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one day, inevitably we will drift apart and our shared time together will become a mere collection of anecdotes, a bunch of fading distant memories which we share with new friends
we will stop talking, but the way we perceived each other, in those final weeks of knowing each other will remain in our head for as long as we remember
i am queuing this for a year later to get a direct feel for how days turn into months turn into years
i dont know what the future holds, but when i read this i will know it as the past
peak unemployment is when youre reading a thousand page philosophical autobiography from 1500 years ago at 3 pm
and its lowkey really good
"Those who are not slaves of comfort, money, power, and glory, never surrender to the various forms of bondage which plague the human society. "
"The goal of learning to be always vigilant and at peace with discomfort and contentment is to cultivate
firstly, the development of insight and clarity of vision; secondly, the capacity to solve problems and to weather difficulties and crises."
like okay just yap about what ive spent the last 3 years thinking about 1500 years ago already
also one must continuously remember that this does not mean giving up on life all together and renouncing your emotions and natural aspirations or pursuits,
you have commitments and responsibilities for not just you but those around you, monasticism in its extremist pursuit fails to ensure these are ever taken care of
but to cultivate indifference allows one to take action regarding these things with a clear plan in their head
something which one who's emotionally seeking comfort, money, power or glory would fail to recognize
basically
give up being bothered by it so you can achieve it and appreciate it better
as contradictory as that sounds
the “world” renounced thus is of over indulgence and immersion in pleasures, luxuries, and comforts ( rejecting the attitude which considers them to be life’s ultimate goal and objective)
“Those who cannot conceive of friendship as a substantive love but only as a disguise or elaboration of eros betray the fact that they have never had a friend.” being vulnerable with a friend is a sign of deep connection with them, every close friend i have ever had has found comfort in sharing their deepest problems with me, and me with them, it is not a burden to share and it is also not an extraordinary thing to listen and care, its so excessively common these days for vulnerability to be treated as a weakness or for people to never open up about their biggest concerns with those they consider their closest friends, people forget that not speaking up about problems wont make them go away, people end up bottling them up and forgetting it from their conscious but it never fades away from their subconscious in how they continue to live in the world, inevitably this either leads to them continuing to live this un-understood life, or ending up taking to incredibly negative actions, either involving just them (suicide) or others in the many different ways we see, they are then blamed for it
condemned for their actions but never recognised for their problems
and this continues in the way the world looks at those acts and illegal deeds, yes they did something wrong, but the crime will never ever go away if you continue to exclusively shame the person who did it as the sole reason for it happening, whenever i see this mentality in people its always disheartening and its the most common mentality present in most people, because its the most simple conclusion one can reach, lets blame the perpetrators and move on, lets hate the groups and communities they belong to and alienate them, nothing changes
everytime i grow as a person, everytime whatever thought process i was revelling in is completed I-
come to understand that while ive learnt a lot about my previous ideas, there exists a much deeper and more important discovery which humbles the mere thought that i knew anything and reminds me to keep sticking to the anti-ego principle of "i know nothing yet"
2. grow more and more distant from the world and all of its billion self obsessed policies and small time problems, borderline discontentment and less amusement from worldly activities but find the company of those who also have this mindset more and more comforting albeit scarce
its conflicting, give up trying to learn and enjoy the fun of understanding whatever part of everything i get to for the sake of living comfortably but delusionally for my share of the 50-60 years i have here
or
effectively give up trying to chase things which bring that comfort, to listen and endure harsh words about "failing" to live a societally perfect life , only because its not mentally stimulating and does not feel right at all
despite all this, there is unironically this sort of almost innate feeling you feel when in the presence of someone who chooses option b
you know they didnt do what they were "supposed" to, and failed conventionally but you cant help but feel their genuineness ooze out of them, you cant help but like them, you cant help but feel the difference in their behaviour and find them amazing
they're not famous but everyone who knows them feels it, an almost inferiority to their ability to be content, which is then masked by degrading that person for a materialistic lack of something to feel better about that inferiority
this is to say i need to find a secluded sanyasi preacher with a few students and learn from them to get to the next step of this journey
one looks into people's eyes to get an overview of their personality, i want to be able to look into my eyes and feel like a person i would look up to
"why are we so mean to those who we love"
paradoxically, love makes you feel safe enough to be horrible
