ᯓ✦ a 9teen fellow who likes anything, you could call me either tobias, toby, toko, or even mateo!! just have fun!!
ᯓ✦ look into my strawpage to get to know me !
ᯓ✦ selfshipping blog is @tokoats !!
ᯓ✦ I don't really write much unless its on my own accord, but writing requests are still encouraged!! i also have an ao3 if you like to see me over there!!
ᯓ✦ my posts (mainly my writings) may involve nsfw but dont look forward to it but please be aware just in case.
ᯓ✦ this will be a blog mainly is for me rambling about my interests, posting about my art, and whatever I really want >_<!!
ᯓ✦ regardless ask box is always opened for anything relating to art, writing, or just talking in general, just don’t be weird!!
ᯓ✦ tags : #toko talks (where i talk about anything and to anyone) | #toko writes (where all my writing are archived) | #toko draws (where my art will be archived)
interests of mine consists of...
-JTHM, I feel sick, Squee, or just anything about Jhonens early comics
-INVADER ZIM
-probably much more but my interests are obvious right now
questiom question how do u think black noir ii would react to a jealous reader regarding his past relationship???(if u can it even call it that considering how one sides it was😭😭😭😭) with sage???
also thank you for being of the few people who write for black noir!!!!
bad idea
a/n: you’re very welcome anon!! i absolutely love writing for both noirs and plus i experienced this first hand…
info: gender-neutral reader, noir ll being an idiot about emotions (of course), reader implied to apart of the seven, reader being rightfully selfish in a way, small mention of og noir because i miss him…
ᯓ✦ justin is very much oblivious to your emotions at the start so you unfortunately have to give him hints you actually do want something more.
ᯓ✦ what makes it worse is how you were basically hit like a train with the revolution that he very much likes someone else, that someone being the new member of the seven, sister sage.
ᯓ✦ you don’t even know how you got yourself into this self proclaimed love triangle (if it can even be called that) but you thought it was absolutely bullshit.
ᯓ✦ hearing him blabber about sage but you dare don’t say a word since you are friends with him and apart of you is quote unquote “happy”.
ᯓ✦ he’s having a blast talking about her like some dang puppy happy to see their owners.
ᯓ✦ but sometimes you rather have that attention that was towards her to be more toward you instead because you know you can give him what he wants, or at least you’d think you can, but for now you’d just take the way he sometimes insults you by calling you dumb for the things you do that he labels as “stupid”, its no biggie.
ᯓ✦ there was sometimes a small thought on the back of your mind wondering if the original noir would’ve treated you like this, he was pretty friendly to you before he died, but now you can only think of the present, and it’s mediocre as hell.
ᯓ✦ the only way you’ve told justin is if you didn’t tell him yourself, you muttered out accidentally to the deep you liked him and basically begged him to not say thing but to your demise, he gone and told him anyways like the huge dick he is thinking it would be funny to do so.
ᯓ✦ and when justin finds out about this, he’s appalled, what the hell do you mean you liked him and never told him a thing yet told the deep? and to his frustration he corned you when no-one was around and turned this into an argument you didn’t want to have at all, ESPECIALLY inside the work place, anything but this for gods sake.
ᯓ✦ this breaks out in a huge argument between you both, you weren’t sure why he was making it such a big deal especially with his proclaimed love for sage, now this just pissed you off more than it should have, you should be angry at him not the other way around, hell you should’ve been more angry at the deep for getting yelled at.
ᯓ✦ but yet in the heat of the moment, tears starting to pour from your eyes your hands can’t help but pull his lips onto your own, so he knew you were serious about this but as quick you pulled in you quickly pulled back whilst backing away, you never regretted something so much until now, and now all you wanted was for him to stab you straight in the heart to end your misery forever.
ᯓ✦ but he didn’t, justin stood there for a moment, stunned, but hands soon told a different story. his hands glossing over your tear stained cheeks before pulling your face toward his and kissing you, probably more intense than he anticipated.
ᯓ✦ before you both knew it, hands were immediately grabbing onto the cloth of each others costumes, gasping for air here and there in the slightest of hopes no one will walk in but that thought was over when you and justin finally separated while his thumb swiped away a tear that still streamed from your eyelid.
