in bloom.

𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 . . . there is a terrible desire to be loved.

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#𝙏𝙊𝙁𝙄𝙊𝙍𝙄𝙍𝙀 . independent - private and selective : hitachiin, hikaru  ( 常陸院 光 ) from OHSHC by bisco hatori . manga and headcanon based . loved and adored by eevee. established jan of 2021.

low activity.   carrd.    theme credit.

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because its the new year , I would just like to talk about a few people that have made 2021 a good year even through the ups and downs I went through . they made it so much easier and I couldn’t thank them more for being my friends !

peter ( @selflesstwin ) literally my twin ! the one I share a brain cell with ! I love that I got to meet you ! honestly when you first followed me I didn’t know you’d make such a big impact in my life ! if someone were to say that I would meet someone who is almost if not just like me when it came it the twins , I’d say they’re crazy ! but here you are ! sharing the same thoughts I have and even adding onto any headcanons or ramblings that I have ! you are such an amazing person and I’m so proud of you whether it be tumblr wise or school wise ! I love you so much and I hope we can continue to grow as friends this new year !

izzy ( @shadowhost and @hatsuuharu ) we have been friends for such a long time and I’m so glad that you have stuck around in my life as long as you have ! I appreciate our friendship more than anything and I hope we continue to be friends for life ! I know we don’t talk as often but just know I always love hearing from you and I love playing acnh with you ! You will forever be one of my best friends ! just know that no matter what hardships you face , I will always be here to talk and listen when you need ! I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH !

sen ( @shimzus and @tamagiwa ) i have to be honest , but I was a bit nervous to talk to you at first because I just loved how detailed you are with your writing and headcanons of your characters . I honestly looked up to you and think of you as such an amazing writer ! i never thought we would have grown close as we are now, and im so happy you are one of my friends ! I’m glad I get to interact with you and ramble on about our characters dynamics ! honestly making kiyoko and hikaru such best friends was one of the greatest ideas ever and I’m so happy about it ! I hope this new year treats you well ! I love you !

honey ( @springdreamt ) honestly I already told you just how much u mean to me on discord BUT IM GONNA SAY IT AGAIN ! I love you so much ! being friends with you and getting to write with you has been one of the best things this year . I am so amazed with your writing and what you create because everything you do is beyond amazing ! I’m glad we were able to creat a friendship between you and I but as well with our characters ! And I love gushing about them when we can ! Aaahhhhh you are such a wonderful person and are so easy to talk to and confide in . you honestly deserve everything good in the world and more !

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amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ? how do they express that pride ?

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?

[ And for some SPICE ] lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?

amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ? how do they express that pride ?

there are many thing and many people that hikaru is proud of . he is proud of his friends who have over come so many hardships, who took care of him and kaoru when they were in desperate need of a family. who allowed them to express themselves without judgement and helped them grow into the wonderful people they are now. he is proud of kaoru who has helped him grow and who listens to him. but more importantly he is proud of kaoru for growing into the best person they could possibly and having such a big heart. he is proud of himself for maturing , he looks back at how he used to be and he is so proud of himself because he grew from being such a bitter person to someone who is capable of loving, understanding and trusting those around him. although tbh hikaru doesn’t show it in person ( he gets embarrassed lmao ) , he does little things to show how proud he is of the people around him, by a simple pat on the back to giving gifts when they accomplish something. however he does say the occasional “I’m so proud of you.” and he will behind their back brag about their growth and will nonstop talk about how proud they are of how far they’ve come. he has a lot of love for his friends, significant others and his brother and little sister.

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

there are many moments in hikaru’s life that he cherishes. but the most important memory ( memories ) in his life that he will never forget will be meeting the host club members, being a host and growing with them. his time in the host club was where he was truly happy and where he felt the most at home. to be surrounded by people that loved him and kaoru and accepted them god that was the best feeling in the world. to finally have a “family” . he will hold those memories close to his heart til then day he dies because those were the most wonderful people to share such memories with.

