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SO, THIS POST IS LONG OVER DUE, BUT NECESSARY. 

i’m really not in this fandom anymore, honestly. at one point the tmnt franchise was a huge comfort and these days that comfort just isn’t there anymore, whether this is just my hyperfixate brain being an idiot, or an overall drop in interest, i don’t know - but either way, it’s been like this for a long time. because of this, i really have no interest in this blog anymore, including writing for the fandom. i think it’s time for me to take a long needed break without having to worry about coughing up a mediocre drabble that really, nobody wants or asked for.  though fret not, i will keep the blog up so all my stuff is still here and you can reread if you so desire, and hell - this blog might come back, but i wouldn’t hold your breath because it might be a loooong time before that happens. chances are, if a new live action comes out, that’s when i’ll be back. when and if that time does come, this’ll stop being a request driven blog and it’ll be whatever i decide to write at the time. 

that being said, i’m still on tumblr - i’ve made a brand new imagines blog that’s going to be low maintenance and still in the process of setting up, but its essentially for SLASHER IMAGINES, not looking for judgment, because quite frankly i don’t care. click or scroll away. i’m also apart of the 18+ DISCORD SERVER that i run, which will still be up regardless of this shift in interests, even though i’m mostly semi active in there these days, i’m still kinda around. 

it feels weird saying goodbye, but honestly i’ve been so inactive around here that it doesn’t feel needed, but for my own sanity and clear transparency for you, the reader, i wanted to get this out there and just finally draw a line in the sand. i’m sorry for anyone this disappoints or upsets, but i think it’s important to let go of coping mechanisms if it clearly isn’t working, this is one of them. i’ll never really let go of this one tbh, i will forever hold tmnt close to my heart, but to spend time on it ? really isn’t good for my health. 

--  kyle. 

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Raphael:

He has a nightmare (Drabble)

Love Struck (Drabble)

You’re perfect

Unshared Feelings

Donatello:

He has a nightmare (Drabble)

Sleep!

Unknowingly Yours

Talk To Me

Untitled - NSFW  

Michaelangelo:

Just Pretend

Pizza Queen!

Leonardo:

Date'n'bake

Damsel In Distress

Jealousy

April:

Welcome to the family!

Shredder : 

Dating shredder would include ... 

Shredders kinks - NSFW 

What they like  : 

What the guys kinks are - NSFW

What underwear the guys like you in - NSFW

How they’d react:

How would the turtles react to their child playing with their weapons, even after being instructed not to and getting hurt in the process?

How would the guys react if they were making making out with their girlfriend and were then interrupted?

If they find out their guy friend has a crush on them. 

aesthetics:

Being in love with Raphael (Drabble)

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thinking about the sfffcttsdfhsopishfhlin noise when shredder pops out the big knife during that fight in the 2014 movie

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a list of oroku ‘s ( the shredder ) kinks.  rating : 18+ only. 

OVER STIMULATION. he wants you to be such a mess that your body shakes, he wants every touch he gives to feel more intense than they really are. he loves watching the way your chest heaves - the way your skin coats with a thin layer of sweat, all because of him. he loves your little whimpers, they’re like music to his ears and he wont ever admit this, but he’s addicted to them - thinks about them during a long day at work. the way each of your whimpers have different meanings - like when he stops, and you make a little sound in protest and your body raises for more torture, your heavy lids flutter open in want as you stare with anticipate when he, and if... he’ll continue - and when he grants your sinful wish, your whimpers get louder in both relief and the want to end this. 

ORGASM DENIAL / FORCED ORGASM. the latter will come much later on, we all know it. he doesn’t do quickies, while it’s not unknown, he’d rather take his sweet time. this means you’re in for a treat, a couple of hours long treat - filled with nothing but bringing you to that peak only to stop, again and again - you’ll get 5 minute breaks, to relax, to gather your thoughts, he’s not a complete monster. but once you’re on his bed, you’re not going to move for a long time. and as you beg, as you sit there shaking and shuddering at the sensations - he’ll let you cum, again and again and again “this is what you asked for, love.” he’d say. 