ᯓ “i think i love you more then sage…”
ᯓ “the fuck do you mean you think? we just made out!!”
ᯓ✦ and since then justin made a complete 360, following you around like some sort of lost puppy, you’d be lying if you said you didn’t like it at all, who the hell wouldnt?
ᯓ✦ but one thing justin doesn’t change completely is making you feel jealous here and there, in his own humble opinion him seeing you get all fuzzy and whiney over him giving someone else attention is a little endearing (and a little cute), especially with how you nuzzle into his chest when he says he’s sorry and hugs you, 10/10 will most likely do it again.
ᯓ✦ he’s sorta an asshole but he won’t take it too far, seeing you cry once was far enough.
irving is a natural protector and caretaker, when you two are together it’s much more obvious, protecting you from harm even if you’re fully capable to do it yourself, but the one time you weren’t you woke up on top of his lap while he was aiding you, soon nuzzling his chin into your hair when he noticed you were awake.
this somehow even transfers to justin when he took over the black noir role, justin would tell you he’s just coping irving but he can’t help but be genuine in his gentle touches toward you. neither irving or justin would trade you for the world even if it hurts them.
og noir and reader watching cartoons and doodling together 🐑
parallel play
a/n: this sounds like a DREAM.
info: gender-neutral reader, artist!reader if you squint hard enough.
ᯓ✦ you had a decently long day so when irving dragged you home crayons and paper in hand, you couldn’t help but smile.
ᯓ✦ you both drew away while here and there you’d catch him look up to the cartoons he placed on your tv before looking back down, sometimes even looking at you before quickly looking away when you made eye contact with him.
ᯓ✦ after every page you two would finish you both would show them off before irving motioned his hands is if asking to keep yours, and after the first time you just hand them over without even being asked, you know how much they’ll mean to him in the long run.
ᯓ✦ he’d especially keep the ones where you’d drew you both together, maybe because he loves how you capture yourself and how you also capture him in your style, he thinks it’s a way to look into your mind while it’s on paper.
ᯓ✦ irving even urges you to keep his which you of course do, how can you not? you absolutely love his drawings, whether it was a mix of drawings of buster beaver, some of his other animal friends, and you, you keep them all!
ᯓ✦ you even have a corner of your wall inside your room dedicated to the drawings you gained that same night and the next coming nights where you two decide to have a sorta drawing date with another to destress from that days activities.
ᯓ✦ irving can’t help but enjoy himself with times with you, watching cartoons and showing off silly drawings you two make, he’s in heaven.
vampire!irving who’s intoxicated by the smell of your blood and also by how your genuine love toward him feels, he isn’t sure which one is superior in his eyes.
he has to hold himself back from piercing your skin with his teeth to taste at least one drop of your blood whenever you hug him, to explain why to himself why he’s so attracted to it in the first place, why he’s so attracted to you.
apart of him doesn’t want you to be like him, living through days that feels so endless to him ever since he can remember, but maybe if he does he could have someone to spend the rest of his eternity with.
a/n: a comment and a video gave me the best ideas for this continuation…
info: gender-neutral reader but reader isn’t really mentioned that much, bits of angst, noir ll trying his best at being a father, a part two to this post.
ᯓ✦ one thing justin is surprised about is getting the ‘role’ of black noir, another is being shoved into another role he didn’t expect, being a father.
ᯓ✦ you had to explain to him to not take off his mask around the kid until you’d be able to explain what happened to the original noir, to their father, despite the kid trying their best to take it off.
ᯓ✦ he feels like he shouldnt have taken this role because he feels like he didnt sign up for this, this feels so weird to him, having to take care of a kid that isn’t his but he feels like he cant just up and leave since he knows leaving would break the kids heart.
ᯓ✦ but he rationalizes it by telling himself it’ll hurt less than finding out their actual father is dead, so he manages.
