In my notebook I wanted to create a list of things I wanted to accomplish. Initially, I was thinking of jotting down hobbies to dabble in. However, it took a peculiar turn and I was left with the following:
Find a hobby that I enjoy and makes me happy?
Why was a question mark added? Accident or not there seems to be a blockage within yourself that won't allow you to be happy.
With? The fact you did not specifiy with who you want to start a family with may indicate fear. Be sure your trust issues are improving. Do not allow yourself to be stagnant. You know he is who you want to be with - and the only person you saw a family with. Do not do him and yourself the disservice of leaving what may seem minor out.
Lose weight - Feel better about myself.
If losing weight makes you feel better about yourself - why did you gain it in the first place? Balance yourself - it's okay to gain a few pounds, don't let it get in the way of self-love. If you want to love yourself, allow you to be free of being boxed in. You can depend on yourself.
I learned a few things through this weird conversation within myself.
I barely trust others, and rarely do I trust myself.
I find it hard to believe in myself.
My happiness is confined to the limitations I give to myself.
So here's my new list: (so far)
I am going to build a mechanical keyboard.
I am going to learn how to code.
I am going to try and create a cosplay outfit.
I am going to improve in art.
I am going to start a family with the love of my life
I am going to lose weight to better my health.
I am stopping the limitations set for me by me.
I am stopping the self-doubt.
I am trusting, loving, and I have faith in myself.