On being Transgender

An outward look at the person who i was in lieu of the woman I am becoming.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

I have been silent for a while now, I have had to experience a few more things; I felt like a caterpillar coming into the chrysalis stage where he transforms from pupa to butterfly. I feel as though I have emerged or rather reemerged in my true state and form. For most of my life I have feared this "estrogen" dominated existence only to realize that I do more than survive because of my estrogenated state of being...I live and I live life on may own terms. I used to question why God has given me such a profound gift of music....it turns out that the music is for He and I and the level of work ethic required keeps me humble, keeps me striving, keeps me occupied.

I choose why life of celibacy because I am no longer to be that version of what somebody perceives me to be because that is easier than to just take the time to get to know me...I did and I find it to be such an exclusively monumentous event that well...no one else is invited!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I have been absent for a while because I have been going through a lot since my ordeal over the summer. I talk to God and He does talk to me. The issue was or rather is an age old question: how far is too far? I have an answer to that question which under the circumstances was solely meant for me but I can offer these words of wisdom: when you begin to ask yourself "am I going to far or have I gone to far" the answer to both questions is a resounding "yes".

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunich)

There are some moments in life, fragments that remain to torment us until we either get the courage or are forced by circumstances beyond our control to confront; fear of the unknown is very real...I found myself in a place of confinement, prison, to be honest and I was truly horrified! I lived in a cell by myself for 35 days and all I could think of was how horrible it had to have been back in the old days when two men would share this space and eventually one would have to be the wife, however, my real horror was for all of the people who having been born like myself found themselves either having to fight for their life or be violated just because there was nothing else to do.

If prison was supposed to be a place where a man could make peace with God and be penitent for the transgressions, then what was the purpose of putting another man in there with him if not for the base need of human/animal instinct?

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

Roe-V-Wade was overturned, and everybody is upset. A woman's right to do what she wishes with her body has become such a strong foul stench in the air, the words on paper and the actions in real life do not add up. As a young non-binary abortion would touch my life seven times, the pain of watching women select who's seed they will carry and who's seed they will not. I personally am glad that it got overturned, it was a lie that 2 women told to foster an agenda, one that gave license to further be licentious with a solution for the consequence readily available, and the argument of what if or just because it has happened to someone else, in other words I need reassuring against the possibility of anything growing inside my womb unless I want it there.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

This is what I call a true moment of irony: I am at the gas station buying cigarillos and beer, and a young girl, trying her best to look like a boy is standing there looking at me with absolute disdain on her face because I am feminine...now that is irony or rather a true case of the pot calling the kettle black!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I have come to the conclusion that society as a whole would be so much better off if we had better information to live by instead of the lies we know are wrong inside yet continue to heed.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunoch)

A question is asked: Is transgender a mental illness? I will not just say "no" because I know it not to be a mental illness, but because the psychological world has come to the same conclusion that those of us who are have known our entire lives, that not only is it not psychological, (just look at us with our combined physical appearances) and ask yourself what would your life be like if your body suggested one thing and your mind insisted on the other, and for a lot of us our body clearly shows that we are just different, not mentally ill. that being said I have to go on record and tell you that it is not a mental illness, for those of us born this way it is our way of life and you do not get to call us mentally ill because you cannot understand....hmmm....or maybe, just maybe you understand a little too much and that is making you very uncomfortable now that we have come out of hiding.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

So let me get this straight: A lot of you so called "straight folks' all have issues with the rapidly surfacing trans population, yet your relationships are filled with same sex indiscretion, straight men seeking gay or Trans people, women seeking women, gay or trans people all the while talking smack about us for being trans. Newsflash...you guys are the ones who are hiding in the closet and scared to come out!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

I was always concerned about how much I have change but I have suddenly begun to notice how much more the rest of you all have changed and to be honest, I am not sure if that is a good thing.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

I always say that I drag life kicking and screaming to where ever there is opportunity but the real truth is that often it seems as though life is dragging me kicking and screaming to places I do not want to be...being bipolar sucks and I will be glad when my doctor starts me on HRT...somebody better get me some endocrine or else!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans (Eunuch)

(Today is one of those days of which my bipolar disorder is sooooo bad that even my hair hurts!)

If you will notice I have added a word in parenthesis in the title section of this posting, you will see this on a regular basis and now that I am comfortable with the understanding gleaned from the illumination and revelation of the Holy Spirit concerning the truth in these matters I will be changing the phrase "On Being Trans" to "On Being Eunuch" Here is the why: To say that I am transgender is to suggest that I have changed sex and that is not true. I wanted to go on hormone replacement therapy to feminize more but God created me as feminine and as masculine as He wanted me to be. In my case as well as others like myself, the correct term is transcendence for we are neither male or female ..we are both. ( I do expect some argument here, especially from those who are standing in line waiting for the surgeries to cut it off and turn the rest of it inside out)! I expect argument from those who think this is an issue about sex so let me remind you all of what the Lord Jesus Christ had to say about it Matthew 19:11-12 for some of us, such as myself are born this way from our mother's womb and it is to you that I am speaking, to those of you who were made this way by other men and women, yours is a different conversation, to the third group who have chosen this lifestyle for religious piety I say good luck!

