and urges and instincts, as well as the never-ending hunger. you need to distract yourself somehow.
so you do. you sneak out when he isnât home to watch over you one friday night. you put on your nicest pair of jeans and your cutest top that never fails to make your tits look good, and you leave him a note that basically tells him to go fuck himself before heading straight to the club.
and well⊠you donât know what youâre expecting to happen as soon as you arrive to your destination, but it definitely isnât this. because the moment the bouncer lets you through the doors, youâre hit with so many different smells that it makes your vision spin.
itâs like a slap to the face. thereâs the scent of sweat. alcohol. perfume. a million different brands of deodorant. arousal. chewing gum. dry shampoo. fruit chapstick. cigarette smoke. the tang of fake jewelry and bitter jealousy. more sweat, even more alcohol.
your head hurts. your ears hurt. the music is too loud for your newly sensitive hearing. your nostrils burn. you start to sweat too, only adding to the already strong pool of aroma. itâs too much. itâs overwhelming.
a hand wraps around your elbow just as youâre about to make a 180 and leave.
âhey. you okay?â
you look up. you donât recognize the guy thatâs pulling you slightly closer now so that he can get a good look at you, his expression mildly worried. heâs tall, attractive. wears a cool shirt thatâs mostly unbuttoned and styles his hair in a way that looks like heâs just had sex even though itâs just gel, which you can of course smell. he probably thinks heâs the shit. maybe he is.
âiâm fine,â you snap, yanking your elbow back and not really caring about the fact that youâre being unnecessarily mean to a stranger whoâs just trying to be nice to you and help you.
you clench your jaw. unclench it. your teeth are starting to hurt, too. nobody can help you. especially not him.
the stranger takes another look at you before he leans in closer to your ear. âyou sure? because youâre looking kind of-â
you donât hear whatever else it is that heâs telling you because you canât focus. heâs close, too close, and his cologne is too strong, and his breath smells like marlboro reds despite the mint thatâs sitting on his tongue, and his cool guy shirt smells like it just came straight from the store, that awful artificial scent, because he probably bought it for tonight and didnât have the time to wash it yet.
your head burns. your chest burns. you clench your teeth again with an awful-sounding click thatâs only audible to you over the music. you donât want him this close to you, it angers you that heâs putting you through this. you canât breathe, itâs all too much all over again. a second wave of overstimulation mixing with the booming bass; this one even greater than the last.
you lift your hand to shove him away from you. or to punch him in the face. whatever works better.
however, before you can accomplish your decision, you can feel a firm, no, tenacious grip suddenly clasping around your bicep.
the hold this person has on your arm hurts. weird. besides strong smells, sounds and probably silver, nothing can make you hurt nowadays. especially not a human being.
but thatâs because theyâre not a human being. theyâre a wolf, just like you.
kiba appears to be reasonably pissed when you turn to look at him. heâs dressed in sweatpants and a simple t-shirt; the same clothes he left in for a quick trip to the 24/7 mini-market thatâs close to your home, and that now make him stand out amongst the dolled up girls and the men whoâd at least put in the effort to put on jeans.
his eyes are dark, brown like always, but you catch the brief flash of yellow whenever the reflectors pass over his face. the thin, sharp pupils, same as yours. heâs used his abilities to track you down by your scent.
silently, youâre impressed by how calmly he seems to be handling the situation despite all the factors that are almost making you go haywire. heâs not as sensitive as you are. how can he be, when heâs older than you by a couple of years and has been stuck with the same crap for far longer?
still, that doesnât stop you from opening your mouth to send him to hell for following you. and just as you prepare to do so, he shuts you right up by spinning on his heels and dragging you straight towards the exit.
he hauls you along with way more force than he needs to. digs the nails heâd just clipped for the fourth time this week into your skin, not really caring that heâs making you trip on your own two feet while doing so. but hey, at least itâs better than him grabbing you by the scruff of your neck like some cat, right?
you glare at his back as you pass through the first set of doors. then the other. you canât see his face, but you can smell the anger that heâs exuding, the burning hot fury. the disbelief. the rage. itâs making his shoulders stiff, his posture tense. the muscles ripple whenever you quietly growl your protests behind him.