ᯓ✦ him managing to try to be how irving would’ve been before he took over (with your help of course), justin couldn’t help but actually feel joy being an actual dad, playing silly games the kid would make up, listening to what happened in their day, play fighting, and soon tucking them into bed at the end of the day.
ᯓ✦ but what stuck him the most, was being called “dad” every single time, he knows at the back of his mind he’s just pretending to be and the guilt eats at him alive, especially that look on their face whenever he rejects their hands trying to take off the mask after being told they loved seeing their dads face, he feels so guilty.
ᯓ✦ until one day he was caught off guard without his mask, his heart breaks in half seeing the confused turned fear face the kid had seeing him, trying to explain as the kid sobbed into your shoulder asking where their daddy is, he absolutely blew it and he knew it.
ᯓ✦ his heart breaks even more seeing the previously very energetic and talkative kid justin met become all wary of him, immediately running to you or hiding when they see him, he knew he wasn’t really great with kids before but now he’s just devastated.
ᯓ✦ you urged him to at least try to ease into it again now that he could ‘start over’ as himself this time, by giving him a black sheep plush and telling him to start with that, and of course he obliged.
ᯓ✦ justin doesn’t want to just do this for you, but also for the kid, so when he’s finally able to talk to the kid one on one he’s patient with it, he doesn’t want to be pushy as he goes on his knee to meet them at their level, “patience is key” you’d tell him.
ᯓ “hey kid, i know im not your dad but…i still care about you and i want to take care of you like you’re my own, and i know how much you miss your dad so i…im sorry…”
ᯓ✦ he didn’t expect was the kid to almost instantly leap and hug him, nuzzling into him while they cried, justin couldn’t help but lift the kid and hold them close to comfort them, this is a small step but he’s getting there slowly.
ᯓ✦ and don’t worry, the kid absolutely loved the plush, “reminds me of papa” they’d tell justin as they played with it.
ᯓ✦ as time goes on, the kid would become more comfortable with justin in their own way, sometimes drawing him in pictures alongside them and irving being labeled, “papa, me, and justin :)” before giving it to justin, which he cherishes with his heart.
ᯓ✦ justin even began carrying a photo of you three inside his wallet he’d gotten from of the many family outings you all would go to, he even catches himself saying he has a kid but he never dares corrects himself because to him it’s true, despite not being the actual father, he can’t help but feel elated at the title.
ᯓ✦ and he was ecstatic when the kid first calls him “papa justin”, he decided to not put the kid down for anything the rest of the day.
ᯓ✦ also random but i have no idea if you guys know the tiktok audio that goes, “let me tell you this michaela, you’re playing checkers, i’m fucking your dad.” is some type of shit justin would probably say to the kid before getting hit.
info: gender-neutral, noir ll just trying his best for you teehee.
ᯓ✦ og noir and noir ll are very much different and it’s obvious but there are also some things they happened to do similarly.
ᯓ✦ unlike irving (due to circumstances) justin talks a lot even if he doesn’t realize it, even more when he’s all nervous and jittery which he very much is around you.
ᯓ✦ but like irving, justin is very mindful of you, your feelings, just anything revolving around you. like the way when you two kissed, justin can’t help but ask you things like putting his hands on you as you two do so, he scared he’d make you uncomfortable if he doesn’t.
ᯓ✦ despite justin being able to overpower you (even if you have powers or not) he doesn’t want or even care too, he lets you drag him around like some sort of ragdoll if that means making you happy.
ᯓ✦ you sometimes wonder how lucky you got when it came to two gentle men wearing the same costume of an relentless assassin.
ᯓ✦ he even had a habit of picking you up and flying in the air with no purpose, so sorry if you’re afraid of heights (which he loves when you cling onto him for dear life)
ᯓ✦ justin absolutely loves when you don’t make his narcolepsy a huge thing, like the first time he fell asleep out of nowhere mid dinner at your house, he was surprised he woke up on your bed with you nodding off beside him.
ᯓ✦ and since then it made him realized he was completely safe with you (and completely enjoying random naps with you)
ᯓ✦ it may not seem like it at first but justin is a provider at heart, he LIKES to take care of you out of love not obligation, this is assume you’re dating him after the original noir dies.
