WILSON, 3

ᵃᶜᵗ ⁱ. WHAT MIGHT BE GOOD FOR 𝙔𝙊𝙐𝙍 𝙃𝙀𝘼𝙍𝙏 MIGHT NOT BE GOOD FOR MY HEAD—

[torontosbest]

indie medium / sporadic activity ice hockey oc, ethan wilson, first overall draft pick with the (fictionalized) toronto maple leafs in the 2025-2026 season, turned carolina hurricanes center and 2026 stanley cup champion. muse est. 4/20/2022. blog est. 12/8/2025.

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AFFILIATED WITH @carolinasbest , @metrosbest , @quad4xel , more tba.

[torontosbest]

first ten minutes in the ocean and i got stung by a jellyfish wrapped around my leg + knee :( this is ethan coming back to bite me because i put him through hell so much

[mythshire]

※.·:·.※ 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐖 ··· a collection of chosen bonds, found family, & unconditional belonging roleplay sentence starters. genre: platonic love, hurt and comfort, loyalty.

• You know you don't have to keep checking on me, right? I'm fine. • How are you? Wait, did I ask that already? • I don't know what I'd do without you. I mean that. • Oh, God. I thought something happened to you. Don't scare me like that. • You're not alone in this. You know that, right? • We're family. That's what we do. We show up. • Make yourself at home, okay? This is your place too now. • Get out of here with that. You're not a burden. Don't ever say that again. • Is there anything you need? Food? A blanket? Someone to just sit with you? • So, what's next for us? • I have to admit there's a small part of me that's terrified you'll wake up one day and realize you don't need me anymore... that you'll leave. • It's just... I've never had this before. People who stay. • Why are you still here? I mean, you could go anywhere. Be with anyone. • I know I'm not easy to deal with. But thank you. For staying anyway. • [Name], I don't know what I'm doing half the time, okay? But I know I'm not doing it without you. • I don't really know where else I'd want to be, except right here. • You're the best thing that ever happened to me, you know that? • I really think you saved my life. Not dramatically. Just... by being here. • Hey. Bad dream? Come here. I've got you. • You don't owe me anything. This is what family does • Stop apologizing. You're allowed to need help. • I made your favorite. Thought you could use some comfort food today. • You look exhausted. When's the last time you actually slept? • I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me, remember? • We've been through worse. We'll get through this too. • You don't have to be strong all the time. Not with me. • I brought you something. It's stupid, but it made me think of you. • Come on. Let's get you home. • You matter to me. More than you know. • I've got your back. Always have, always will. • You're shaking. Here, take my jacket. • I know you're scared. It's okay to be scared. • You did good today. Really good. • I'm proud of you. I don't say that enough. • Stop pushing me away. I'm not leaving. • You think I'd let you face this alone? Not a chance. • I'll stay up with you. I don't mind. • You're safe here. I promise. • Tell me what you need. Anything. • You don't have to pretend with me. • I trust you. Completely. • You've got this. And if you don't, we've got this. • I'd do anything for you. You know that, right? • You're not too much. You're never too much. • This is your home now. For as long as you want it. • I'll fight for you if you can't fight for yourself right now. • You make me want to be better. A better person. • I chose you. I keep choosing you. Every day. • You're allowed to fall apart. I'll hold the pieces until you're ready.

[calellon]

All you do is whine

untrue i also suffer, rot, wail, wallow, haunt, mourn and rage

[mack-will]

two golden retrievers (x)

[coffee-and-cusswords]

[guy who has been holding an insane amount of tension in his body for a week straight] bro why do I feel so awful

[mack-will]

does anyone know what to do? (x)

[holographicbutch]

I love characters with self destructive tendencies I love characters who get way worse before they get better (if ever) I love characters who would rather dig themselves into a deeper hole because it's easier than trying to climb out of it

[mack-will]

will smith anxiety (x, x, x, x, x, x)

[kyumo-02]

his one constant

[ylivoima]

will x ford bronco

[ohisms]