Society as a whole is comprised of the ideals, imagery and morals of the mindset of the wealthy who having strategically placed themselves in positions of power, who, having participated in as much debauchery as they could imagine, did and do set themselves to placing labels, positions in society upon us to classify and categorize and then did write laws and legislature to ensure our captivity under these guidelines (jails and prisons) then launched an immoral, exclusive, prejudiced and extremely biased religious campaign/institution upon us to wreak havoc upon our emotional and spiritual well being with outright lies interlaced with half truths so that we walk in perpetual ignorance, most not knowing truth because it is so cleverly hid!den in plain sight!

My life is a celibate life because I have known only rejection from women and mostly violence and verbal abuse from men and I see no reason to subject myself to anything further from either of the two seeing as how far beneath me they actually are and then there is this, the average woman cares nothing for the act of being a woman except for when it suits her and that is because she has been taught that what lies between her legs is all she needs to get what she wants, unfortunately, most of the horrific situations women incur at some point in their life is self induced...mostly karma, and the average male knows nothing of being a man anymore because such things are not taught and cannot be taught anymore because it is impossible for a woman to teach a man to be a man since she herself is not and her concept of such continues to fall as short as a north korean missile, and this thing about respect..that in itself is a ridiculous concept!

I had to identify my position in this tangled massive mess to separate truth from fiction and I challenge you to separate truth from fiction and here it is: if you were born into this world a feminine boy or a masculine girl, it is correct, you were chosen and born a Eunuch, if at some point in your early life some man or woman put their hands on you and you do know what I am talking about then you were made by someone else well after you were born and if you are living this life for the sake of religious piety that is between you and God!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I woke up thinking about my name this morning, I was contemplating a name change, from Jo-Nathan to Joanne...not going to happen. My mother named me appropriately and the way she spelled it made it easy to understand that I was to be no ordinary person. My name is feminine not masculine because that "-" between the O and the N cancels out all masculine form, instead of Joe which is common you get Jo which is totally uncommon for a boy but not for a girl. Jo means sweetheart, Nathan has two meanings that I am currently aware of, the first meaning is "sent from God" the second meaning is "light from God", both bearing witness to the fact that I am a messenger and when I speak it is always a language of love from the heart of God. That being said hello world in our own unique way we all are, to a certain degree, transgender. It is the obvious occurrence, the natural occurrence, much to worldwide dismay, it is the inevitable for God did not create Adam from the ground and Eve from the ground, he created Adam from the ground, but he created Eve from one of Adams ribs. it is only natural that the occurrence of male and female pass through the ambiguity of being able to be both at the same time as well as one or the other.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I love my life. I love my willingness to be free in such a small minded world; it is nobody's fault...everybody is passing judgment using bad information. That is ok, I love my beautiful self.

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I am one who is prone to contemplating the deeper things of God and especially as it pertains to the creation of us...mankind. So the story goes that man was created first, then God put him to sleep, removed a rib from him and created woman, he then awakened the man and presented her to him. After the disobedience in the garden they were banished from there and further instructed them to populate the earth.

People say a lot of nasty things for lack of understanding so I am going to break a very simple thing down for you all; it is in fact a very natural occurrence for some men to be born feminine and some women to be born masculine because we are all sharing the same gene, God is a God of variety, life is nothing but variety and diversity, human beings are variety and diversity. God did not create Adam from the ground and then create Eve from the ground, he created Adam from the ground but he created eve from a piece of Adams body.

Those of us who are born in this manner have a very clear tell tale signal that we are different...we are bipolar. we are not freaks, nor are we abominations. We are people just like the rest of you born out of the same ancestral gene pool as every body else, we are not products of Satan, nor are we possessed by demons... we are just another expression of the awesomeness of God!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I sat outside yesterday evening strumming a guitar while my little dog ran around and played in the sunshine, my Mexican neighbor has taken to saying to me "no good" every time he sees me. I got angry for a moment but then I realized that his comment was not about me, it was how he felt about me!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I have come to the conclusion that the definition of transgender, as it is given, is wrong for to be trans is to not switch from one gender to another but to rise above them both!

[transgurl6908]

On Being Trans

I encountered a post on twitter that just needs an immediate response: That which was created is only capable of replication. In other words, satan is incapable of creating. In other words, no, I am not the work of a fallen (cast down, kicked out of heaven angel, I am trans, I am fearfully and wonderfully made in the image and the likeness of God the Father, Creator of Heaven and all and all things that do exist!