ᯓ✦ he took care of you while you were in such a depressive and vulnerable state, bring you food and hand-feeding it to you, helping you bathe, and trying to get you to slowly get back into things when you don’t have the energy to do so, he’s willing to wait as long as it takes.
ᯓ✦ and since then he’s been your biggest cheerleader, saying how wonderful you look whenever you show off an outfit that nights outing, he thinks you look amazing either way.
ᯓ✦ he cares about you full heartedly.
ᯓ✦ justin gets pretty shy when he asks you for your input on his acting, sometimes he even asks you to act alongside him which leads to the both of you giggling by the end of it.
ᯓ✦ he also gets pretty shy about gifting you anything, it could be as simple as a new cup you’ve been meaning to get to as big as an expensive ring you’ve been eyeing.
ᯓ✦ which led to him proposing to you with the same ring, jumping around and punching the air when you said yes
ᯓ✦ also i’m sorry but i sorta like to think that justin likes to baby you when you start crying over something small or when you start crying due to a argument you both had, the second he sees tears he’s folding immediately and has you in his arms while he comforts you and saying he’s sorry.
imagine somehow both of the noirs existed at once and the three of you mutually agree to have a threesome to test the waters, but as it goes on its obvious how possessive and jealous both noirs get of you/eachother during the encounter…
Can you maybe write hc’s about Noir ll and reader? I love your writing
do i creep you out?
a/n: i’m glad you like my writing anon :3!! plus i’ve been itching to have an excuse to write noir ll…
info: gender-neutral reader, reader is a emotional mess and noir ll is just in the middle of it, noir ll is lowkey kinda selfish and pushy at the start, angst with comfort (?).
ᯓ✦ you were the first to be known of irving’s death and soon his “replacement” but it was never a replacement, they just hired someone to play your irving.
ᯓ✦ you were angry, of course you were, especially confused when noir ll came in to shake your hand saying something, “i’m glad to be working with you!”
ᯓ✦ you couldn’t help but walk away almost immediately with tears in your eyes, leaving who you remembered the man named being justin stunned with his hand extended.
ᯓ✦ but he understands, to a certain degree, you’re grieving but he needs this, he needs the info on how noir acts so he can perfect the so called character, so he keeps pushing you, and you can’t help but push him back and away.
ᯓ✦ you don’t need someone nagging you constantly on how to perfectly clone your boyfriend, you don’t need that you just need him back, irving back.
ᯓ✦ but you have to keep up with public appearances, you have too or else everyone will suspect things, so you held the doppelgänger’s hand until you can pull away to indulge in your grief once more.
ᯓ✦ you absolutely hated how much it creeped you out whenever you saw him walking him around in irving’s costume, it makes you want to vomit with how much nerves it makes you feel.
ᯓ✦ until he finally cornered you and keep asking you things and soon overwhelming you till you cried.
ᯓ “okay, i’ve been asking and you’ve been ignoring, you knew noir the most so i really need your input on how to act like him, his motivati- wait why are you crying?”
ᯓ✦ and since then he slowly started to back off, you’re grieving and he gets that now, maybe he shouldn’t have pushed you this far so he’ll back off until you’re ready to actually talk to him.
ᯓ✦ what he didn’t expect was a few days later, he watched you cry to yourself from afar backing from the urge to go and comfort you since he knew at the back of his mind he’ll make it worse somehow, he’s quite literally wearing the mask of the guy you loved so he feels bad.
ᯓ✦ so he opted to not wear the mask at all around you unless he has to be seen by the public with you, but other than that his face is bare as a sorta way to tell you that he doesn’t really want to replace the man you loved, it’s just him and that’ll be up to you to accept him when you’re ready, whatever that means he guesses.
ᯓ✦ so when a rather really rough mission happens leading to you passing out it was noir ll that brought you to the hospital and stayed until you woke up and got better, this was obvious to you because by the the time you woke up you saw him slumped, head laying just beside your leg, and unmasked as he snored with sleep.