✱ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐁:𝐓𝐕𝐒, S01 ... ( PART 01. a collection of dialogue prompts originating from season one of the 1997-'03 series BUFFY the VAMPIRE SLAYER. adjust phrasing / gendered terms as necessary, mature themes present. )

i'll show you, come on.

so you're from [ LOCATION ], right?

ugh, i would kill to live in L.A.

of course, we do have to test your coolness factor.

no wonder you're such a guy magnet.

the first rule is: know your losers.

i was looking for some, well ... books.

i was told you were coming.

i know what you're after.

that's not what i'm looking for.

uh, hi ... [ NAME ], right?

let's segue into me asking for a favor.

look, i really want to get by here.

i have this burning desire not to flunk all my classes.

oh, i could totally help you out!

we could meet someplace ... louder.

is it me or are you turning into a bibbling idiot?

what do you do for fun, what do you like?

gee, everyone wants to know about me.

don't you have an elsewhere to be?

i was afraid of this.

it's like, a whole big sucking thing.

why am i still talking to you?

you think it's a coincidence you're here?

what do you know about this town?

hey, i know! why don't YOU kill them?

are you going out tonight?

you know, i think we can make it work, here.

yeah, there's a problem. why are you following me?

you've got to be ready.

what i want is to be left alone!

yeah, well maybe i don't want a friend.

i don't actually date a whole lot lately.

it's probably easy for you.

this is me having fun.

i'd much rather be home with a good book.

this is the perfect breeding ground for vampire activity.

i have to make you understand.

perhaps there is no trouble coming, the signs could be wrong.

oh, yay, it's my stalker.

glad we had this little chat.

it's not like i have all these fluffy bunny feelings for them.

god! what is your childhood trauma!

excuse me, i have to call everyone i have ever met right now.

don't worry, one vampire i can handle.

so, uh, what did you say your name was?

whatever, it doesn't matter.

hey, have you have you ever been in one of these?

is that what you think?

you couldn't go to some other town?

you're wasting my time.

hey, i had other plans too, okay?

oh, i – i need to sit down.

how do you kill them?

does anybody mind if i pass out?

this may be a dumb question, but shouldn't we call the police?

there's no "we", okay?

that was a bit, um ... british, wasn't it?

do i have to tell you to be careful?

and where do we think we're going?

do you see where i'm going with this?

i, in the meantime, will help by standing around like an idiot.

everyone else just thinks it's a normal day.

nobody knows, it's like we have this big secret.

maybe we should get to class.

you gonna wish me luck?

who gave you permission to exist?

it's cool, [ NAME ] is a superhero!

they knew you were going to come. they said i was the bait.

do you know another way out?

we need to get out of here.

you failed me. tell me you're sorry.

got anything to make this day even worse?

i'll find my own way.

yours is a glorious sacrifice.

i'm sorry, were you in the middle of something?

you didn't think i'd miss this, did you?

you should have been there, it was so creepy.

i expect a certain amount of responsibility.

do you ignore everything i say as a rule?

you have a sacred birthright, [ NAME ].

and you'll be stopping me how?

i just want to have a life, something normal. something safe.

who said i was pretending?

i didn't know you wanted to be a cheerleader.

that much quality time with my mom would lead to some quality matricide.

it's okay, it's okay ... it's gonna be okay.

you know, it might not kill you to give me a hand here.

get down with your bad self ...

that's kind of romantic ... okay, that part's less romantic.

my folks split up too.

i'm going to get changed.

we have to achieve our dreams, otherwise we shrivel up and die.

brownie pig-out at my house?

this just in: i'm not you.

[ NAME ], you haven't been mean to me all day!

you're not invisible to [ NAME ].

you don't have to drive it into my head like a railroad spike.

we can pick this up later, you don't mind — do you?

we gotta get you to the safe house.

you just don't get it, and believe me, you don't want it.

what, i can't be in a good mood? new house rule?

i'm going to stop this, i promise. you just hang on.

i've come to a very simple conclusion: i don't get it.

please promise me you won't do anything rash.

yes, i lied, and i'm a bad person. let's move on.

wasn't here, didn't see it, couldn't have stopped you.

i'm gonna need you to really listen, okay?

just for the record, you were right, i'm an idiot.

as it is written, so shall it be.