KNIFE PLAY. he loves his knives, everybody knows that - but his love for them doesn’t leave the bedroom. there’s nothing he loves more then trailing the tip of knife across you, watching the contrast of skin against silver blade - it is a sight that gets his own heart beating in rapid succession. if you’re wearing expensive lingerie during this, get ready for them to be thrown away. if you complain, expect him to roll his eyes and murmur “i’ll buy you more.” depending on how kinky you are, he may end up drawing blood - not a lot, just small little cuts across stomach and chest.

BDSM. everything involving it, absolutely everything. oroku is forever a dominant and nothing is off limits, he’ll double check with his partner and is certainly the type of dom to have a contract put forward. he’s very thorough with his sexual life and despite his hard exterior, he wants his s/o to feel safe. 

LETS TALK AFTERCARE. believe it or not, he’s very much pro aftercare - he’d shun people who are into the things he is and not take care of their partner afterwards. it’d mostly be wordless exchange, minus the husky and low questions of “you okay ? need anything ? “ he’ll clean up his partner, bandage them and if they desire, run a bath ( yes he’ll even dry them off and carry them from point a to b ). he’ll protectively wrap an arm around them while they sleep, after such an intense night, if he can help it he’ll try best to stick around and double check on them in the morning - if not, then expect a guard ( one that you are very familiar with so you’re not uncomfortable in your state ) waking you up and checking on your well being. 

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DATING THE SHREDDER WOULD INCLUDE : 

FIRST THINGS FIRST. it’s important to understand that when being in a relationship with oroku sak, it will be emotionally distant. he’s not the type to show love in blatant ways, to put it simply, if you’re the type of person who needs constant affirmations of love, this will be a very draining relationship, especially with his absences in between when dealing with his work. however, that doesn’t mean he’s completely stone cold, you have to be patient with him. he’ll learn, it could be years into the relationship, but no hand touches can lead to back of hand touches as he’s going from one meeting to another. 

POSSESSIVENESS. this is one of the ways he shows love at first, you have to be strong and stand your ground when it becomes too much. if he sees a guard looking at you with hidden suggestions, said guard is going to never be seen again. if he notices you talking a little too friendly to another man, he’ll get agitated and almost kill whoever he’s sparring with. this is probably one of the many things that you both argue about, however if you’re dating the shredder, you know how to hold your own. so expect these arguments to last a while and him attempting to shut the whole thing down with the ‘my word is law’ attitude. just put emphasis on the fact that he’s being ridiculous and you’re dating him, no one else. 

BODYGUARDS. face it, wherever you are, there is a foot soldier near by... or several of them. some in their regular get up, others completely in disguise. you absolutely have two personal guards that you’d become on first name basis with - they would be hand picked by shredder himself, they’d be worthy fighters who have been through intense challenges to prove themselves, and while they’d much rather be fighting on the battlefield and putting their talents to use, it would come with bragging rights that the shredder trusts them to look after what was his. 

TREATED LIKE ROYALTY. whatever his s/o wants, they get - you want a necklace with fresh cut diamonds ? its yours. you want a pent house in the tallest building in new york ? its yours. you want a shop to close down and have it all to yourself ? easily done. you want a limitless credit card ? its yours, don’t worry about whose paying it off. you would be bowed at walking down the halls by his soldiers, you’d have a blacked out car at your ready 24/7 topped off with a chaperone. don’t worry about anything, love. 

you can demand independence, and you’ll get it... in a sense. just don’t expect the watchful eyes of your guards to ease up. people wont really understand why you demand to work when you can get everything handed to you, but it would still gain a lot of respect around the clan. not superficial respect, either. 

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title : untitled.  rating : 18+ only, using the tag “mature” from here on out to avoid getting flagged by this hellsite.  context: donnie... but he smells how wet u are for him, and nobody does anything because y/n and him are both cowards and so they both blue ball each other 

you had been watching in the distance as donnie trained in the dojo, it was rare to find him anywhere other than the lab - but it seems even he craved the change up from being hunched over a computer screen, seeing him somewhere other than that setting was refreshing to everyone, really. you took your time to absolutely drink in the display that was blessed before your eyes, sight trained on him and refusing to leave his form, almost as if glancing away would cause you to miss the biggest event of the year. as if donatello knew your focus was on him, his shoulders tensed when lifting up the weight he had prepared for himself, your tongue poking out of lips at the slight sheen along skin that seemed to highlight his arms, sweat trailing down in a slow leisure that felt like it was personally meant to taunt you. it caused a hitch in the back of throat, cheeks already red from what was happening, it was an accidental sinful show, and oh weren’t they just the best ? 

