tlirath

The girl that chased the rabbit, drank the wine and took the pill

[manicpixievamipre]

Im not religious but cathedrals are so beautiful

[justablkkid]

[tlirath]

so, things are getting complicated in here. I’m not in good mental conditions and I'm feeling a mess. I was thinking that I was doing ok and was according to some thing that was accorded with me but it looks I’ve messed up everything. Maybe some things are very close to an end and now this is consuming me. I'm feeling really sad and my head is so full of things. Things that I haven't done, things that I should have done differently. But now it’s like crying in spilled milk. Well, I guess I have to try again and pray for everything get together. Aaand, I’m still trying to learn to write in english then maybe there are some things written in here that can be wrong.

[tlirath]

well, for those who doesn’t know, i’m doing lives at twitch and i’m enjoying so much! The community is awesome and so supportive! I’m really on such a good phase but i’m really scared with the fact that i won’t be able to reach what i’m persuing.

[tlirath]

Oh shit! This profile is such a mess! There are many things depressed as fuck from the time I’ve worked at a job tha sucked all my energies. Nowaday I’m living in a better place, may days are so easygoing and I’m soo happy.

Well, maybe one day I’ll keep this updated. It’s a way to training my english. I know it’s poor but I can do it better.

[tlirath]

I’ve basically forgot that I had this profile! Iwas a bit depressed on the past posts, but I think I’m pretty ok now. I’m doing therapy, working with a thing that I like a lot a days are going easy. I’ve posted some projects I’ve been doing for college in another acc. Feel free to take a look, but it’s all in portuguese.

[tlirath]

I’m feeling kind lost with all the things I’ve been doing. I think I need to improve the content I’ve been creating. I thinkthat all that I’m doing has been so superficial and the things I like to do I don’t know how to do. 

[tlirath]

Hey, there are some days that I don't show up on here. The thing is, I quit my job, not quit, my contract expired and they didn't renewed it. But, I couldn't be mich happier. I get out from a place that were sucking my energies and I just got a new job. I'm gonna start in 2 weeks and I'm really excited. This little time I'll stay at home, I'm using to relax, study and do somethings to my youtube channel, so, it wouldn't be so good!

[tlirath]

Well, I live in Brazil and I'm from Rio de Janeiro, city where National Museum of Brazil was reduced to ashes in the last sunday. The only thing I could feel was sadness. Depply sadness. This episode messed so much with me. I've cried. And every time a see something about this, I wanna cry again. Not only by the tragedy, but for the history, for the memories, my memories, my country memories, my planet memories. Thousands of years reduced to ashes in a few hours. I'll remember everyday. They won't let me forget. And this was the only tragedy registered by the midia, there was another fire in a library one day before and yesterday there was another one. They're erasing our history, our roots, our life.

[tlirath]

So, I sent a messagem to my boss to talk to him. I know he'll delay to answer me but I'm feeling a little less unconfortable. I don't know if unconfortable is the right word but I'm not not feeling that bad.

[tlirath]

So... Here I am. Another monday. Another fucked up monday. One more day to feel awful. In the moment I'm in the building all my energies go out.

[tlirath]

Oh, I forgot to say, I've blocked some people in my twitter account (if you wanna follow me, feel free, but I only post in portuguese in there). Why did I do this? 'cause I wanna post shitty things and I can't be bothered by these people. It's simple!

[tlirath]

I can't believe it's finally friday! I just hope this day pass really fast. Fortunately I have some things to do, so I guess it'll contribute for my day go fast. As you can see, I'm using this space like a diary. Well, when you don't have anyone but your boyfriend to talk about shit like this, we have to find a way. That's it.

[tlirath]

Sometimes I wish I could be an asshole. Not there I can't be, but I'm an idiot who helps people even when they treat me like shit.

[tlirath]

Well, I really wish it was friday today but I hope this day will pass fast. I really hope.

[tlirath]

I'm passing through these days just wishing them to end. The moment I put my feet in the office I start to feel like shit, like something heavy is in my chest. But I know this feeling go away in the moment I left this place. The bad energy just consumes me a lot, maybe I'm more sensitive about this than I imagine.

[tlirath]

Things are getting worse. I'm trying to do all things right, quite and every fucking little thing is being used to bother me. The fucking person don't move one finger to talk to me but move the hole body to crash me. Ok, I had done my decision. As soon as my boss come back from his trip, I'll talk to him to change my position. I'm not forced to endure bullshit.