ᯓ✦ you wondered how long he’d been like that but you can’t help but be a bit moved that he’d stay with you, someone he hardly knew so you let him stay, just this once while your hands traced the part his face where irving’s scars would’ve been.
ᯓ✦ you feel awful for treating him so bad, but you were in a bad place, you both knew that, and you knew how patient this new guy was with you despite his occasional pushing, but he just wants to play the part so you can’t blame him.
ᯓ✦ and when he woke up, you couldn’t help but feel like you needed to apologize to him whilst your fingers subconsciously played with his own.
ᯓ “you said your name was justin, right? i’m sorry for being such an ass to you…”
ᯓ “nah you’re okay, it’s mainly my fault for being all pushy and stuff, dude…”
ᯓ✦ justin sometimes can’t help but get a bit excited whenever the seven would had meetings and it looked like your eyes light up by looking at him just before looking away.
ᯓ✦ he couldn’t help himself but understand why the original noir loved and adored you, he was feeling it all even if he didn’t realize it.
ᯓ✦ apart of you couldn’t help yourself but slowly feel the same toward him yet you also can’t help yourself but feel the guilt fresh in your mind.
ᯓ✦ hes even more excited when that same day you invited him over to your place for dinner, maybe to help him get the know noir’s “character” better or at least that’s how you both rationalize it.
ᯓ✦ and before you knew it after he was finished acting out something you suggested, looking over to you for what it seemed like approval your body decided to move on its own, moving cloth underneath the mask just below his nose and kissed him.
ᯓ✦ one thing led to another now leaving you both laying on the couch, your face on his bare chest before jolting up, now your hands to your face as you sat while the guilt ate at you, justin soon joining you a bit confused.
ᯓ “hey what’s up, what happened?”
ᯓ “this feels so…wrong, why does this feel so wrong justin?”
ᯓ “i…i don’t know, im sorry, but cmon, let’s lay back down, okay?”
ᯓ✦ you obliged as his hands guided you back onto his chest as you cried with him cradling you soon after, god his heart feels like it’s aching hearing you like this yet there isn’t much he can do but hold you until you’re done.
ᯓ✦ since then, all those things you did with irving before he died became natural with justin, walks around the park, occasional dinner nights at the local diner you liked, and even quiet cuddle sessions, maybe you should let yourself move on even just a bit, irving wouldn’t like you sheltered in your misery is what you thought to yourself when you did those things with justin.
ᯓ✦ and what shattered your heart the most is when the day you wanted to tell justin about all those feelings, you were the one that found him dead from stabs to his throat.
ᯓ✦ what shit luck you have, or the shit luck the people have when having contact with the black noir costume.
a/n: i am FULL of ideas lately so i hope you guys enjoy yourselves.
info: implied afab but gender-neutral reader, og noir, noir just being a great dad.
ᯓ✦ noir is stressed, stressed for you and for himself, from the looks of it he’s great with kids but he hadn’t held something so small in seems like a lifetime so you have to calm him down after the birth while he holds the baby.
ᯓ✦ but after finally calming down, he’s in heaven on earth with how in awe he seemed as he cradled the new born cooing at him, you hope he doesn’t start sobbing while he ushers you to rest with baby in hand.
ᯓ✦ when you both get home, he is having a blast dressing the baby up in animal themed onesies be bought then showing them off to you afterwards, you couldn’t help but take pictures while he did so because the absolute joy on his face.
ᯓ✦ and whenever he comes home from a mission he’s so quick to take off his mask before holding the baby since every time he does the baby gets so excited to see their papa as their little hands can’t help but clutter and touch his face, it makes him feel much less insecure about his scars.
ᯓ✦ there are sometimes when irving knows there isn’t much going on at vought so he opted to make his own ‘bring your kid to work day’ to just spend time with his kid at work in one of their many animal onesies and to sorta show off that he isn’t just some silent assassin, he has an amazing life outside of that (no one is touching or holding the baby at all though, he doesn’t really trust anyone too besides maybe starlight and maeve).
ᯓ✦ but most times he just has a photo of you both and shows that off to the rest of the seven, whether they like it or not they WILL be forced to look one way or another since it’s the only thing he allow the others to know about him.