you had known the turtles for the same amount of time april has. it was a case of being dragged along for the ride : being best friends and room mates with a reporter certainly made for some adventures, which is exactly what you were craving at the time she began ranting about them. in that time, unique bonds have been made, yet donatello’s was certainly the odd one out. fondness turned into attraction, attraction has turned into an embarrassing crush that made you gawk at the guy from across the room : it felt like school again, and it was certainly not something missed. 

imagination took hold of you from there, imagining all the dirty and wonderful things you wanted the purple turtle to do to you. oh how you craved to be thrown over a desk - or... oh, riding him in his chair in the lab - that was a favorite, donnie teasingly tracing form and kissing down neck, cupping tits with those big hands enough to make back arch and a mewl escape bruised, heavily kissed lips, but having to have a hand placed over mouth in an attempt to quiet them down, because “sweetheart, we didn’t lock the door, anyone could walk in ~”  but it would be so hard to stay quiet with how beautifully his cock stretches you out. on cue, donnie let out a small grunt as the weight was dropped on the floor. it caused your core to clench around nothing - having to bite lip at the whimper that threatened to spill from lips. this was torture, but whose fault is it, really ?

unbeknownst to you, that grunt wasn’t at the weights, it was at you. donnie was mostly in own world too, highly focused on training and trying to focus on getting stronger - but the work out session is cut short by the sweet smell that hangs in the air, it’s heavy and it’s enough to make him drool. body twitched in the direction it seemed to be, only being greeted by an innocent looking you that was merely day dreaming... but you can’t hide, not from his sense of smell, what was it ? what was causing his body to pay attention to you, what was it that made his chest puff out and breathing hitch ? it took a moment, only a moment, especially with that subconscious little shuffle you made in chair... oh, oh my. 

you were turned on, he could smell how wet you were, can imagine it. has many times before, but this was different. he couldn’t pin point what exactly resulted in you smelling so sweet, but it was certainly addicting - to busy self, he picked up the water bottle and took a drink from it, trying to focus mind, trying to think rationally instead of with his twitching dick. eye trained locked on you, though your eyes remained hazed - pupils were dilated, then his sight couldn’t help but peak at your legs under the table, the way thighs squeezed together... do you need help, darling ? was the first thought, but words are caught in throat, trying to hold back such familiarity. it would be too embarrassing having to deal with this, you could be thinking about anyone ! so it’s time to put his experiment hat on... he had to know, he had to. for his own sanity. 

so the weights are back in focus, not too much, hearing was all on you. his hands wrapped around the weight once more, taking a moment to calm self down before continuing - lifting up the metal with a grunt that came from core, though it was less at the weights and more at the smell in the air, and oh... the smell got more intense, it covered the room and it was both suffocating and not enough all at once. he prayed you couldn’t see his semi erect cock, twitching under shorts and simply begging for your attention. 

“ (y/n), we gotta head out, dinner is in two hours ! “ aprils voice rang through the cave, causing your eyes to move away from donnie and into the other room. it took a moment, blinking a few times trying to get mind to come back to reality. then, there was a sigh, trying to act as normal as possible, as if you weren’t just vividly thinking about the turtle in every way possible. 

“okay, coming!” standing up from the chair, your legs feeling at bit weak but somehow you persisted “i’ll see you later, donnie!” trying to sound normal, though it was hard with how airy it seemed to leave lips, a breathless goodbye that sounded like you ran a marathon. you think and hope he doesn’t notice, but he does, and it results in a husky “i’ll speak to you tomorrow” and  the minute you leave, dontello can’t help the needy whine that escapes the back of throat as your smell lingered, but weakened all at once. the weighs dropping on the floor recklessly as he took a few steps forward to follow you, but an invisible wall stops him. his rationality, mostly.

he never thought he’d be addicted to something, but he was now addicted to your smell, and he wanted to smell it more. 

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TMNT 2014 BEHIND THE SCENES : 

MEGAN FOX AS APRIL O’NEIL. 

