idk, man

picked my username in 2014 & am too emotionally attached to change it lol • outlet for my angsty bs • tx 🥀

[storyhearts-journey]

Ann Carrington, inspired by traditional French bobbin lace

[theperksofbeinganonlychild-deac]

Door at Alnwick Garden, Northumberland.

[goldentangerines]

every now and then i have to think of the roman family from two thousand years ago that buried their little daughter in a boy’s athletic-themed sarcophagus and i weep a little because that’s the softest declaration of love i can possibly imagine

[goldentangerines]

i am once again emotional and sleep deprived so let me elaborate to make myself feel better.

octavia paulina was a six year old girl whose sarcophagus was found in her family’s tomb at via triumphalis in rome, dated roughly around the third century a.d. her parents mourned her mors immatura, her premature death, by having the wall behind her sarcophagus painted with the image of a giant meadow with children and a chariot pulled by doves accompanied by hermes leading an unconscious girl into afterlife. (to my knowledge, the doves and the fact that they were led by hermes was a symbol for hope.)

the sarcophagus itself shows athletic competitions between girls and boys alike, and in the most important one on the front, octavia paulina appears as the winner (a palm branch in her hand, which is meant to symbolize her strength and honor, her virtus). her opponent is sitting on the floor, upset. what really stands out is that octavia paulina’s parents ordered a common sarcophagus that was usually used to bury boys with athletic interests or futures but then proceeded to have it remodeled — smaller heads and genitalia cut off etc — to include girls in the relief.

i just get very soft when i think about parents ordering a sarcophagus for their little daughter who think it’s perfect for her and who remodel it to make it even more accurate for her. the thought of parents more than 1.700 years ago thinking their six year old daughter deserves a sarcophagus that fits her personality (rather than what was expected of her as a young girl of the time) despite none being available and then ordering for it to be altered makes me wanna scream because it’s such a human and caring thing to do. maybe octavia paulina even had a say in this because it took weeks to months to make a sarcophagus this detailed.

disclaimer: a lot of this messy little thing was transcribed from what my professor has told us in his sarcophagus class and this article; this is just a rambling post, it isn’t detailed or well put or structured properly, and not fit for scientific research.

[onehandedly]

In 2000 a Roman tomb from the first century DC was found in Grottaferrata, near Rome.  Inside there were two sarcofagi in white marble identifying their occupants. Both people had died in summer, albeit years apart from each other, and had been preserved (an unusual detail that suggests they might have been followers of the cult of Isis).  They were mother and son, other inscriptions tell us the tomb had been commissioned by the woman’s younger daughter (the half sister of the man) Antestia Balbina. 

The young man, Carvilio Gemello, was around 18 when he died, likely as a consequence of a bone fracture in his leg. The woman, Aebutia, was around forty forty-five when she died and was buried wearing this ring (now housed in the Palestrina Archeological museum)

Behind the quartz window we can still see the face of Carvilio Gemello engraved in a golden miniature that his mother commissioned. 

In a way, Aebutia and the parents of Octavia Paulina, succeeded in defying death with their acts of love.  After thousands of years we can still see the face of Carvilio Gemello like his mother last saw him, know that Octavia Paulina was an athletic little girl beloved by her family. Life was unkind to both so those who loved them tried to make sure memory wouldn’t be. 

[imeverywoman420]

tbh people dont talk about how disturbing the popularity of sibling/step sibling porn is nearly enough.

[whjwiwowpwlsskwjwbwbkwkwlwnw]

noooo you don‘t understand it‘s not creepy because they‘re not blood-related!!

[medusa-strikes-back]

I can’t remember which blog it was but I remember seeing an anon say they had a theory that the oversaturation of step-family porn was a deliberate choice by the porn industry to normalize and brainwash porn viewers into thinking incest wasn’t a big deal in order to create future porn actresses. I think their reasoning was that 80-90% of porn actresses reported being molested and SA’d as children and a majority of SA perpetrators are family members or adults close to the family of the victim. So the theoretical plan was to brainwash a generation of men into thinking incest wasn’t a big deal, which would embolden them to molest and assault young girls, thereby creating a generation of traumatized women to become fodder for porn and sex work.

[antiporn-activist]

[kosmogrl]

[nostalgicacademia]

The moon in Romantic paintings

[metamorphesque]

― James Joyce, Ulysses

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

"My darling, you are allowed to fail without being a failure. You are allowed to make mistakes without being one. More opportunities will present themselves. You will find hope again." - Unknown

[leastniceperson]

as soon as the internet decided depression and anxiety were the everyman mental illnesses and therefore not to be taken seriously we were all fucked tbh bc the fact that i have to feel embarrassed to admit i have debilitating anxiety because people will think im just an uwu dont call me out coward is ridiculous. its insane that i have to clarify that my depressive episodes are like life threatening and not whatever dipshit dumbed down idea of depression people seem to have like oh yeah i just wanna watch netflix and eat ice cream and not text people back. like bro i think im the devil

[leastniceperson]

like maybe depression and anxiety are household names now but they do still kill people. like. theres a reason they fucking kill people.

[exitwound]

“Death Blowing Bubbles” made out of plaster by Johann Georg Leinberger in the Holy Grave Chapel, Michaelsberg Abbey, Germany, 18th century. remained intact despite the building becoming a hospital in 1803.

[fairycosmos]

they dont want us to know this but the real cure to the agonies is to engage in shenanigans. tomfoolery even 

[dazeylo]

Caught on camera for the first time in history, this is the extremely-rare Chirodectes Maculatus—a species of spotted box jelly.

[loveletters2myself]

[catchymemes]

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

I wanna say Yogi had this figured out in the 60s

[gayestpiano]

[teaboot]

I think it's important to do a secret kindness every now and then, and never speak of it, so that strangers on the street can believe that the universe is gentle.

[incohorace]

(consumed with lust voice) omg what a fucking weirdo