90% of the vampire slaying game is waiting.

follow your hormones, if you want.

you will be judged.

are you willing to stand with the righteous?

i feel like everyone is staring at me.

are you, uh ... having fun?

just be really quiet and barricade the door.

two days in my world, and i'd get you killed.

i don't come with an instruction manual.

we who walk at night share a common bond.

the taking of life is a serious matter.

their deaths will bring me little joy.

you read my diary?

you don't even know what you.

hi, it's been awhile. a lifetime.

guess what, precious? you're not one of them.

is that what you tell yourself these days?

you and i both know what you hunger for. what you need.

it's nothing to be ashamed of, it's who we are.

it's what makes eternal life worth living.

i'm not afraid of you.

can you please warn me before you do that?

ohh, you're giving me orders now?

do i sense a plan, [ NAME ]?

i'll be quiet now.

i need to stop thinking about this.

get some rest now.

[ NAME ], it's not your fault.

if you care about somebody, you care about them.

don't whimper and mewl like a mangy human.

you had a chance to come home.

we'll kill them all.

[mack-will]

october 10, 2024

↳ for sophie @myfriendsareboring

[torontosbest]

character study for sports journalist/reporter ethan, ft. @carolinasbest

the town wakes up grey & slow, the way every good town does, & you're up before it because the light off the north sea does something to the room at half five that you don't want to sleep through. you're here to cover the open, which means your days belong to other people until the last group comes off eighteen & your mornings belong to no one, & this is the arrangement you've built your entire adult life around: be paid to watch, then spend the watching money on the hours in between. somebody hands you a credential & a seat in the press tent & asks you to render four days of other men's nerves into eight hundred clean words a night, & you do it, & you're good at it—better than good, it's the one thing you were maybe made for, seeing & then saying—& the rest of the day is yours.

you have your own accounts. you have, in the flat unhelpful language of the people who manage them, considerable accounts. you could buy the links, the r&a, the grey little hotel you're standing in. but the card in your wallet is robby's, & that's the point of it, that's the whole quiet joke you let run—it isn't need, none of it is need, it's the single line you let go the other direction, from you outward, a small daily betrayal of a man whose entire method is to take in & give nothing away. you love it the way you love salt. you'd stay for free. you do not tell robby this, because the fiction—i provide, therefore i am loved—is the only gift you've ever found that he will actually take, & you've spent a long time learning that the most loving thing you can do is never check his math, because that 'wrong' answer is the only thing keeping his side of the equation upright.

you cook wherever you land, because you always have. restaurant food is somebody else's decision & you've had enough of those by four o'clock, so the first real purchase of any trip is the kitchen. in st andrews it's a knife—a shop the size of a closet two streets back from the water, a man who wraps the blade in newspaper & then oiled paper & bows when he hands it over, & you bow back a beat too late because you're still turning the handle in the window light when the moment for it passes. eight hundred & fifty. you build the whole day around the dinner it's going to make: butter with more fat in it than anything sold at home, flour milled somewhere you can drive to, langoustines off a boat, a copper sauté pan because the rental's nonstick is a crime & teflon will, you maintain, patiently, to anyone, kill you. there's a stockpot too, & a carbon-steel pan you'll season on the hob & carry home wrapped in a jumper. you bake when you're anxious—have since before you understood that's what it was—so there will be desserts at eleven at night that nobody needs, & you'll photograph the batch of frosted cupcakes like evidence.