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?

no doubt about it, it’s kaoru. to hikaru kaoru is by far the strongest person he knows. respect to all of his friend and everything. but kaoru is so strong in his eyes because 1) although they’re siblings , kaoru opted to step in and parent hikaru and 2) whether they knew it or not they were the reason as to why they started to become independent they were the start of it. kaoru is strong because they took the brunt of everything that hikaru caused. they didn’t need to, but because they loved him so much they did and he’s still standing. no matter the hardship they face they will face it head on and hikaru has truly always looked up to them. hikaru is strong, but only because kaoru is. and he attributes his growth to kaoru, because if they weren’t by his side he’d never be what he is now.

lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?

his relationship with his mother ( and father ) is completely nonexistent. as a child he adored his mother, however as he grew up with neglect and only ever seeing her on her own terms he grew to resent her. all he ever wanted was her love an affection. he views her in such a bad lighting that he actually stops calling her mother or mom, rather he settles to call her by her actual name. he wants nothing to do with her and even if a day comes ( which he doubts ) where she apologizes for all that she has done, he will not accept it. he will never forgive her and she will never be apart of his life. every accomplishment he makes she will hear it from the news or through the grapevine. hikaru is disappointed in her. and if he could he’d honestly rather have a life where he was just a regular person if that meant having parents who loved them.

[promptfairy]

❥     𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    [   𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂    ]   .

headcanon prompts with questions based on plants   &   what they represent in flower language .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

abatina :   is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time   (   due to becoming more educated on the topic ,   certain experiences  ,   etc .   ) ,    or that they   would   change their mind about under certain circumstances ?  

acanthus :   is your muse deceptive ,   or willing to lie or deceive to achieve certain means ?   why or why not ?   

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ?   how do they express that pride ?   

anemone :   how does your muse view the world ;   as a cruel   &   unforgiving place ,   a land full of wonders ,   or something in - between ?  where does that world view come from   (   what experiences ,   life lessons ,   etc .   ) ?  

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

apple blossom :   how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ?  

bachelor’s button :   does your muse actively seek romantic companionship ,   or cherish the liberties of being single ? 

basil :   does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything ?

bay tree :   does your muse seek glory   &   accolades ,   or do they favour a simpler ,   more personal life ?  

begonia :   how cautious is your muse ?   are they prone to noticing red flags ,   or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ?   why or why not ?  

belladonna :   how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise ?   

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ?  

carnation :   what is your muse’s relationship with their gender ?   how do they express or not express this relationship ?  

chamomile :   what is your muse likely to take away from a painful experience ?   are they one to be haunted by adversity ,   or to use what they’ve gone through to become stronger ?  

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

daffodil :   is your muse one to be loyal in relationships ,   or are they likely to quickly move from one bond to another ?

daisy :   did your muse ever feel as though their innocence had been lost ?   what moment in their life could be described as the end of their innocence ?  

edelweiss :   what was the bravest moment in your muse’s life ?  are they known to be courageous from then on ?  

fern :   does your muse believe in magic or cosmic forces ,   or are they more likely to think their life is ultimately a matter of their own control ?  

forget - me - not :   has your muse ever forgotten something that is or was important to them ?   are they afraid of forgetting things like that ?  

gardenia :   is your muse one to confess romantic feelings early on ,   or to conceal them for long periods of time ?  

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

goldenrod :   does your muse believe in luck or fortune ?  why or why not ?   where do they believe these things come from ?  

heliotrope :   does your muse believe in soulmates ?

hibiscus :   how does your muse view the gentler ,   daintier things in life ?   as things worth preserving   &   caring for ,   or things only bound to wither   &   disappear ?  

holly :   how strong is your muse’s sense of intuition ?  are they aware of it ?   do they ever fear that it is only paranoia ?  

hollyhock :   how strong is your muse’s sense of ambition ?  what’s something they strive for in life ?  

hyacinth :   is your muse athletic ?   does it come naturally to them ,   or have they had to work for their physique and/or skill ?  

hydrangea :   how much does your muse value communication in their relationships with others ?  are they prone to being misunderstood ?

iris :   if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind ,   what would it be ?  

ivy :   what are your muse’s views on marriage ?   do they believe it is something strictly for love ,   or an institution rooted in business   &   social benefits ?   do they desire or have they desired to be married ?

lavender :   how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ?  once their trust is broken ,   how might one go about mending it ?  

lilac :   what was your muse’s childhood like ?   how has their upbringing affected them as they’ve aged ? 

lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?  

lotus :   has your muse ever felt as though they’ve been reborn ?  have they ever desired the feeling of a fresh start ,   or a better understanding of themself and/or the world around them ?  

magnolia :   describe your muse’s relationship with nature   &   the natural world .  

marigold :   is your muse prone to jealousy ?  how might they handle envious feelings ?  

mint :   does your muse view themself as virtuous   &   moral ?  what do these words mean to them ?

nasturtium :   describe your muse’s relationship with their birthplace ,   or homeland .  

