hi. i’m not sure how to start this other than by saying i’m sorry. last night (and the days leading up to it) i was behaving horribly. while i stand by many of the stances i have held up until now, i recognize that the way i went about defending them, as well as the attention seeking behaviour i was exhibiting were immature and clearly bothered a lot of people. my fiancé is currently helping me write this as i am still experiencing what i believe to be an episode of some kind. I have BPD with both narcissistic and histrionic traits, as is common in cluster B disorders. there’s been an ongoing situation in my personal life that has been extremely triggering and as a result i have been taking my emotions out on other people. i believed that it was the healthiest coping mechanism i had access to, but i see now that i was wrong. I’m not explaining myself to be absolved of blame, but so people can understand why i acted the way i did. if anyone wants to reach out directly, i have work tonight but you’re welcome to contact me and i’ll get back to you when i can, or reach out to my fiancé @fore1gnersg0d as he’s more rational at the moment. i’m sorry.