then the town gives you the things only this town gives. cashmere that means something here, off the bone, a scarf & then a jumper the exact grey of the water that morning, the kind of soft that costs what it costs because it's real & not a story about being real. a cask-strength bottle from a distillery an hour up the coast, single, older than the year either of you was born, that you'll open once & ration. a length of tweed & a tailor's card, because you decided somewhere around the third hole that you wanted a jacket made out of this specific weather. & books—always books, you go through a leather-bound notebook every three weeks & have been rationing the last one for a month, so you buy five at the stationer & then wander into the rare-books place near the cathedral & come out ninety pounds lighter with a first edition of something you already own, because owning it twice, one to read & one to keep, is a kind of love you understand better than most of the ones people talk about.

golf is the one thing you do well without any complication, which is rare enough that you don't have to actually think about it too hard. you grew up with it—dad & mom & both sets of grandparents hauling you & your siblings out to the club before any of you were tall enough to see over the bag, whole summers of green & etiquette & keep your head down, so the swing lives in your body somewhere older & easier than most of what's in there, muscle memory from a life that hadn't gotten hard yet. you're good. genuinely, quietly good, the way that only comes from a childhood that could afford to hand it to you, & you have the whole grammar that comes with it—the ease in a pro shop, the etiquette you could perform in your sleep, the complete absence of sticker shock.

what you don't have is the thing that's usually bolted to all of it. you've watched the type your entire life & never once became it: the trust-fund kid who mistakes inheritance for character, loud & bloodless with the staff, treats a caddie like an inconvenience. you're elite in the way you can't actually buy & never advertise—you learn the name of the man measuring your feet, thank the girl refilling the water twice, are warmer to everyone working the building than to anyone who belongs to it, partly manners & partly that a lifetime spent watching from the edge of rooms means you see the people the other members look straight through. being good at golf is the least interesting thing about you. so there's a fitting at a shop that's been there since before america, a full set that has to be shipped home, a round on the old course that costs like a small used car & is worth every cent—not because it impresses anyone, it doesn't, but because you get to walk it slow & play it straight & not have to think, & the not-having-to-think is the actual luxury.

you want robby there so badly it's a physical fact & he isn't, so you play it for him instead, every clean contact a thing you'll never manage to describe well enough after. new sunglasses, because the pair you bought last month got scratched. these new ones—cartier, nine hundred dollars—are for golfing, you do not defend the purchase because it was never for defending.

everything else ships home to raleigh, to the apartment robby pays for, to the california king you made before you left. the espresso machine you decide on at six one morning, jetlagged, because you're mostly tired of drinking other people's idea of correct—six & a half thousand dollars of italian steel to go with the habit of walking down to videri for a single iced mocha every day at seven, which you'll keep doing anyway, because the machine is for the mornings you're home & the mocha is for the mornings you need to be seen leaving the house. candles to replace the target ones, the trudon you've decided you prefer over the le labo, a whole box of them. linen sheets from a mill you read about, to go under the weighted blanket robby still doesn't understand & which you've explained once & won't explain again: it's like being held down in a good way, then: it's the closest thing to a hand on the back of the neck that a person can buy. a fountain pen, urushi lacquer, ordered months ago from a workshop that makes them one at a time, finally shipping now, arriving to an empty raleigh apartment before you do. & a watch—a cartier tank, quiet, secondhand & old, a thing that doesn't announce itself, which is the only kind of expensive you respect.

the clothes come last because the clothes are the least honest & you save the dishonest ones for when robby's most awake. a cucinelli jacket, thom browne slacks, a bottega knit the color of nothing. you try them on in fitting rooms with good mirrors & send the pictures in states of undress that are not accidental, the fading marks robby left you—normally tucked under a collar—arranged into the frame on purpose, & you watch the little delivered turn into read & imagine, precisely, because imagining precisely is what you do, the way his mouth goes when he can't find a word, his eyes darkening as he takes you in. there's a deposit down in london on the next leg, a suit that'll be made over months, fittings arriving as photographs across a whole season so that the anticipation itself becomes a thing robby has to live inside.