if thatâs what he looks like from behind, then itâs no wonder why nobody dares to approach either one of you to ask if everything is all right or for him to let you go.
even with the initial protests, you keep your mouth shut when you step out of the club and onto the sidewalk, finally allowing yourself to take a deep breath. the air outside is cool and crisp, but you canât feel the bite of its chill.
neither can kiba. youâre both too angry. too disappointed. too hot-blooded. not enough human.
itâs only when you reach the safety of the park that serves as a shortcut to your home that you finally dare to yank your arm from his grasp and firmly plant your feet into the ground.
he turns around, failing to conceal the flutter of a muscle that immediately appears in his cheek when his eyes land on you. despite the experience that heâs got under his belt, heâs barely holding it together now.
âi donât want to go back yet,â you say, lifting your chin in defiance. âiâm not going back.â
âwhy?â he asks, his voice deep. growly. oh, heâs mad mad. you can tell by a single word.
âbecause iâm sick and tired of being stuck inside all day.â
the muscle in his cheek flutters again. he clenches his jaw in order to calm it, teeth grinding together. you can hear the scraping the action brings. âitâs for your own good.â
his reasoning angers you further. you know heâs right, but you donât want him to be right right now. you just want to rage. to scream. to destroy and hurt and bite and thrash. the desire is so strong that youâre blinded by it.
âfor my own good,â you mock, laughing out a dry sound. the upcoming tantrum makes you curl your hands into fists by your sides, creating crescent-shaped markings on your palms. fitting. âwhatâs next on the list, then? youâre going to chain me to my bed whenever you have to go somewhere?â
he blinks. âmight have to since you almost broke that poor suckerâs jaw earlier.â
âwhat the fuck are you talking about?â
âyouâre real strong now, you do realize that, rightâŠ?â he asks. âone punch, and his teeth would come flying out of his mouth like goddamn popcorn. one shove, and youâd be breaking at least two of his ribs, sending him straight to the hospital. and for what? for a chance for you to act like a lilâ fuckinâ brat? for a chance to get back at me, or whatever?â
âhe was all up in my face,â you say, looking down at your sneakers. âi⊠i just needed some space to breathe.â
âwhat you needed was to calm the fuck down,â he retaliates with a snarl. âhe was just making sure you were okay because you looked like you were losing your shit.â
âi wasnât!â
âyou were! for fuckâs sake.â he looks at you. there it is again - that godawful pity, taking over and softening the corners of his eyes. the furrow of his brow. âyou canât just-⊠you gotta take it slow. you gotta adjust first.â
the pity he feels for you makes you burn from inside out. you feel so confident and strong but weak and scared at the same time. you feel lost. hopeless. aimless. powerful and on top of the food chain. nothing can hurt you but yourself.
itâs like a blessing and a curse.
your throat tightens as you bare your teeth at him. âi donât want to adjust.â iâm too scared. living in denial gives me hope that this might not be real after all.
âwell, youâll have to,â he says. âbecause like it or not, sweetheart, this is your life now.â
your life.
your life. your life. your life.
your life has become this.
youâll outlive all of your friends. youâll never enjoy a slice of chocolate cake again. youâll smell the lie before you can comfort yourself with it. youâll be torn apart every full moon, pain and gore your only friends before youâre reassembled back together into a different shape that isnât you but is you at the same time.
you lunge forward, aiming to tackle him. he was right, you are strong; the same force you used just now would send a regular human flying across the grass, but since he isnât one, all it does is make him grunt and shuffle a couple of steps backwards.
so you grab fistfuls of his t-shirt instead and pull. the fabric tears easily underneath your nails. the sound of it shredding is satisfying, though only for a brief second because youâre pushing at him again right afterwards. slamming your fists into his chest. over his stupid heart that beats in the same stupidly fast rhythm as yours does now.
he tries to hold you so that he can make you stop hurting him, fighting the awful, bestial urge to return the favour when you end up scratching the side of his face.
heâs better than this now. he knows what itâs like; to hurt like this. he used to be just like you. worse. he wanted to use his new teeth and swallow the entire world for the way it wronged him.