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?  

pansy :   does your muse often reflect on their own actions ?   do they ever think a lot about the past ,   and what they could have done differently ?

parsley :   describe a holiday your muse enjoys ,   and why they enjoy it .

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

poppy :   what comforts your muse ?

rhododendron :   is your muse receptive to warnings   &   advice given by others ?

rose :   how much does your muse value other people ?   do they wish to have many friends ,   lovers ,   and/or associates ?   are they an easy person to love ?

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?  

salvia :   is your muse possessive over people or things that matter a lot to them ?  how do they express that possessiveness ,   or lack thereof ? 

snapdragon :   is your muse merciful ?  why or why not ?

southernwood :   how seriously does your muse take themself ?   do they prefer a solemn   &   intellectual atmosphere or do they delight in jokes   &   banter ?  

sunflower :   what brings your muse the most joy in life ?  

tulip :   how does your muse view people in general ?  

violet :   how does your muse respond to betrayal ?

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness   &   depression ?

zinnia :   how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ?   has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

[ohisms]

𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐗𝐈𝐀 ;   𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒔 .    (   a  series  of  kiss  prompts .   some  nsfw  material  present .   )

❛  01 .   a  kiss  to  say  hello . ❛  02 .   a  kiss  for  the  first  time . ❛  03 .   a  kiss  after  a  long  time  apart . ❛  04 .   a  kiss  to  apologize . ❛  05 .   a  kiss  to  forgive . ❛  06 .   a  kiss  during  a  fight . ❛  07 .   a  kiss  to  say  what  you  can’t  say  aloud . ❛  08 .   a  kiss  in  secret  /  a  forbidden  kiss . ❛  09 .   a  kiss  to  prove  a  point . ❛  10 .   a  kiss  against  a  wall . ❛  11 .   a  kiss  on  a  rooftop . ❛  12 .   a  kiss  that  seals  a  marriage . ❛  13 .   a  kiss  before  one  goes  away . ❛  14 .   a  kiss  in  the  shower . ❛  15 .   a  kiss  that  comes  out  of  nowhere . ❛  16 .   a  kiss  first  thing  in  the  morning . ❛  17 .   a  kiss  last  thing  at  night . ❛  18 .   a  kiss  during  combat . ❛  19 .   a  kiss  during  a  fake  relationship . ❛  20 .   a  kiss  out  of  desperation . ❛  21 .   a  kiss  on  the  cheek . ❛  22 .   a  kiss  on  the  forehead . ❛  23 .   a  kiss  on  the  back  of  the  hand . ❛  24 .   a  kiss  on  the  neck . ❛  25 .   a  kiss  on  the  fingertips . ❛  26 .   a  kiss  on  the  stomach . ❛  27 .   a  kiss  to  end  the  sexual  tension . ❛  28 .   a  kiss  over  a  scar . ❛  29 .   a  kiss  over  a  wound . ❛  30 .   a  kiss  to  say  goodbye .

[springdreamt-gone]

happiness  is  holding  someone  in  your  arms   ,  &  knowing  you  hold  the  whole  world   .   ♡       @tofiorire    (    ©    )

[tofiorire--a]

🪴   for   your    muse    to   take    mine    on   a   walk [from yaku hehehe]

was  this  a  date    ?    not  really    ,    well  he  wanted  it  to  be  however    …    at  the  last  minute  he  grew  to  be  a  coward  and  just  asked  yaku  to  hang  out  instead    .    but  even  so    ,    he  was  happy  just  being  with  him    .    even  if  they  were  just  walking  through  the  busy  streets  of  the  city    ;    now  that  he  thought  about  it    ,    maybe  he  should  have  picked  a  better  day  to  have  gone  out    .    

there  were  many  times  that  they  could  have  lost  each  other  in  the  crowd    ,    however  if  it  wasn’t  for  yaku  continuously  talking  to  him  about  the  things  he  liked  and  the  food  he  wanted  him  to  try  then  it  would  have  been  harder  to  keep  up    .    yet    ,    as  a  minute  of  silence  fell  between  them    ,    it  seemed  as  it  that  was  the  opportunity  fate  needed  to  separate  the  two    .    but  hikaru  wasn’t  going  to  separate  from  him  so  easy    .    so  reaching  out    ,    he  would  take  a  hold  of  the  other’s  hand    .    