ᯓ✦ apart of him also enjoys how much the baby takes from you, like your eyes, the little mannerisms, and among other things, he even likes when they take some things from him.
ᯓ✦ one of them being the love the draw, you’d be making dinner while your kid tries to copy irving’s of drawing buster beaver (which he very much keeps and puts on the fridge after they’re finished with them)
ᯓ✦ irving is also one of those dads when anything huge happens like their baby walking for the first time or first day of school, he’s sobbing IMMEDIATELY, it even goes for the smallest things like his kid giving him a hug before leaving, he definitely needs be to be consoled afterwards.
ᯓ✦ and don’t get him STARTED on when the word “papa” gets said, he’s holding that baby tightly for the rest of the day, the baby has him wrapped around their finger.
ᯓ✦ his child being a complete opposite from him when it comes vocally was quite exciting for him, them being loud and talking a lot like children do to either him or you about their day at school or just about just about anything really on their mind, it fills him with absolute joy.
ᯓ✦ irving can’t help himself but go to the kids school when they reach elementary school just so their kid can be seen as cool (despite their huge amount of friends already), he can’t help himself okay :(?
ᯓ✦ but that kid is most definitely spoiled with love by you and irving <333
just thought of the funniest yet saddest thing ever, imagine noir ll (justin) falling in love with grief ridden reader (post finding out og noir died and has to pretend he didn’t for the public), falling head over heels and after gaining up the courage to confess, the interaction just ends up like this video
he’s very much embarrassed yes, but he sorta just backs off because yes he understands what’s you’re going through and maybe it really wasn’t a great idea to confess to you while wearing your dead boyfriends costume, he feels like a dick at that revelation.
I love the way you write black noir!! Do you have any relationship hcs?? 🫶
my little lamb
a/n: i have a few actually!! i hope you enjoy this anon heehee
info: gender-neutral reader, mentions of noirs past, mentions of codependency…, noir getting the love he deserves.
ᯓ✦ irving is a sap at heart, he can’t help it, the way he guides you by either his hand on your back or just by dragging you along by the hand, he’s just glad you’re there with him.
ᯓ✦ he’s your quiet knight by how the way how the second someone dares to speak ill of you or even dare touch you with ill will, your little shadow will take care of it in no time so pretty please don’t ask where he was and why he has blood on his costume <333
ᯓ✦ noir would be huge on dotting on ones he loves and cares most, he’d hand you a drawing of you while words are written just above, “my destiny, my happiness” <33333
ᯓ✦ and even if you can’t see them, his little animal friends absolutely love dotting on you as well, especially buster telling him how he did an amazing job finding someone as amazing as you.
ᯓ✦ and don’t you dare call him something like “my pretty lamb” after seeing him draw himself as a sheep because he WILL be weak at the knees the second you utter it out of your mouth.
ᯓ✦ he even has a habit where just before he leaves for a mission or do some random side task, he’d quickly pull up the fabric of his mask just about above his lips just to give yours a kiss before he’s off, ughhhh <3333
ᯓ✦ and don’t give mind how sometimes he can’t help but pet your head as well, you grew to learn to just do it back which he absolutely loves.
ᯓ✦ noir somehow someway would make you lunch or dinner (hell even both) almost every single day despite his damming schedule because in his own writing, “you cannot go a day without eating something yummy :)!”
ᯓ✦ and he’ll happily watch you munch it all down and tell him how absolutely amazing it is.
ᯓ✦ he has a hard time sleeping, having nightmares from the payback days, sometimes even shaking you awake from your own sleep (which he feels very guilty about) as he shows you a paper he’s written on, “had a bad nightmare, please hold me :(?”
ᯓ✦ there are also nights where he decides not to wake you up and just sit or lay close to your sleeping body, as a sort of way to comfort himself from the nightmares he deals with, watching your sleeping face makes him feel better in a way.
ᯓ✦ and this also goes for when you’d randomly nap throughout the day, he’d watch over your sleeping body as if he’s some guard dog waiting for someone to come but they never do, he loves protecting you even if it’s small like this.