blood seeps out of the wound. hot and rich and deep red - so dark that it almost appears black in the shade of the trees that surround you. it drips down to his jaw. runs along the side of his neck. you watch as the gash you left on his cheek closes up and heals before the blood even has the chance to dry.
the scent of it still lingers in the air though. it makes your stomach churn. causes saliva to pool inside your mouth. your pupils expand.
hunger. youâre starving. you want to lick the side of his face.
the disgust you feel for yourself in that moment makes you sob right into his chest.
okay but all in all naruto would make a decent knight... not the one in charge of everything that's for sure, but maybe this makes it even easier to rope him into doing these things that he knows he shouldn't....
oh my goshhh, yes⊠he reminds you of a puppy when you first lay eyes on him; even more so by the time several months pass and you get to know him better and fall in love with him - with his charm, his grin, his heart, the sunlight which seems to live inside him.
heâs eager to please and painfully naive, and he harbours such a tremendous amount of awe and dedication for you, his lady, that he will do anything, anything you ask of him.
and that also means that he will agree to sneak you out of the castle late at night, when everyone is fast asleep aside from the two guards who stand watch at the gate, surely his comrades, and who now conveniently decide to turn a blind eye after spotting two figures slipping past, heading towards the nearby forest.
and then, when youâre alone in the woods with him, nothing but the sound of the breeze swishing between the trees and the low chirp of insects filling your ears, heâll obediently come to a stop when you reach out to tug on his sleeve, moonlight reflecting in his pretty blue eyes that donât appear blue at all in the dark at that moment, and heâll smile warmly and ask what you want him to do next.
and then youâll take his hand with both of yours and youâll guide him a couple of steps forward, until your back is pressing against a tree, the ridges digging into your spine, and youâll guide that same hand to the side of your face, making him caress it, feeling the warmth of his palm, and youâll utter something along the lines of i want you to take me now and youâll nearly tremble in anticipation, the buzz, the excitement of it all.
when he finally lets your request sink in and leans in to tentatively press his lips to yours, itâs done so with caution at first, a mere whisper of a kiss, like he almost doesnât believe that youâd ask him of doing such a thing. he shudders when you respond by immediately wrapping your arms around his neck and opening your mouth a fraction wider; gets increasingly more hungry with each passing breath you exchange with him.
before you know it, heâs everywhere all at once. starved for touch, aching and desperate and insatiable and still so, so eager. like heâs been waiting for you to give him a taste for all his life. he presses you further up against the tree, makes you gasp at the uncharacteristically brute force behind it, in the way he deepens the kiss and lets out almost a whine-like sound when he grabs both sides of your face and shoves his tongue inside your mouth now.
his whole body aligns itself with yours. you are so close that you donât know where your chest ends and his begins. he messily kisses the corner of your mouth, your cheek, your jaw, then buries his face into your neck. he pushes even closer and his hips buck forwards brazenly, like they have a mind of their own, like he doesnât have manners, and you can immediately tell how badly he desires you - as if the kissing didnât tell you enough already.
the hardness of him that you feel now pressing against you and which reminds you that he might be kind and sweet but is still a man at his core causes you to whimper out a sound youâve never heard yourself make before. he silences it by greedily putting his mouth on yours again, almost like he wants to swallow it, to make it a part of himself. you can taste him, smell him, feel him, all his want, all his intensity, all that sunlight; it makes you arch your back, away from the tree and further into him. you wish to be full of him, of his warmth.
but then, he suddenly pulls back. breaks the kiss.
heâs panting when you peer up at him from underneath your lashes. his chest rises and falls in quick motions, his face is feverish, you can feel the heat of his forehead as he rests it on yours. his thumb strokes your bottom lip. you wince at the slight pain his teeth must have left behind.
when he speaks, he isnât formal. however, that is to be expected, since he hasnât spoken formally a day in his life.
âi need to take you back to the castle first.â
you blink, dumbfounded.
âback to the castle?â
âyes,â he says, taking a step back. his voice is hoarse but when he looks at you again, his eyes are full of that same warmth that you now miss feeling on your skin. âgotta do it the proper way.â