at  first  he  didn’t  think  as  he  did  it    ,    all  he  cared  about  was  keeping  the  other  close  to  him    .    it  wasn’t  until  they  stood  still  for  a  moment  that  hikaru  finally  realized  that  he  was  holding  their  hand    .      ‟      OH    !    i’m  sorry    …    i  just  didn’t  want  either  of  us  to  get  lost    .      ”      flustered    ,    he  hesitated  for  a  moment  contemplating  whether  he  should  let  go  of  their  hand  or  not    .      ‟      uh    …    is  this  awkward  for  you    ?      ”

[tofiorire--a]

akshis​ .

@tofiorire​ wants a starter.

          there’s a reason that akaashi doesn’t drink elaborate coffee drinks , frilled up with whipped cream and sprinkles and he can only guess what else. in fact , actually , there are a few reasons. price is the most obvious : these types of drinks are at least two or three times more expensive than the kind of stuff that akaashi could find in a vending machine elsewhere. there’s really no reason for the extra flair , either : people don’t buy coffee for the purpose of sitting and looking at it. but mostly , he dislikes the mess. 

          a fat dollop of cream glares at him from the thigh of his school uniform. and so , like any reasonable person , akaashi chooses to glare back at it , twisting his eyebrows down with irritation. it’s a good thing that fukurodani doesn’t wear black uniforms , but still …  “  what a pain. excuse me … do you have a tissue ?  ”

for  hikaru    ,    everything  happened  as  if  it  was  in  slow  motion    .    from  akaashi  sitting  down    ,    to  the  terrible  tragedy  that  was  the  cream  falling  onto  his  lap    .    although  he  didn’t  understand  one  thing    ,    why  not  just  ask  for  the  drink  without  cream    ?    why  risk  the  messiness  of  it    ?    maybe  he  just  didn’t  understand  it    ,    perhaps  the  cream  made  the  drink  sweater    ,    maybe  he’d  never  know  the  reasoning  as  hikaru  wouldn’t  order  something  so  sweet    .    

‟      hmm    ?      ”      attention  brought  back  to  the  other  once  more    ,    he’d  nod  before  handing  over  a  small  packet  of  tissues  he’s  carrying  with  him    .      ‟      did  it  stain    ?    would  you  like  to  go  back  to  my  place  and  get  it  washed  out    ?      ”

[tofiorire--a]

me replying to as many things as my pea brain allows me to so i can go into another depressive episode in a few days and not feel guilty lmaoooo

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springdreamt​ .

they  were  no  strangers  to  heart  break   .  even  during  their  separation   ,   every  day  felt  like  an  eternity   .  so  to  have  him  ask  for  her  hand   …   it   felt   like   an  answered  prayer   . (   dear  god   …   don’t  rip  this  away  from  her   .   )   her  face  was  already  so  red   …   she  couldn’t  imagine  going another  day  as  just  his  “ girlfriend      ”  any  longer   .

she  holds  the  box  delicately   ,   almost  as  if  it  would  break  if  she  disturbed  it   .   hikaru’s  love  was  preciously  placed  within   ——————–   &  with  it   ,  their  future  .  kotori  was  well  aware  of  how  deep  their  feelings  ran   , &  no  amount  of  distance  or  time  would  ever  diminish  their  feelings  for  one  another   .  no  matter  how  much  heartache  awaited  them   ,   she  wanted  to  be  by  his  side   . they  longed  for  this  day  .