ᯓ✦ this just might be me projecting but you’re one of many if not rare relationships that didn’t cause him any type of harm leading him to cross lines of codependency and you may not even realize it at first.
ᯓ✦ youre his safe goat, his safe place, so just by laying his head on your lap with or without his mask makes him the happiest man alive, he’s forgotten how much he loved being taken care of sometimes and you give him that.
ᯓ✦ this proves much more to him when the night he shows you his face, half scarred, he couldn’t help but cry in your arms when you looked at him with admiration while your fingers traced his scars lovingly, not the rough ones he sadly grown used too.
ᯓ✦ i’ve mentioned this before on of my other noir posts but he absolutely hates silence, not the ones in libraries but the ones where it’s too quiet for comfort.
ᯓ✦ which is why he feels much more comfortable when he knows you’re there beside him, the noises you make without intention like the small huffing of air you let out when focused on something or even the small stomps of your feet around your home helps keep him at ease.
ᯓ✦ noir even has moments where his hands hold your face while he looks at you for long periods of time, he’d never give you proper explanations but you didn’t mind, you loved when he held you face.
ᯓ✦ he’s just the sweetest guy ever despite the many people he killed, he’s you’re little guy <333
i like to think that even though black noir is the most well known quiet assassin, he isn’t really a big fan of being in places filled with silence for long periods of time even if he is known for that, it lets him think of things he doesn’t want to think too hard about.
which is why i loves whenever he’s next to you either in a meeting or just in general where you could talk his ear off about anything, he won’t put a stop to it. he loves the way you could talk about anything just for the fun of it, or maybe he just adores the way your voice sounds.
a/n: i love black noir and i will be sharing that with you guys.
info: headcanons + lots of thoughts, gender-neutral reader, reader is apart of the seven but their powers are never really mentioned, og noir + small mentions of noir ll.
ᯓ✦ you found it a little silly how you somehow find yourself in the seven, your powers aren’t really flashy in your opinion, yet you found yourself more sillier when you somehow formed a friendship with the silent assassin, black noir.
ᯓ✦ one day you complimented his buster beaver drawings mentioning how you loved him as a kid and he’s has immediately been attached to your side ever since.
ᯓ✦ despite his quiet nature hes like the biggest sweetheart ever, to you at least, around the rest of the seven, he is almost just there drawing away until he’s called, but with you, he makes an effort to sit close to you showing you every drawing he finished while he lets out small grunts of happiness when you acknowledge them.
ᯓ✦ there were even some drawings he found himself making alone where he drew himself as a black sheep whilst you’re another animal (up to you reader teehee) with a few hearts drawn around it, and when he was finished it hit almost like a train, he liked you, a lot.
ᯓ✦ despite him being comfortable toward you, apart of him feels like he fully can’t have that comfortably with you, he cannot speak even if he wanted too or even take off his mask without feeling like some sort of freak, or more like you thinking he’s a freak.
ᯓ✦ so he stays where’s it’s most comfortable, yearning for more with you, more that he feels he doesn’t deserve.
ᯓ✦ yet noir can’t help but be touchy, bringing you into hugs before and after missions or even randomly placing his hand on your shoulders to let you know he’s there, he absolutely loves when you return those touches especially when he could feel your head nuzzling against his armored plates.
ᯓ✦ he even finds himself making more noise then he would so you could know that he’s in the room with you because one time by accident he scared you so bad that you basically were sobbing which broke his heart and promised to himself he wouldn’t do that to you again especially with you stopped talking to him for a few hours so you could calm down.
ᯓ✦ he hates seeing you in distress, absolutely DESPITES it, so don’t worry about the criminal you had a hard time dealing with because they’ll be stabbed and killed in an instant while noir cheerfully drags you away back to vought soon after.
ᯓ✦ this doesn’t help that he’s quite protective of you, he knows you’re fully capable of taking care of yourself but sometimes he can’t help but think and worry about you.
ᯓ✦ which is why he often would like for you to let him know about how your missions go and he’d love to write to you about his as well when you ask, because he doesn’t want you to worry about him either despite him being able to kill people in cold blood, he loves you after all.
