i’m out of cigs

thomas- he/him - 21 this will honestly just be for poetry

[tommyisgoinginsane]

growing up southern is being chased with a branding iron for saying fuck as a child

[tommyisgoinginsane]

“how did you get into writing?” idk catholic guilt and beautiful women

[tommyisgoinginsane]

me (stoned) with you on an incredibly dangerous carnival ride (the ferris wheel) explaining to you prophetic visions i’ve had (advanced astrophysics) to keep myself from throwing up from nausea (real)

[tommyisgoinginsane]

your 20’s are literally just a series of “@&$!!” and “!?!?!?!?!?” and “!!!!!!!!!” and “…” and sometimes “:3”

[tommyisgoinginsane]

the day i wake up without a sense of impending doom it’s over for you fuckers

[sourdough-seal]

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

[unluckyolives]

the amount of beautiful poems ive thought of that have never left my brain and have been completely forgotten is so incredibly tragic and makes me want to sob

[tommyisgoinginsane]

you people need to realise just how beautiful you all are. you may have done shitty things in the past but all of your experiences have shaped you into who you now are, and i’m sure that version of you is gorgeous.

[tommyisgoinginsane]

sometimes i truly wish i could meet my father when he was young just so i could deliver him the most infertility-inducing kick to the balls

[tommyisgoinginsane]

i love the trope in poetry/songwriting where the guy just pretty much compares his boo thang to god because tbh same

[tommyisgoinginsane]

17 is such a good age. now it’s two years behind me, but a memory

[tommyisgoinginsane]

WHY DOES LOVE NOT FEEL FUCKING NATURAL TO ME!!! I GET THAT I’M SEVERELY MENTALLY ILL BUT A FUCKING CHEMICAL IMBALANCE SHOULD NOT HAVE TO AFFORD ME RUIN! I’M ALMOST TWENTY! NEARLY TWO DECADES ON THIS EARTH AND WHAT HAVE I TO SHOW FOR IT! SAVE THE STRAY SCARS THAT WILL NEVER LEAVE ME!! I SPRINT TOWARDS THOSE WHO CARRY MALICE AND THE ONES THAT DON’T I GET BORED OF THEM!! I WILL NOT BE MY MOTHER’S SON. WHY DOES LOVE NOT FEEL FUCKING NATURAL TO ME!!!

[tommyisgoinginsane]

why stare at me when you can kiss me

dear god, how could i

how could i sit and watch you burn

i don’t want to hear you tell me how it is

dealing with wild forces

i’ll snag one of the old man’s horses

you’ll always be claws against my face

and a fear i could never trace

there it goes again

waking up later, the beds become my crater

to trek through a fantasy

through calamity

what if i could be there this time?

alright?

we went through it all

now i go through alcohol

screaming down the lane going 125

my sweater still smells like you, it’s burning my eyes

and you wonder why you always left me speechless

i was thinking which flowers to pick from the field

i went through it all

now i go through alcohol

sink in my bed, i gasp for air

leave things unsaid, leave our souls bare

dirtied hands, strung out

“string bean,” cocaine

self inflict, self inspect

worn down, worn out

my rage, your kindness

it’s not a sign to stare

it’s a sign to kiss me

for you’ve laid my spirit bare

[tommyisgoinginsane]

your honor my client was clearly on the verge of tears

[tommyisgoinginsane]

a sweater too hot for summer

actually, the sun is the one who gazes

whilst i dream

i’m terrified to sleep in darkness

for you i could fall, yes

but i wouldn’t call the dreams lawless

after all, if there’s a rule

there’s a fair chance i’m the one who came up with it

it’s not a matter of if i stumble, it’s when

how could i not

it doesn’t mean i won’t find a way to blame the jet lag

i’m wasting away

in never ending nightmare

accompanied by your calming voice, and the moon

[tommyisgoinginsane]

hey guys so i was just wondering when it all ends

[poetrylesbian]

no matter what happens to me. at least im not fourteen.