❝      i’ll  say  yes  as  many  times  as  you  want  me  to   ,   hikaru   .      ❞   today   ,   tomorrow   ,   &  one-hundred  times  more   …   she’ll  say  it  until  he’s  heard  enough   .   if he  asked she  would  sing  it  from  the  rooftops   ,   even  if  rumors  spread   ,   she  wouldn’t  deny  their  love  any  longer   .   ❝ will   you   do   the   honors?      ❞

they  had  kept  their  relationship  a  secret  for  so  long  and  now  that  a  big  ring  was  going  to  place  upon  her  hand    ,    there  was  no  use  in  hiding  any  longer    .    whether  people  got  mad  or  refused  to  accept  their  love    ,  that  was  not  their  problem    .    hikaru  love  kotori    ,    as  she  loved  him    .    that  was  the  end  of  the  story    .    

with  answer  given    ,    it  was  almost  as  if  hikaru  had  lost  all  motor  function  in  his  hand  as  they  trembled  when  he  placed  the  ring  onto  her  finger    .    staring  at  the  ring    ,    there  was  an  overwhelming  sense  of  happiness  that  shook  him  to  the  core    .    happiness  that  he  really  thought  was  so  unattainable    ;    and  god  did  it  make  his  eyes  tear  up    .    to  think  that  from  this  day  on    ,    they  were  bound  together  forever      (    of  course  they  had  to  make  it  official  first    .    )      raising  her  hand  to  his  lips    ,    he  would  press  a  gentle  kiss  upon  her  knuckles    .    

‟      i  feel  like  the  happiest  person  on  earth    ,    kotori    .      ”      and  it’s  all  because  of  you    .    smiling    ,    he  would  lower  her  hand  to  look  at  the  ring  once  more    .      ‟      wow    ...      ”      wiping  away  his  tears    ,    hikaru  chuckled  at  how  silly  he  probably  looked    .      ‟      you’re  going  to  be  my  wife    ...    do  you  just  want  to  make  it  official  now    ?      ”      joking  of  course    !    but  that  didn’t  mean  he  wasn’t  thinking  about  it    .

[tofiorire--a]

shimzus​ .

          shimizu doesn’t often tease. or rather , she doesn’t tease people who aren’t her best friend. with hikaru-kun , however , she won’t hesitate to hold back the bag with its one remaining snack , though she’d promised to share.  “  sorry. fingers crossed.  ”

@tofiorire​ , gomenne fingers crossed - nogizaka46

oh    ,    what's  this    ?    a  stinging  pain  in  his  heart  as  he  was  tricked  by  his  best  friend    ;    oh  woe  is  him    ,    god  have  mercy  on  his  soul    .      (    yes  he  was  pulling  out  the  dramatics    .    )      pout  forms  upon  his  lips  as  he  reaches  for  the  last  remaining  snack  only  to  have  it  be  torn  away  from  him  in  such  a  heartless  and  conniving  manner    .

‟      wow  kiyo    -    chan    ,    i  can’t  believe  you’re  doing  this  to  me    !      ”      whining    ,    he  reaches  for  the  bag  once  more    .      ‟      and  to  think  that  i  treated  you  to  snacks    !    you’re  such  a  thief    !      ”

[tofiorire--a]

🍰     to    bake    something    with    my    muse [ BAKING BAKING BAKING!!!!!!!!! ]

there  was  a  long  moment  of  silence  as  they  stood  in  place    ,    kaoru  looking  visibly  irritated  with  hikaru  and  hikaru      ...    well    ,    he  was  more  confused  than  anything    .    perhaps  the  irritation  that  kaoru  was  feeling  was  due  to  the  fact  that  they  had  just  witnessed  their  brother  pour  a  cup  of  vanilla  into  the  cake  mixture  when  he  was  only  supposed  to  pour  in  a  cap    .    yeah    ,    maybe  that  was  it    .

‟      um    ....    ---      ”      setting  the  cup  down    ,    hikaru  didn’t  dare  to  look  at  the  other  at  the  moment    .    it  wasn’t  really  his  fault  now  was  it    ?    after  all  hikaru  was  never  talented  in  the  cooking  department    .    he  was  the  type  to  clean  up  after  their  mess  from  cooking    ,    but  no    ,    kaoru  just  had  to  ask  them  to  bake  with  them    .    of  course  he  could’ve  just  said  no    ,    but  he  didn’t  want  to  let  them  down    .    

  however    ,    here  they  were    .    staring  into  a  bowl  full  of  flour  that  was  just  completely  drenched  in  vanilla  extract    .    ‟      well    ...    how  about    ,    i  clean  up  the  mess  and  you  just  start  over  without  me    ?      ”    he  smiles  at  kaoru  as  he  proceeds  to  pick  up  the  tools  they  had  used  before  and  drop  them  into  the  sink    .

[tofiorire--a]

hikaru has a hot bf ( semi from @tamagiwa )

[disc80s]

biting is a love language. no i will not elaborate.