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I've been debating myself on this for a bit, so I'd like to know what the leader of the TMNT fandom thinks about it ;) I've been writing a character for TMNT for a while, and due to some issues with my own background have been debating on whether or not I should allow my character to have a dark backstory, primarily something to do with a slightly abusive family and passed gang activity. The character is very nice and I often ship her with Leo, but how would he react if this truth ever came out?

first and foremost: in this house we stan female characters who have tragic backgrounds, forever and always and they should be protected. as someone who has a female oc who has a similar story to this, if you feel like your characters backstory suits them; do it! dont hold yourself back from making the past gritty, don’t let anything hold you back from writing such topics. so there’s a psa for any one writing a female oc. also, self inserting isn’t bad; dont let the ( thankfully, dying out ) stigma in the r//pc tell you that it is. 

GANG ACTIVITY : i feel like out of the brothers leo is more understanding to past mistakes since he’s made more than enough of them. as long as those are in the past and not a current activity of hers, then it’d be like water off a ducks back… in a sense. he’s not the type to sit there and demand an explanation, but he would like to know how deep into the activity she was. i also feel like he’d want to UNDERSTAND why she ended up turning to them in the first place, what made her join. i think understanding the backstory too would make him more understanding to gangs, that it isn’t black and white, that criminals dont JUST BECOME criminals. so i can certainly see your character making him learn and have a new prospective on the situation at hand. aka, major learning curve for him. 

FAMILY BACKGROUND : doesn’t matter who, leonardo despises abusers. it doesn’t matter if the person is the enemy or a friend. i think its the one group of people that bring out a hatred; its composed, but when the subject of such things is brought up you can see how grossed out and, honestly, kinda bewildered that such people exist. but he knows its to be expected in such a world, especially with all he’s seen.  

at first, i think he’d want to know if shes okay in the now. that your character is no longer in the grips of her abusive relatives; if the case is a yes, he’d try and encourage her to leave and even offer shelter in in the liar and offer advice in the best way possible. 

 if it turns out she wasn’t well, he’s going to be relaxed about it and take a less direct comforting approach; the important thing is that she’s safe, the gang activity doesn’t ever come into play. its not even something he acknowledges with something like this. 

i can see him googling to have a better understanding if she wasn’t comfortable speaking about it; he’d want to ask splinter but doesn’t want to feel like he’s telling the world her business. all in all, he’s just going to try and treat her the same way he always has yet be cautious to the fact that its apart of her background. 

i feel like splinters teachings would kinda, always be in the back of his mind during this: like you know he’s given a speech regarding peoples past and that if they’ve changed, it doesn’t define them. people make mistakes and people learn. seeing that your character is sweet and kind, not being held back by what happened; he’d admire that and find it brave of her, certainly a quality he loves in someone.

i ship them.

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I have mixed feelings about the 2k18 show Rise of the tmnt. That being said, do you have any relationship headcanons involving this new characterization for the boys? All of them are so different than what we're used to, I have a little trouble adjusting my Leo love to this new one. ¬_¬

ahh im sorry, but i haven’t watched it! the animation is really off putting to me and i actually despise the cartoon design of it, i have seen some clips on youtube just to check it out with curiosity and it was torture for me. truthfully, i haven’t enjoyed an animation since the 2003 one ( i have respect for the 2012 ver though, mad respect and no insult to that era ) so it was doomed for my skepticism from the start.

this is absolutely no shade and there will be no judgement towards those who do like this new era, just wanna clarify this. but for me personally, its another lost era. these days when it comes to new adjustments i mostly stick to the live actions

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request: Can you do a headcanon of the turtle's finding out their guy friend likes them or guys in general? note: im so glad i can get this out because im here to smash every other headcanon people have regarding these turtles and gender. strap in folks, im the leader of the tmnt headcanon comunity now. 

honestly, i really hate that i can’t write it about their male friend liking them in multiple paragraphs, but i think all of them would be so indifferent to gender. i see headcanons revolving them that they might feel ashamed. but i dont believe that in the slightest. it all comes down to if they like and KNOW someone on a personal / emotionally intimate level, then they’d jump at the chance to be with them. 

mikey would still be his flirtatious self,raph would be closed off and wary, leo would be a little flustered and rather cautious, and donatello would be dense and the definition walking disaster 

i have a headcanon that they all loved watching the pride parade in new york and always wanted to be apart of it; the community, the family, the joy, the positivity that reached the streets in thousands. the celebration of loving. maybe as kids they would’ve joked around about gays and “who would like the same gender?” because they were KIDS, but once splinter sat them down and explained love isn’t limited by such a thing; they understood and all agreed that it was dumb to love someone based on what they have. 

also if you think splinter would’ve taught them about LGBT+ history, what it stood for. given that they were raised to be understanding and practically chaotic good, they would be allys and you bet your ass they would hang out near gay clubs just to make sure that everyone was SAFE. 

so if their guy friend likes them, and they happened to like them back; they’d act just like they would if it was someone of the opposite gender. at the end of the day, i truly believe all the turtles are attracted to personality above everything else. 