you know what it does. that's the entire mechanism, & you've never once pretended to yourself that it isn't. you send the knife first, & wait—it's the middle of the afternoon there, which means the bar, which means robby's phone face-down on the chalk tray between sets, which means the buzz will reach him through the wood before it reaches his eyes—& then you send the number after, so it lands second, so there's a gap where he has to sit in it & wonder. then the rest, slow, all day, one at a time, cruel in the way that people are cruel only to the ones they've decided are going to stay: the butter, the flour, the copper, the cashmere, the whisky, the pen, the watch, a drip across nine time zones of a life you could pay for yourself a thousand times over & choose, instead, to let robby feel like he's paying for.

at eleven you take the bread out. you photograph the crumb, still steaming, torn open with the two-hundred-year-old knife.

the next morning you text him good morning, though it’s still too early his time for him to be awake. an hour later you send a photo of you working out in the hotel gym. two hours after that, a mirror selfie of yourself, wrapped in nothing but a towel riding low on your hips, blond hair darker with water, steam on the mirror blurring your features, the camera gone fuzzy in a dreamlike way, & under it gasped out your name when i came. the second he’s up, the message goes from delivered to read, & his facetime request comes in at breakneck speed. you grin, then school your face into something innocent.

xxx

london is where you buy the slow things, on purpose, because you've learned that the cruelest & kindest purchases are the ones that don't arrive.

the suit you put a deposit on last leg comes due as a fitting, not a thing—a basted shell of a jacket, loosely stitched in white thread so the tailor can rip it apart again, chalk marks up the spine, one sleeve pinned shorter than the other while a man who has been doing this since before you wore a body walks a slow circle around you & says almost nothing. you chose the cloth first, a fox flannel the grey of a specific afternoon, & now the thing exists only as intention held together with basting, & it will exist that way for months—a second fitting in the autumn, a third near winter, the jacket becoming more itself each time & never once being finished on the day you're standing there. you photograph the chalk marks in the mirror. you do not photograph your face. you send it to robby with no words, because the picture is the words: this is being made for me, one seam at a time, & you will feel it happen slowly.

the shoes are worse, which is to say better. john lobb, bespoke, which means before they make anything they make you—measure every idiot bone in your feet & carve a last out of wood, a pair of wooden feet that are your exact feet, that they keep, that will sit on a shelf in a basement in london with your name on them for the rest of a very long time whether you come back or not. it unsettles you in a way you don't examine too closely, a permanent physical record of a thing that isn't supposed to leave records, & you buy it anyway—buy the trial shoe, the real pair to follow in half a year—because the unsettling is a small price & because robby will get a photograph of a wooden model of your feet & have no idea what to do with it, which is a gift in itself.

everything else on the row & off it is the same principle in miniature. shirts on jermyn street cut to a paper pattern they'll keep forever, so the second order is a phone call. a first edition from the rare-books dealer in mayfair, kept behind glass, that costs more than the suit & gets wrapped like it's alive. apothecary soap & shaving oil from a shop with a royal warrant, tea measured out by a man who asks you three questions first, a trunk from a luggage-maker that will outlive the airline it's about to be thrown around by. you cook in the london flat too, of course—a market in the morning, marrow bones & good butter & a bird that had a name, bread at eleven that nobody needs, the copper pan riding along in your luggage like a pet—& you send the receipts across the afternoon the way you always do, spaced out, cruel, one at a time, so robby's whole day fills up in increments with a life you both know you could pay for yourself a hundred times over & never do.

xxx

paris is a tuesday, a train, one night, dinner.

you go down for it specifically—calla's in the city between tournaments, which happens maybe twice a year, so it's her & isabella & a few of their people, the ones with no names you need to give robby, the crowd that materializes wherever calla is because she's the most famous person any of them will ever stand next to & pretends very hard that she isn't. arpège, months out, a table you booked in march for a night in july, because you wanted passard's vegetables more than you wanted the name attached to them, which is the only reason you ever pick a room like that. calla will eat every bite as her pink diamond engagement ring glints & talk the whole time. isabella will photograph every plate. it'll be perfect & loud & you'll sit slightly apart from it the way you always do, rendering it, saving the good lines.

