I took 7 pills the day you left
I wasn’t trying to meet with death
Just wanted to drift away.
I needed comfort in familiarity.
You ruined every weekend.
Make me feel so small it was a dream
That I would one day make friends.
And when you died I felt the same way
That I felt the day you left.
I took another seven pills
To see if we could shake hands.
I needed closure in an apology
One I’ll never fucking get.
Not even if you could manage to breathe
But I’m unable to ever forget.
That you ruined my favorite parts of me.
The girl I was before we met.
But even shattered glass will gleam
When the sun starts to set.
I hope the sun never rises where you are.
You don’t deserve her beams.
I hope that death’s uncomfortable.
I hope you feel the pain I felt
I hope you got the hand you dealt
When I was just Eighteen.
I hope someone dragged you to a bathroom
Then walked you out like nothing happened
And you were forced to smile.
I hope that you miss life forever.
I hope it makes you sick.
That you can’t come to earth and hug them
The ones who took your shit.
I hope the sun never rises where you are.
You have to sit and think.
That while forever in the dark
You’re haunted by our memories.