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i think we can all agree... all the turtles love hugs. cuddle them all, yes even big red and the fearless leader in blue, cuddle them and you have them wrapped around your little finger

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request: what are the turtles favorite kink or kinks?¿ warnings: nsfw content ahead, so 18+ only !  note: this got me feeling some type of way, if you need me i’ll be having a cold shower. 

RAPHAEL 

this boy loves it rough, dirty & nasty. so any kink that results in a mess is a complete bonus for him; for example, when you’ve hit that stage in the relationship where you both know what each other like; you’re used to his body, he’s used to yours. he loves making his partner GAG on his cock, with his fingers. whatever it be, he just loves seeing spit fall down your chin; there’s also something he finds intimate about it. the fact that you not only trust him, but you’re letting someone LIKE HIM turn you into such a mess makes him feel utterly and completely high. 

SPANKING;  if its with his hands, a paddle or whatever; he loves seeing his marks all over that booty of yours. if its hard enough to leave his entire hand print there? it gets him worked up, when you’re both alone you best believe he’s gonna want you to walk around with it on display. a tad but of HUMILIATION, ‘yer so dirty, aren’t ya babe? my little slut, always come runnin’ when i call”. although.. this will result in a panicked raphael afterwards, “babe im sorry, i dont think yer a slut.. i mean...” you’d really have to drill it into his head that you love it and KNOW he doesn’t mean it in a malicious way. 

DONATELLO : 

right off the bat im going to be predictable, but ROLE PLAY ; oh god you dont even KNOW. whether it be his favorite anime character, nurse or scientist ; this guy will end up on cloud nine with seeing you all dressed up. i feel like he’d fumble for a while until getting used to the acting part of it, but regardless the minute you cutely say “doctor” it will have his head spinning, probably grasps the corner of his desk to try and control himself.  

VOYURISM, i will bet my entire house that he has this kink. he LOVES seeing you get yourself off, oh even more so when you bring toys into this. that boy would vibrate with excitement, also you add DIRTY TALK into the mix? he’s going to end up in a puddle. if you tell him not to touch himself he’d nearly cry, being forced to watch his princess get herself off and not touch himself in the process? thats hitting ALL the marks for this guy “you look so good, so pretty; you sound so wet” “i am, so wet for you donnie... bet you wish you could touch me... touch yourself, dont you?” i feel like... he’d be able to cum without touching himself in these situations ( it leaves for a very cute, very flustered donnie. but he has stamina for another ... 9 rounds after this) . out of all the brothers, i feel like this guy would love being dommed; he’s the biggest switch in the world and honestly, it shows.

MICHELANGELO :

oh, me? backing up more fandom headcanons? abso-fucking-loutely. SITOPHILIA is a major one ( idk why im getting technical, but basically: food kink. )  he’d love putting cream on your stomach and licking it up, its so playful that is ridiculous; it starts a little dorky at first, putting icing or something on your face and licking it off, but then he tends to get seriously over excited and puts it on the inside of your thighs, farrr up, i have a hc that mikey is really good with his tongue and it SHOWS in these situations; he wouldn’t touch you during this, making you into a withering mess with his tongue alone ( also this is stupid, but he’s absolutely put a pizza slice on your stomach when you were cuddling and ‘is this doing it for ya angelcakes’ ? i love one man. )  

okay i can’t really find a name for the next two, but i generally believe mikey would have this: he’d LOVE the feeling of your skin against his, when the situation is getting hot and heavy he’d become very hyper sensitive to the feeling of you. the softness of your thighs, the way your skin blushes, he’d adore it; which is why, out of the turtles, he has a fascination with the chest area; its so soft to him and he could fall asleep easily. then the next one, uh.. a little out there...but your HEART BEATING, maybe not a k i n k ; but he loves the sound, in his world; death and hurt is a normal thing. so hearing you, alive and there by his side? it would make him giddy. hope you’re ready for hickeys directly above your heart because there will CONSTANTLY be there. that’s just a tattoo for you now. 