you text robby before you sit down. this part you do say, out loud, in words, which is not your habit—you curate, you withhold, you let the pictures do the talking—but this one you want him to see plainly, so there's no misreading it:

ethan: picking up the check for the whole group tonight—calla, iz, the usual crowd. calla's already fishing for a date with us for her father's next big event. like, the kind of launch party that effectively stops the city. i told her we'd see, but she's already planning the calendar.

ethan: & before you say anything—it's on my card. all of it. every plate but mine. i know exactly what you're about to type, my love. don't. your card doesn't buy anyone but me.

ethan: dinner is for other people. that's what my money's for. i've got more of it than i'll ever spend & it can feed a room of strangers & i won't feel a thing.

ethan: yours only ever buys me. one plate. mine.

& that's what you do—put three, four, five other people's dinners on your own account without blinking, a bill that would make most of the table flinch if they saw it & doesn't touch you at all, & then, separately, quietly, at the end, charge the single price of your own tasting menu to robby's amex, one plate in a room you bought outright, so that the charge that lands on his phone isn't the kind of number with a tennis champion & her entourage folded into it—it's just dinner, paris, the exact amount of one man eating. because you both know robby could afford the whole room. that was never it, & it was never about what he could carry. it's that you've decided, with the total finality you bring to the few things you decide at all, that the private line between the two of you stays private—that his money is a hand on the back of your neck & no one else's, & it does not get spent on people, it gets spent on you, & everyone else in the world can eat on your dime because everyone else in the world is not the point.

you send the last receipt near midnight, your own single plate, paris, & under it, because you're soft in exactly one direction & it's this one:

ethan: wish you'd been here, babe. i'd have made you split the pigeon.

xxx

the last night is back in london, in a room you book for no reason except that you can—a suite near the river with a wall of glass & big ben lit gold across the water, the kind of place that runs into four figures before you've touched the minibar, the kind of view people photograph from the bridge below while you're lying in the bed above it. you've done this whole trip the way you do everything: at a remove, curated, every glimpse of yourself you handed robby chosen & framed & timed, pictures instead of presence, the gap engineered so he has to sit in it. control as a love language, because it's the one you trust, the one that can't be taken from you halfway through.

you take one more. shirtless, the sheets low across your hips, the clock tower burning gold in the glass behind you, the most obscene frame of the whole four days—the flex to end the flexing. you get it on the first try. you’re good at this. you’ve always been good at this. & then you actually look at it, & there, where your hand’s come to rest flat against your own chest without you telling it to, the promise ring catches the light—gold, the small diamond throwing it back. everything else in the frame you chose. the room, the watch on the nightstand, the sheets, the light, the angle, the version of yourself you’re handing him. you picked all of it. the ring is the one thing in the picture you didn’t put there. he did. it’s the only part of the whole shot that isn’t you performing, & it’s sitting right over your heart where your own hand went looking for it without asking.

you don't send it.

you look at it for a second, this staged & expensive & faintly lonely thing, & then you do the one move you haven't made once all week, the move the entire edifice of your spending exists to keep you from having to make: you stop performing. you set the picture down, unsent. you hit facetime instead.

it’s ringing before you can talk yourself back into the safer version—no receipt, no engineered pause, no picture doing the talking for you, just your own face lit gold & your thumb finding the ring without looking, turning it once around your finger the way you do when you want him & he isn’t there. & then the call connects, & everything you spent a week not saying folds down into the only words that were ever the point.

“hi, my love.” you greet him softly, the smile going soft the same beat your eyes do, a slow blink you don’t decide to make—the smile & the slow blink both his, both things you’ve never once spent on another face, & never will. “i miss you. i’ll be home soon.”

[totheecore]

My Stick Curve: Macklin Celebrini 🦈🏒 ( 2 / 2 )

[wells-graham]

hannah wells wearing garrett graham's clothes in off campus: season one (2026)

[torontosbest]

i.var sten.berg you are offically a s.js