ᯓ✦ and that’s love shows it’s full effect when you asked him to spend the night with you after a rough mission, you tried to explain away that you didn’t want to be alone but no need for explanations, he was there.
ᯓ✦ the way you trusted him into your home, trusted him to hold you while you slept the night away was something to him, something special, is this what he remembers being in love is like, he wonders.
ᯓ✦ which is why when he decides to tell you he actually loves you, he’s in shambles. many love letters he wrote in the trash he deemed unperfected in his eyes despite his animal friends saying otherwise and telling him to just go for it, but he cannot, not until he could write down how you make him feel perfectly.
ᯓ✦ but that idea also goes in the trash when he finds you reading one of his many failed attempts he left out by accident, you must’ve thought it was one of his drawings that you told him you liked so he can’t blame you for snooping.
ᯓ✦ so he wasn’t sure what to do with himself when he heard the words that you liked him back, he panicked, and he wasn’t entire sure why, maybe he just hadn’t prepared himself for the potential outcomes just yet.
ᯓ✦ your relationship has solely built on trust, trusting you enough to make more noise around you, trusting you to drop small hints about his past he much rather doesn’t want to talk fully about, and finally trusting you to take off his mask.
ᯓ✦ he feels like he’s showing his soul when he takes off his costume, so pretty please treat it like it could break at any moment because it pretty sure will without handing it with gentle hands :(((.
ᯓ✦ and that’s what you did, which he adores about you, you’re gentle, kind, loving, adorable even (says so his animal little friend’s perspective).
ᯓ✦ with that irving began to grow more comfortable when he was inside your home, sometimes he felt comfortable enough to not have his mask around the house while he drew on the dinner table waiting for you to finish dinner.
ᯓ✦ do you have laundry you need to put away but don’t have time? don’t worry, irving will deal with it! do you have a random craving that you keep thinking about? irving will disappear and have it for you in no time!
ᯓ✦ there are also some nights where he slept with you, while you’re drifting off you could feel him mouthing your name and small “i love you”s against your neck while his fingers traced hearts on your back, what a good way to sleep.
ᯓ✦ he even have days where he isn’t feeling the greatest and just wants to stay in this costume, he just wants to be held in your arms while he let out muffled sounds you assumed was crying but you don’t want to pry him about it.
ᯓ✦ he even is lost in thought thinking about fairytales where he’s your prince, saving you from dangers but yet sometimes he feels like you’re his which how much you saved him without realizing it.
ᯓ✦ taking care of him when he needed it and he won’t hesitate to do the same for you.
ᯓ✦ but that sadly came to a sudden stop the day that homelander confronted him about hiding a secret from him with him soon on the floor clinging to life, he wanted you there with him, save him one more time, to even just see you, he’s sad when he doesn’t.
ᯓ✦ when vought replaced him, you were angry, of course you were, how dare they replace the one you loved but you were forced to deal with it since the public really love yours and noir’s relationship.
ᯓ✦ and the new noir didn’t really have it against you, you knew irving the most, you took the time to know him unlike the others on the seven, but you couldn’t help but not hate noir ll much either because it seemed he wanted to know your irving too.
ᯓ✦ it much didn’t help when you went through all again when justin died.
irving loves many things about you, but one moment that he loves most is when the time he finally took off his mask to show half of his very much disfigured face, you weren’t disgusted but to his surprise it looked like you were more in love with him than ever.
and he couldn’t help but feel the same the moment you started pampering his scars with so much kisses it dwelled his heart.
just before his encounter with homelander, noir finally built up the courage to propose to you with the most wonderful ring he knew youd liked, he somehow always knows.
which makes it more effective when he’s now laying on the floor with his insides flung out, he’s sad he isn’t able to see you when the big day finally comes.
he’s sad he isn’t able to see the one who loved him unconditionally one last time.
don’t trust noir with a switch and the new tamadachi life game because he’ll definitely add you onto his island just so you two could get married and have a kid.
or maybe do, you could tell he’s the happiest he’s been with how he treats your mii just how he treats you in real life, with love and care.
