Road to Perfection

Tony | 21 | 172cm | SW: 163.5 | CW: 139.4 | GW: 136.9 | UGW: 120

[ellieisjustpeachy]

things to do instead of eating/binging

PRODUCTIVE -clean your room -organise the pantry -do homework/study -look for a job -do laundry -get rid of things you no longer want -clean the house -make a list of things you want to do

SELF CARE/PAMPERING -take a bubble bath -write down things you like about yourself -go for a run/walk -read a book -drink some tea -watch netflix -take a nap -go (online) shopping -paint your nails -do your hair -journal -decorate your room

HOBBY/ACTIVITY -try on all your clothes -write down meal plans/ideas -go on pintrest -flip clothes -bake a goodie -paint/draw -bullet journal -embroider something -learn a language -start writing a book -garden -hang out with a friend -write a letter -listen to music

[gahdamnpunk]

ALL 👏🏾 OF 👏🏾 THEM 👏🏾

[wholesomewtf-blog]

[bigtransmoods]

The Internal Trans Panic

Me: *Breathes*

Me: Why am I not a fucking boy. Why wasnt I born a fucking boy. Why am I like this? Im trapped in this body. Someone help me please. I don’t know what to do. I can’t do this anymore. Im trapped in a body I didn’t ask for please.

[empresspinto]

hey guys, hope your skin is clear and you get a text from someone you like real soon.

also that your lunch tastes good, you find twenty dollars on the ground, and that thing coming up that you were dreading turns out not so bad

[loren-vance]

Passing this good karma

[pocketsofroses]

I reblogged this 3 days ago and my skin got clear and I got a message from a guy who refers to me as queen yesterday. Good karma vibes all around.

[blueastro-deactivated20170311]

ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY AND MY SKIN IS CLEAR AS F NOW

[skinnylegcnd]

LIKE AN HOUR OR TWO AFTER REBLOGGING THIS MY CRUSH SAID SHE LIKES ME WOW THIS FUCKING WORKS

[taintedheartss]

reblogging because you all deserve to be happy and the best is yet to come your way

[wi-thering]

masc reasons to lose weight (fall related)

- wearing sweaters and looking handsome in them

- collarbones poking out underneath everything and making you look strong

- boney, large fingers

- baggy, torn jeans, skinny or not

- ribs popping our from under your chest in gym class

- sharp jaw line

- sharp cheek bones

- looking good in hats and pompadour haircuts

- combat boots

[cvrsedbody]

LGBT STANDS FOR LIZARDS, GECKOS, BEES, TURTLES

[writterings]

when ur trans you sometimes have to choose between fashion and passing and honestly that is Not Fair

[writterings]

also you always have to choose between comfort and passing and that is SUPER Not Fair

[txnybxnes]

A month or so into ‘ana’: I’m gonna get SO skinny!!! I hate myself and I’m gonna fit into those jeans!!! I’m going to kiss people because I’ll be SKINNY!!! Skinny is perfect! I’ll be perfect!

A year into ‘ana’: *takes a puff of cigarette* ya know, kid, I’ve been here a long time and imma be here a long time more, I’ve been around the merry go round two or six times before, AINT nothin changed. I’m only 3.5kg lighter and guess who’s still a fat bitch.

I mean me? Right?

[lovelinessbones-deactivated2018]

2 years into ‘Ana’: I’ve hit the same two goal weights 20 times over, I own clothes ranging in 5 different sizes but I haven’t thrown out the bigger ones because I keep gaining the weight back and plus I look better in baggy clothes anyway. I don’t remember the last few years of my life. After I got used to the taste of black coffee I developed a dependence and now I can’t focus or concentrate on anything without it and sugar free gum. What month is it? I’m cold. Yes I’m eating the exact same thing for lunch that I’ve eaten every day for the past seven months, do you have a problem with that?

[ijustwant-to-be-skinny]

5+ years into ‘Ana’: How the FUCK have i been the same weight for three damn years?? if i eat half of these mozzarella sticks, that won’t be too bad, i’ll just fast till next Monday— or i could eat all this shit and purge it later; Oh what the hell fuck this i don’t have a disorder i can eat WHATEVER the FUCK i WANT WHENEVER the FUCK i WANT!!! …… oh god i just ate 800 calories in a sitting. time to live off coffee and tea the next three days; F U C K

[life-with-bpd-things-blog]

how about a shout out to the people who have the “ugly” symptoms like obsessing over others, having fits of rage, idolizing people, debating their validity constantly, crying over the tiniest things, depending on others for validation. shout out to the people who are frustrated with not being able to control their own mind. you guys rock! i understand that feeling and i’m here for you!

[usedneedles]

me, looking in the mirror after eating:

[lriis-west-deactivated20170102]

[rosa-ifos]

Person: coffee and nicotine is not a meal

Me :

[proedmemes]

[skinnygirls-starve]

Me @ myself when I stop myself from bingeing:

[tonys-thinspo-diary]

So lately I've been thinking a lot about how being a trans guy actually could affect my future and how it has affected my past. I catch myself quite often thinking how I wish I was a cis guy, because I was brought up as female and I feel like I kinda missed out on a different childhood. I didn't get the chance to do "boy stuff" and in all my memories I was treated like a girl. But the more I think about, the more I realise that it was probably for the best. My parents didn't really teach me anything other than "you're a worthless, lazy piece of shit", so I had to figure everything out by myself, and since I was at school most days, that's where I got my ideas about how I was supposed to act, what I was supposed to do/like/want, and how to "deal with" my emotions. Girls were supposed to be quiet, calm and underestimating themselves, while boys were allowed to be loud, disruptive and angry at anything they didn't like. I also learned that girls were not supposed to show anger, so I internalised all of the rage I felt and ended up taking it out on myself. If I had been raised as a boy who was allowed to show his anger and occasionally destroy stuff, and still had the experiences I did growing up, I probably would've turned out completely different and a lot more violent. At least this way, the only person I'm violent towards is myself.

I wanna end this rant (that nobody's gonna read anyway but wtv) by saying that we need to raise our children differently. We need to teach them they're equal, that gender roles are bullshit and they can be/do whatever they want, as long as they stick to the rules and respect each other. And we need to teach them how to deal with emotions. They need vocabulary to express their emotions and ways to deal with them in a healthy way.

[whatireadandmore-deactivated201]

[rabbitglitter-deactivated201906]

Dear cis men regulating reproductive rights 

[mollysdailykiss]

ALL THIS