LEONARDO : 

ahhh, the BONDAGE KING if i do say so myself. leo is easily the most dominate out of the brothers, lets start of with SHIBARI ( for those unfamiliar with the term, this is Japanese bondage and i suggest looking at some photos. its beautiful and an art form. garth knight is a good artist to look at for this ! ), this is definitely one of leos favorites; i think he’d be a cliche and make sure the rope is blue colored, this is parallel to raph in a way; he loves the trust you place in him for such a thing. he’d love to trace to rope, watch you squirm on the spot; see the marks it leaves for your skin. expect a lot of praise coming from him when this is taking place. 

SENSATION PLAY, he’d love tracing your skin with feathers and watching you, your bodies reactions; the goosebumps that appear. it doesn’t end there, oh no; wax play and temperatures would come into it too. he will always check up on you “how are you holding up, darling? tell me, how does it feel?” oh he sounds so sweet but you’d be able to hear that lowness in his voice that has you aching. ORGASM CONTROL, honestly i feel like all of them would love this; but leo more. he’d love bringing you so close to the edge just to deny you “you have to learn patience, you’re lacking that. the more you complain, the more i’ll deny you” but god its worth it, the almost agonizing feeling builds up to the best orgasm of your life. ( he loves forcing you to orgasm too, that ‘ you asked for this’ tone in his voice.) 

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“You shouldn’t want them all to think the same. It’s their different points of view that make the team strong.” - Splinter

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warnings: nsfw content ahead, so 18+ only ! note: i’m gone for a while and THIS is what i come back with, i hope it makes up for how long i was gone. but this is a little preference for each turtle, what type of underwear they’d like you in. 

while i agree with the notion that the turtles would, absolutely buy their s/o underwear that matches their masks. i believe they all have a preference beyond that. 

leonardo? he would love to see you in stockings, black; those real business like, very classy looks that not only make you look powerful; but make everyone around you want to eat you up like a fine desert. if you showed up one day wearing this get up, he’d melt; he wouldn’t peel them off of your skin, no, he’d FUCK you into the mattress with you still wearing them. but if you wore this and happened to feel a little dominant? he’d cave, not usually for the one for switching.. but oh, that cute little hip tilt, shy smile and “i think i need to show you who can be in charge around here, don’t you think?” oh, he will CAVE. just... don’t expect him to go easy on you next time around. 

donatello? he’s a sucker for frills, any colors just as long as they’re cute, slutty and a little on the playful side! now, unlike leo he will want to take them off of you, but not before he gets you so wet it RUINS them; he wants to see those cute little things completely soaked, see what he does to you so clearly. get ready for this man to eat you like a mad man starved. the love making comes later, first he wants to mark and worship his princess. get ready for the flustered donnie though, after you’re cuddling he’d end up messing with his glasses and “... you should wear these more” like you didn’t already get the message of that amazing several hour round. 

raphael? anything that shows off that booty of yours, so as you can see where this is going: booty shorts all the way. which is probably a good thing too, as much as he loves seeing you in different types of underwear; we all know that anything else will get ruined, ripped and thrown across the room. but with these, hey, at least the ripping isn’t 60 bucks expensive. he’s the type to leave them on you, smack your backside until its red raw. pull at them and making them smack back onto your skin “so pretty, ain’t cha? dressing up all nice for me.” hope you’re ready to not walk for a while, you’re in for a long night and he certainly isn’t the type to go easy on his baby. 

michelangelo? i dont think he has a preference, whatever you wear will get him all riled up. back to the original point, i generally believe if you wear anything orange underneath that’ll get to him more than the others. because look at that, his angelcakes is ROCKING his color! he’d get all giddy, lick the waistline of them and bury his face into them; he’ll be all giggly and you’d be laughing too, he also would keep them on you, lord knows he loves the way orange looks against your skin “you look goood angelcakes, you treat me so well! now lay back, relax and let me treat you this time!” 

