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my ex-fp is flipping out because i have a new partner. sweetie you had YEARS to stake your claim on me. stfu

#personal #can you say “controlling”?#insane behaviour #to be clear. i never wanted my ex-fp in the way i want and have my partner. i just wanted to be best friends with my ex-fp #but it seems like THEY want to be my partner. which like. NO i'm monogamous and in a loving and committed relationship #back OFF #stop being a creep

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i have a loving partner now (whom my ex-fp is VERY jealous of) and it's soooo weird. my brain isn't developing any kind of insecure/disorganized/fp attachment in relation to them because he just. openly cares for me. and he makes sure i know they love me. i have no reason to doubt anything and it's such a bizarre feeling

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i think. i may actually be in remission. this is insane. who knew intentionally developing emotionally mature, equitable, and deeply loving relationships would make me feel safer and less volatile????

#what is happening #i still have tiny little flare ups from time to time #but me two years ago would not believe how stable i am now #personal #bpd #bpd remission #bpd recovery #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline

i have a loving partner now (whom my ex-fp is VERY jealous of) and it's soooo weird. my brain isn't developing any kind of insecure/disorganized/fp attachment in relation to them because he just. openly cares for me. and he makes sure i know they love me. i have no reason to doubt anything and it's such a bizarre feeling

#anyway shoutout to my beautiful partner whom i adore #personal #bpd

I NO LONGER HAVE AN FP

#i’m punching the air in excitement #oh my god i’m free #bpd #personal #actually bpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd fp #cluster b #disorganized attachment #cluster b safe #favourite person

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it's such a weird experience being desirable (and KNOWING you're desired by so many people), yet constantly chasing one singular person while everyone else clamors for your attention

(buckle - florence welch)

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like. there are people who are openly jealous of my fp and how much i care for them. i have people hitting on me left and right, people begging to be around me, people writing me love poems. and all i can think about is this one fucking person who doesn't even love me back

#bpd #bpd fp #favourite person

hi hi hello! may i slide into yer dms? i would like to ramble a bit.

sure, go ahead! be warned that i can be slow to reply, but i’m happy to chat!

#asks #answered asks

that feeling of giving up on remaining soft and reasonable and just fully handing over control to your one very angry, very traumatized, take-no-shit teenage part >>>>

#dissociation #structural dissociation #bpd #personal #actually bpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #cluster b #disorganized attachment

i’m trying to detach from my fp and this has been my experience so far :/

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#bpd #personal #actually bpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd fp #cluster b #disorganized attachment #cluster b safe #favourite person

i get so fucking jealous when i watch hudcon. i need a best friend like that. my best friend doesn’t even consider me their best friend. my best friend is fucking ignoring me

#hudcon #i need to get out of this relationship oh my god. thinking of leaving them #i know that would fuck them up big time but i’m losing patience #hudson williams #connor storrie #heated rivalry #personal

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it’s an interesting feeling, knowing that soooo many people would congratulate me if i broke things off with my fp

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i was talking to my friend yesterday about the whole situation, and he turns to me and goes "you shouldn't have to beg for basic decency from your best friend" and i fear it short-circuited something in me

#the way my fp treats me is so ass fr #and it's because they know they're not in danger of losing me #well buckle up buckaroo cause i might straight up leave your sorry ass #personal #bpd #bpd fp #favourite person

it’s an interesting feeling, knowing that soooo many people would congratulate me if i broke things off with my fp

#every time i tell a friend about them they look at me and go ‘that’s a red flag babes’#it’s getting toxic here #bpd #personal #actually bpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd fp #cluster b #disorganized attachment #cluster b safe #favourite person

detaching from your fp means realizing that u were crashing out over a fucking LOSER

#like. oh u actually kind of suck. huh who knew #personal #bpd #actually bpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd fp #cluster b #disorganized attachment #cluster b safe #favourite person

the bpd experience of slowlyyyy realizing that a person you had on a pedestal isn't actually THAT amazing is soooo weird. like. i once would have died for you and now you're just Some Guy to me