still dj-ing this

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[tobreakandblossom]

two days ago at angels in america someone in the front row of the upper circle, a couple of rows in front of me, spent pretty much the entire third act scrolling her phone – on minimal brightness, sure, but exactly in my eyeline, and impossible to dodge. at don giovanni yesterday, someone's alarm went off three rows behind me, and I think they didn't notice it until the second run-through of the sound. in one of my gigs earlier this month, someone directly behind the conductor as I looked at her had an illuminated smartwatch visible for the entire first half of the concert. it's been a good run of it but I'm ready for the dark ages now.

[southerlyns]

saw @tobreakandblossom today and she made me lunch, after which she said 'and also i made you cake!' and when i asked why she explained because it's my birthday at the weekend. and i caught myself before the words 'why does it being almost my birthday mean you'd make me cake??' left my mouth. but it was a VERY close thing.

[04k96]

[tranxio]

Tumblr ad: a giant skeleton to watch you when you’re naked

[tobreakandblossom]

yelling 'I am TRYING mein Leben zu ändern' at the archaic torso of apollo that keeps following me around

[romanceyourdemons]

sex position: you, sitting on your throne. me, standing behind you, resting my arm on the back of your throne and sniling so sneetly at your ministers like i have any right to be there

[indigosfindings]

admonishing teacher: and would you still behave this way if the earth cracked open to reveal an unyielding tract of slavering organs ?

naughty child: i would unveil my terrible opus

moral: the child's opus is too hideous to behold

[exitwound]

mutuals

[kattigans]

when tumblr dies i'll live under your bed and you can say out loud what you would post and i will say LIKE or REBLOG it'll be just like we're still here

[southerlyns]

you can befriend me but ! watch out !

(cc: @tobreakandblossom who puts up with SO many of my shenanigans)

[gwenfrankenstien]

everybody follow me down the old woman yuri rabbithole

[gwenfrankenstien]

nobody followed me do i gotta do everything myself around here.

[saint-ivan-deactivated20241120]

[existennialmemes]

[scrolling social media] Who the fuck is Jimothy?

[a brief internet search later] Ahh yes, ok I understand. Jimothy is my religion now.

[tobreakandblossom]

otium, T, tibi molestum est

[tobreakandblossom]

I wrote a 16k chapter in two weeks in june & in the three weeks since then I have been absolutely plagued by procrastination & avoidance. I assigned myself another article to write in order to have a buffer before working on my book (ugh) & now I am procrastinating that! but in other news I am having a good time with violin recently. locked in & sightread bach for about two hours last night; found out the other day that I still have a hindemith sonata under my fingers after some seventeen years not playing it; am meeting up with friends tonight to play through an octet. every summer I want two things: to reduce my life to a pure discipline of work–&–violin–&–singing–&–swimming, & to luxuriate & laze. both of them spoil the other. I need to commit in one direction.

[tobreakandblossom]

octet was so good. playing for the sake of playing is my favourite thing in the whole world. I got to be fourth violin, which was fun – lots of mini-duets with first viola or third violin, some 8ve doubling of the first violin, and a few exposed corners. we're making plans to meet again for a different octet, or a string-ensemble piece. and today I have broken through those three weeks of procrastination and got 1,200 words down – not good words, and I'm realising the whole thing will need restructuring as I move from oral draft to written article, but words nonetheless. and the sun is shining, and I finally have a haircut booked tomorrow.

[tobreakandblossom]

I wrote a 16k chapter in two weeks in june & in the three weeks since then I have been absolutely plagued by procrastination & avoidance. I assigned myself another article to write in order to have a buffer before working on my book (ugh) & now I am procrastinating that! but in other news I am having a good time with violin recently. locked in & sightread bach for about two hours last night; found out the other day that I still have a hindemith sonata under my fingers after some seventeen years not playing it; am meeting up with friends tonight to play through an octet. every summer I want two things: to reduce my life to a pure discipline of work–&–violin–&–singing–&–swimming, & to luxuriate & laze. both of them spoil the other. I need to commit in one direction.

[southerlyns]

@tobreakandblossom be nice to my friend or else

[tobreakandblossom]

she is many things but undeniably a fool!