scaredycat

[tobythemeowmeow]

i feel so empty that the beating of my heart makes me sick to my stomach

why does no one desire me

what is wrong with me

[tobythemeowmeow]

i shall not repent for my sins; as my sins make my being whole.

[tobythemeowmeow]

As long as I can remember, all I’ve ever wanted was to be someone’s number one; to be the life of the party because in my head and in my soul, I feel so alone. I don’t think anyone will understand my motive. I have more memories than I can count. I don’t tell everyone what has happened to me because it’s too much to handle. I don’t think they would believe or listen to me either. I want to matter. I want someone who craves me, but am I worthy? Am I good enough to deserve that? How could someone with so many burdening emotions earn that pure love from another? Am I deserving? Am I a burden? Will I ever gain a spot so dear in someone’s heart that they love me throughout all of my senseless insecurities?

[tobythemeowmeow]

i be in the lincon off the bars n taking shots baddie baddie shot o clock gucci mane n topoppgen

[tobythemeowmeow]

it was my birthday, there was a football game on. my brothers all came over. i thought it was for me, but they cared more about a score on the screen than the candles on my cake.

i remember sitting in the grass on the front lawn, and crying because it was my day; they cared more about a screen than me.

was i not important enough?

i wanted them to play with me, to see me, to just pay attention, and love me.

i started asking if i was worthy.

did i do something evil to deserve this?

i dressed up all by myself, i cleaned the tears off my face by myself, and from that day on ive tried to never ask anyone for anything.

never depend on another because people will dissapoint you.

[tobythemeowmeow]

i dont know which way im going

designer drugs and clothing

im high as fuck, im golden

[tobythemeowmeow]

remember me as something beautiful

so the pain ive endured was worth it

[tobythemeowmeow]

i just want something to look forward to again

[tobythemeowmeow]

all i want in this life is to be remembered

[solventabuse]

[tobythemeowmeow]

no one had thought to ask

no one had wanted to pay attention

no one had shown that theyd care

when you show me i finally feel good enough

[tobythemeowmeow]

i worship no one as i fought my battles by myself

i do not belong to a higher power i belong to myself

i have no savior i fought for myself

[boy-biter]

Date idea i get disgustingly drunk and beg you to hit me

[enchantedbook]

'Kitty's Dream of Fairyland ' by Louis Wain, (1860 - 1939).

[tobythemeowmeow]

unveil my truest form

tear me apart

[tobythemeowmeow]

withstand the illness face your illusions

[tobythemeowmeow]

stagnation is slow sufferance, hidden behind a mirage of calamity.

you only stay in place because you are too frightened. pick up your feet and move on.