digital journal ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

"but poetry, beauty, romance, love... these are what we stay alive for."

[totallybowoa]

january 08, 2026 : it's been a long time since we last spoke, and in the meantime i've managed to accomplish almost everything that i wrote about last year. this year though, i hope to travel more, capture more moments with my friends through my camera, maybe go on a picnic or two. i want to learn how to draw again and, unsurprisingly, i truly hope i get to read more books. above i attached my reading goal for 2026. may this year be gentle with us all. credits to @/katsphantasma on x for the template.

[totallybowoa]

march 28, 2025 : "i wish i wrote the way i thought; obsessively, incessantly, with maddening hunger. i'd write to the point of suffocation. i'd write myself into nervous breakdowns, manuscripts spiraling out like tentacles into abysmal nothing. and i'd write about you a lot more than i should." benedict smith i wish i wrote the way i thought.

[totallybowoa]

february 21, 2025 : i wish i could hug all of my past selves, i want them to know that life will get better - one day, they'll wake up to a brighter sun, with blooming flowers, nature buzzing with life and everything will fall just right in place.

[totallybowoa]

february 14, 2025 : "i would have fought you forever. i would have wrestled you through time. i would have turned you, and been turned. i would do anything. i have done so much, and would have done as much again, and more. and yet here i am, a fool, writing you one last time, and here you are, a fool, reading me. we're one, at least, in folly. (...) love is what we have, against time and death, against all the powers ranged to crush us down." final rating : ★★★★★.

[terror-incognita]

I want to see more girl monsters. Girl giants, girl dragons, hulks & trolls. Scylla and hydra. Girl monsters who are huge and whole. Teeth and plush fur and long muscled tails. Heads enough to see you anywhere. Gleaming green or brown. But girl monsters are usually zombies or vampires. Pale and thin, bleeding or dead. Not Lady Lazarus, not a phoenix from the ash. I want to see how you get strong without being broken first. Get strong and stay strong. Get big and bigger.

[totallybowoa]

january 20, 2025 : not a single day goes by without thinking about this post. i am driven by an insatiable hunger to grow stronger and bigger everyday. i refuse to be underestimated - i want to be feared.

[totallybowoa]

january 17, 2025 : this year, i want to immerse myself in as many books as possible and write more. i plan to step outside of my comfort zone, savor the scent of flowers and appreciate the landscape. i want to watch more movies, draw more, smile more and love people deeply.