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Talk To Me

Pairing: Donatello x Reader prompt request: “Stop saying you’re fine when you're obviously not" from Donnie? 2007 or 2014?  trigger warning: mentions depression

you walked slower on your way to the liar, mind filling with excuses of why you haven’t been there in a while - nothing new came to mind, you rubbed your eyes and sighed, maybe you should just turn back? Go home, make a batch of cake mix and eat it from the bowl. Lately your depression had been getting worse, each day becoming a battle with yourself: usually, you’d go to Donnie. Your boyfriend who treated you like a priceless jewel - this time ‘round? You couldn’t, he had been going through so much. If he wasn’t fighting for the greater good, holding off alien invasions - he was fighting his brothers. You had to be there for him, which was a rich saying considering you haven’t even been at the liar and only spoken to him for a few hours a fort night in months.

You came near a take away shop, maybe you should treat them - its the least you could do after pretending they don’t exist. You went in and ordered two large pizzas, one pepperoni and another plain Margarita - as you waited, you texted April telling her what you were doing. She had actually been the one to force you out the house “Just tell them the truth, they’ll understand: so will Donnie. You’ve got to give them more credit.” she had said, you did give them credit - it was just you, you couldn’t place why you couldn’t tell them the truth: ashamed that you let depression take over? Embarrassed? Maybe it was if you pretended it wasn’t there, it would magically go away. Who knew, not you - that’s for certain. 

You payed for the Pizzas and gave them a large tip, smiling politely and thanking them as you left - it was better to get this over and done with, for everyone's sake.  You went down the manhole cover, your heart beating in your chest - you had to calm down, April’s words were going through your head like a desperate prayer, one that was just trying to get you to understand that not everyone was oblivious to mental illness.

As you approached the underground amusement park, you heard loud arguing - great, just what you needed - it sounded angrier than usual, you let a shaky sigh pass your lips before you finally walked in fully to see the scene, Leo and Raph - Mikey just watching hopelessly, he was the one to spot you first, a smile spreading across his lips as he made your way over to you.

“Dudette! We’ve missed you” He grinned, engulfing you into a bone crushing hug. you dropped the Pizzas to return it, you needed this. 

“I’ve missed you guys too” Your tone was soft, your heart still threatening to go into cardiac arrest. 

“oooo You brought pizza!” Mikey released you from the hug and grabbed the bag, holding it up to the two eldest turtles. Raph scoft and oh, you wanted to curl back into yourself. 

“you vanish for months, come back with pizza ‘nd expect to be greeted with open arms?” you crossed one arm over your chest and rubbed your other forearm, looking smaller and weaker than ever, you wanted to leave again. 

“I was----”

“Studyin’, Workin’, Feeling ill? Stop with the excuses (y/n)” he snapped

“Raph, stop it” Leo snapped, Mikey was giving you an apologetic look. “Donnie is in his lab, you should go speak to him” his voice was getting softer as he spoke to you, “he misses you”

“is.... is he mad at me?”

“he ain’t spoke much about you---” you wanted to cry, Leo literally gave his brother the look of pure hatred and quickly added too it.

“at least to us, you know how he is - every feeling he gets just goes into his work.” you didn’t say anything to them after that, instead looking down and made your way over to the lab. You sighed and rubbed your eyes, trying to hold back the feeling of tears. When you walked in, he wasn’t working - just staring at his shellphone - unmoving, it was clear he was in deep thought. Just looking at him made you want to run out the door. 

“D-Donnie?” you stuttered, voice remaining weak - you kicked yourself for that, you tried to offer him a weak smile when his head snapped up, a look of pure shock written on his face at your presence. But then it faded, being replaced with something unreadable, it scared you.  

“Where have you been?” there was no hug, no grin, no cute little nickname that he used to greet you with. No Donnie, just... someone who wanted answers, ones you were scared to provide because of your own pride. 

“Just been busy, I know its not an excuse” You tried to act like it was school, or work that was holding you down - you had to be strong, but you have tried for so long that it was collapsing on itself.  

“No, no its something more than that” He was still the smart one, he noticed the patterns in your behavior, how you acted - it was more than something physical, he knew this, he also knew you. You would never intentionally hurt him or his brothers, yes he was hurt - of cause he was, but he knew there was something more to this. “What’s wrong, Princess? Tell me, please” his voice was softer, your eyes watering, he wasn’t mad - you could see that, he just wanted to be let in.

