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everything in my head

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01.06.2026 [😚]

⭐️: 6월도 힘차게 시작!/ starting June with fresh energy

[transcendingwaves]

me while reading The Serpent and the Night of Wings

[mariagoesmed]

My attempts at learning everything there is to know about Ophthalmology in 3 days and working on my german and having a social life are taking a toll🫩

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

and it will be better 🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿

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what's your fav flower and when was the last time you cried ?

Stargazer. And the last time cried was when I was reading Happy Place by Emily Henry.

[earlymoderngothic]

breakfast and a book

[midnightinshadow]

[narumi-studies]

04.05.2026 | 06/62

spent the weekend studying in cafes and taking long walks because it’s been warmer outside than inside my house. enjoyed a bit of sunshine because this spring has been very cold and even though the days are longer, it doesn’t really feel like summer is coming.

[midnightinshadow]

[studyaesstuff]

[pungislife]

Can anyone tell me why studying at the dinner table is 100000 times more productive than studying at my desk?

[whimperwarriorjoong]

weird asks because i’m bored

if you have a lighter, what color is it?

pepsi box blue or cheetos bag orange?

do you like pasta?

how often are you on tumblr?

are you only doing this because you’re bored?

what blogs do you mostly interact with?

can you swim?

have you had water today?

which do you prefer, cotton candy or funnel cake?

have you ever [insert question]?

bass or drums?

favorite tv commercial?

can we be friends?

do you admire the clouds and color of the sky?

what’s the weirdest thing that’s happened to you?

a netflix series that’s your favorite?

an earliest obsession you remember?

do you play video games?

zombies or vampires?

have you listened to [insert musician/band]?

your first celebrity crush?

do you have a collection of cool rocks?

five words that describe you?

what have you learned about yourself?

can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue?

do you believe in aliens?

books or films?

an unusual song that’s your favorite?

the last thing you ate?

do you have a favorite [insert question]?

have you gotten bit by a dog?

do you write better with a pen or a pencil?

a song that gets stuck in your head?

when you hear “ peace ” what do you think of?

a school subject your good with?

how many alarms do you have set?

do you shop at thrift stores?

what’s the meaning behind your url?

is there wise words you live by?

what’s your favorite [insert question]?

you gotta have a favorite beatles song, what is it?

earphones or a speaker?

what do you remember from your childhood?

do you collect anything?

favorite tea?

a christmas song you secretly like?

book stores or record stores?

how weird were these questions?

what scents do you like?

is there [insert question]?

send me some!

[midnightinshadow]

[pansexualrevolutionary]

Follow for more beautiful things!

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[transcendingwaves]

Old and fragile.

Is what became of my dad when I saw him last April. He looked so much like his father. Cheeks sucked in, especially when he is not wearing his dentures. Which are by the way, a denture made by a dental student. I'm not sure but that is what I like to believe in.

He was an angry man. Back when he still had his youth and energy. I always hear him shout, he always notices the wrong things, he has always something negative to say. But he never admitted his feelings. His sentiments always go through my mom. She was the one telling us the things he couldn't say.

A lot of the things I hate today are product of what I grew up with and the culprit is mainly him. I didn't want to be shouted at, because who wants that? Many times, when he's angry, he shouts and bolts out the door. He would always bang his hands against something, hit or throw things. We were afraid of him. So when I hear some angry shouting (e.g. my new neighbor shouting at her dog), it irks me. I've spent almost six years without it and would not want to experience it again.

At dinner, he was like a priest delivering a sermon. Literal sermon for everything - work, life, family, friends, neighbors, etc. When he reprimands us, he does it at dinner. I would finish my meal fast even though I would want to savor the food, just to get out of that table. It is the biggest reason why my sisters and I are quiet when eating with friends or coworkers. We don't talk unless spoken to. Personallly, I don't like conversations during the meal - let me eat in peace, we could talk later.

There are a lot of things I don't like about him but I couldn't get myself to hate because I can see some of his traits in me. I am his daughter afterall.

[transcendingwaves]

I could not even get myself to write a proper sentence without swearing in my head. Everything I wanted to write are hurtful words and I don't want that. I couldn't get myself to write it in a way that wouldn't hurt, no swearing, and no blaming. It is all hatred in here. I also could not even pivot it to something positive. Clearly, my mind is a mess right now.

I just balled my eyes out from the romantic novel I finished reading, and I am not about to cry again because of family drama.

For some reason, the situation I am in right now, is similar to one of the characters' in the novel. The one where they were struggling financially. That was fiction, mine was real. Both are stories, though, I just hope that I get a happy ending too.

To be honest, I thought I could teach my parents a lesson. But life is already at it. Tugging at their sleeves, asking for their time, their health, their lives. We couldn't do anything but to provide. They're basically incapable now. But how can I possibly give if I don't have enough? Something has to be compromised, again.

Thinking of the past does not help in any way. It was one of those problems in my head I forced close and never re-opened, thinking it will be forgotten. Time passed by, and it seemed like it was a fruit rotting in the fridge.

[transcendingwaves]

When Life Finally Starts Making Sense to You

Lately, I've been feeling a peace I didn't know was possible.