Poet, do you know your debt?

Hi, I'm Tori. I post poetry and prose. Some of it is mine and some is translated from slovene or other languages.

[tori-knez]

It's easy to get drowned in all the truths I never spoke.

[tori-knez]

To melt his heart, she was ready to burn her own.

[tori-knez]

You're bitter

Coffee black

But I wouldn't change you for a thing

In the coldest of the day

You warm me up

In the darkest of the night

You wake me up

[tori-knez]

There's deep longing in my veins,

Longing for someone I've never met;

But still I know their soul,

It's half of my own,

And I beg the stars in my dreams,

Let me find them some day,

Let me be whole

In this broken world.

[tori-knez]

I hid my love

in the folds of origami

never to be open

or it will be destroyed

[melloncolliegalaxies]

don't compare me to a phoenix

soaring from the ashes,

i'm the one who torched this,

in place of fingers, i have matches.

i aimed to end

not for rebirth,

do not compare me

to a weathered bird.

but if you do,

i'm something caged;

i want to rise

above the pain,

my wings don't fly,

they fan the flames.

- "i am no phoenix"

[tori-knez]

To love is to exist in a universe so vast you can never reach the end. There is no rules and there is no time; you just drift through space at the speed of light, passing asteroids and supernovas, yet never reaching the end. You crash into a star and there's just light, you float around a thousand moons and there's just never ending dance of gravity. You exist to wander in the beauty of infinity, so full of stars you barely see the void behind them. And it scares you when you realise how lost you can get inside a universe so deep that only human heart can beat in sync with its never ending wonder.

[tori-knez]

they told you

it's all black and white

good or bad

wrong or right

but they never say

that shadows are created by light

[tori-knez]

How can one word breaks two hearts at once.

[tori-knez]

"Stop crying," I plead.

Your screams are shaking the earth, your grief cracking the stones.

"How could I not?" you hiss with sharp breeze, "Does your heart not know the same agony? You wander the world, quiet and faint, yet never warm or content. Tell me you hypocrite, why is it so?"

"I still have arms, yet I can no longer hold the one that holds my heart."

"See!" you screach, eyes flashing with agony, "You know why I weep, yet you plead me to not, to quiet my pain, to forget about a longing so deep."

"Clouds on your face are getting darker," I whisper in need. "Don't let them consume you."

Your anger makes the air vibrate when you ask "Why?"

My voice is just a quiet echo of my heart, a desperate prayer of the one left behind.

"The blue of your eyes...I don't want to lose it twice."

The thunder stops, yet rain still kisses my cheeks, softly in apology.

"I don't want to lose you twice."

Clouds crack, light shining trough, light sky blue like the eyes I once knew.

There is no answer, just a windy kiss on my lips as I wander on, beneath a bright blue sky.

[tori-knez]

Like crystals dripping from the sky

I want to fall

And shatter in your embrace

[tori-knez]

She had a softness to her beauty

Like a scarlet flower

falling apart beneath the autumn sky

Its petals gently dripping to the ground

Never caught by brezee or scorched by sun

They fall and they drift

To give dark earth a velvet kiss

She had softness to her beauty

Like a scarlet flower

Dying just to love

[tori-knez]

My mind is full of shrapnel

Words that shot like bullets through my skull

Tore my nerves to pieces

And now I bleed

With jagged shreds still cutting me apart

And I bleed

Crystal blood just streaming down my cheeks

And I bleed

From bullet holes that you can't see

And I bleed

Black words on paper pouring night and night

When I can't sleep

Because my mind is still screaming in memory of pain and agony

And I bleed

And I will bleed untill crystall dropplets turn to ash

Because there is no remedy for shrapnel wounds you cannot see

[tori-knez]

You swallow air like its a slimy coal, burned from all the poisounes lies. And you choke in the dusty river of regret, when the world around you turns from grey to red to white, and there is nothing you can do to stop the stream of devastation pouring from the skies. No more heaven, earth is just a crumbling dust, the skies are gone and so is future painted green. You turned your back on her and now she rips your lungs apart, cell by cell,  with nails of flames before she kisses you blood-red, one last time, poison of your own device tainting her lips.

[tori-knez]

I fell in love for the first time

and I thought I would fly on gentle winds forever

but then I hit the ground

and my heart shattered

like songbird’s crystal bones

and I thought I would never fly under the smiling skies again

but my bones healed and my wings caught the gentle winds

and I flew and I fell

and I repeated it all again

because the skies were smiling 

and my heart was crystal clear

[tori-knez]

[tori-knez]

Shot.

Coat turned red.

Shot.

One more dead.