“I’m fine, Donnie” your voice cracked 

“Stop saying you’re fine when you're obviously not"

That was it, you broke down - tears finally flowing after trying to hold them in for so long, the stronghold you built for yourself came crashing down with one sentence, your body weak - Donnie got up quickly, wrapping his arms around you, it was an instant reaction - one that you needed, the tears turned into full blown sobs, ones the three brothers could hear from outside, shocking them. 

“I’m just, so depressed - donnie” you were saying it through panicked sobs, and in some strange way, it felt good, to finally let it out to him - it was the first time you’ve cried like this in a while, it was like the weight on your shoulders were getting lighter - being weighed down by unshed tears and held back emotions. 

“I’m sorry ignored you and your brothers, i am - i just, you have so much going on - the shredder, fighting crime, hell when you aren’t fighting them you’re arguing with your brothers, having to over work yourself. I didn’t want you to worry about me, you have enough going on and im sorry, I love you i just thought distancing myself was the right thing to do.” after your passionate rant, your sobbing turned into hiccups. Clinging to the man in front of you for dear life. 

Meanwhile, Donnies heart was breaking for you. He could tell you’ve been hiding this for so long, he kissed the top of your head as you spoke - he hated himself for not noticing sooner, he loved you - so much. He never wanted you to feel like your feelings, or situations were any less than his. You were so selfless, a little stupid for not confining in him, but it came from such a pure place. 

“Sweetheart, listen to me” He cupped your face, wiping away the tears on your cheeks and the ones still spilling from your eyes. “Don’t ever hide your emotions from me, isolation will only make this worse” he kissed your forehead, “Baby I love you, so much - i was hurt, sure - but you shouldn’t just ignore me when i could be here helping you through everything. We’re a couple, i talk to you - you talk to me” 

you brought your hands up to your eyes, rubbing them trying to stop the crying - wiping your cheeks from fresh new tears that were threatening to spill once more at his speech- “I’m sorry”

“Promise me, please that you’ll start talking to me?”

"I promise” was the automatic response, he smiled softly and placed a soft kiss on your lips. “can.... can i sleep hear tonight, i don’t want to be alone”

“of cause you can sweetheart, you don’t ever need to ask.” you stood there, his arms wrapped around you securely - your world already seemed a little lighter, and with it came a whole new chapter of your relationship with Donnie - The frantic sobbing, the loneliness was replaced with a brand new feeling: hope. 

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"You have something in your hair, let me get it for you" from Donnie?

You knocked on the door to his lab softly, “Hey, Don. Are you busy?” You asked softly, careful not to make him jump or mess up with whatever he was working on. 

“No, No, not at all” He spoke, his shell turned to you as he motioned you in. You shut the door gently and made your way over to him, pressing your palm against his shell as you moved to the side of him to see what he was doing - He was fixing up a little gadget, making you tilt your head. 

“What are you working on?” You questioned, moving to sit in front of him - eyes glued to the alien looking metal in front of you. 

“I’m trying to build something out of left over metal from krangs ship” He explained, he screwed something on the device which made it glow a purple, your head still tilted as you watched him work. You couldn’t help a small sigh pass your lips -

“’suppose it’ll be hopeless to tell you to take a break?”your lips twitched up, the worry showing in your eyes. He couldn’t help but smile slightly, rubbing his face with a small exhausted sigh - every time you were near him, he relaxed - it was something about you, your aura - when you were with him, it reminded him to slowdown - taking it slow was nice, especially when it just meant more time with you. He ignored your question, sending you one of those rare genuine smiles that made you forget how to breathe –

“You have something in your hair –” You twitched, a noise of fear passing your lips - the thought of it being a spider, your fingers automatically combing through your hair - making him chuckle, “its just a little bit of fluff – here, let me get it for you“ your hands went limp, feeling his fingers comb through your hair,a sigh of relief passing your lips.

“Thank you” his hands lingered, your hair was always soft - a silk like texture to it, it made him want to nuzzle you forever. But he can’t, not yet - but someday. “c’mon, you need to leave the lab”

“But—” he was going to leave as soon as you came in, to spend time with you - he just wanted to hear you worry, he loved knowing that you cared about him on some level. 

“you need to look after your mental health!” your tone was soft, yet a little forceful, his heart leaped out of his chest when you took his hand “you’re the smart one, you should know this” there was no venom in your voice, he tried  biting back a smile. Donnie knew he had fallen for you, but he didn’t realize how fast and hard he was falling until today.