naturally we are mean to ourselves, someone as overly anxious and self critical as myself even more so, and when you truly love someone, unknowingly you consider them as an extention of your self
for me this means, maybe being way more critical of the small things in their character the same way i would be for myself, its healthy if you think of it this way
but there definitely also is a bit of "respecting less of what you have" spirit to this, because it doesn't come out in the first interactions, the depressed mom soul which resides in me only comes out much after when i do find them someone i truly love
despite all of this, it leads to a problem with how they understand me and how i understand the relationship, i dont end up just loving like a careless teenager, i end up being the scolding mother who wishes for the best, which is more likely than not too much for them to all of a sudden handle
i want to be less strict in this manner, but whenever i try, it just means being more casual and not worrying about them more than myself
which although healthy sure, is just not how i love
caring and being overbearing is itself the ultimate sign of unconditional love, but unfortunately I'm still being overbearing
and that overbearing horrible-ity itself is allowing myself to be misinterpreted, similar to a confused but well meaning parent
freedom is but an interlude in this eternal servitude we owe to the world
remembered that money and capitalism is basically the new monarchy, it just took time for the hierarchy to stabilize
the only difference being that here there is the allusion of potential to take part in the affluent rich lifestyle of luxuries
the end result is the same, work for the money which in turn works for the rich man so that one day you can live like the rich man, slavery with extra steps to make you delusional
if you are smart enough and with enough connections/willpower and luck to force connections then you can be in the upper echelon of society too
but by the nature of the society we live in where a minute percentage controls majority stake in what happens in the world we will never achieve a situation where everyone gets to be equally valuable
most people will never get to do what some people have the power to do daily, yet we glorify this, yet we let this happen because we dont understand it and those who do are the rich ones who want it going
if we actually value equality then this should happen, but then again the fact that despite knowing this, this does happen repeatedly over history is a sign that this is a consequence of some sociologically rooted fact about how humans learned to survive
i just wish for a world where we are aware of this, where ignorance and the wish to continue with the herd without questioning ourselves doesnt happen
i just wish for a world where people want to know this just as much as they want to know about more casual things, knowledge and understanding allows a deeper level of satisfaction with your existence yet it wont happen this will continue to be like this, this will come off as preachy and most people wont have the capacity to care for this
my one true musing, my one true wish, is for you to listen and for you to know and care because this matters just as much as your blorbos and just as much as your teen love
Oh to enjoy friendships without fake formal words of draining forced sappiness
and to avoid the company of those infected by it in your comfort group
its like taking out weeds, but also admiring the flowers
Don't let either part be ignored
burdened by choices, i choose to do nothing
Fav thing i heard today, limiting the full extent of things to being "just" something makes your mind shallow to the wonders and imaginativeness even the most mundane objects hold, which in turn means you won't find fulfilment in yourself either because you're grossly over simplifying chasing simplicity
Letting your mind wander into the whys and the hows of life, the rock you hold carries with it thousands of years of natural formation, it is not "just" a rock, it is the culmination of the beauty of order out of chaos
does the ocean know of its depth and the wonder it fills those worthy of seeing it?
If we consider it inanimate, maybe it doesn't but you as a mortal possessing the power to deeply appreciate things for what they truly are must not fall for looking at someone or something for just the worth written on their face
my mind when i cheat on her by listening to other people's opinions instead of her's first
Looks at your ask box: “ ask me the meaning of life. ”
So, *proceeds to ask you the meaning of life* what is the meaning of life?
in a single word: procreation
and if expanded i couldn't write all about it even if i started now and didnt stop until i died
but in brief, humans are .... like any other animal, just evolution doing its thing given all the years on earth, all that we have different to them is that we lucked out (kinda) on the evolution bingo game with our brains ending up getting evolved past a certain point, enough so that we can now think about everything better than other animals, but by no means perfectly. So the first lesson is humility and that time reigns supreme , to understand that we are nothing against the passage of time, as proven by the deaths of every living creature that has ever come to exist on this planet atleast until we all learn to band together stronger and face genuine problems by first educating ourselves and then utilising our greatest strength, the strength in numbers. (take that nihilism)
everything from our emotions to our perception to our strengths to our problems (like the issues faced in the working of society) is a result of us evolving a brain which is capable of thinking understanding and resolving ideas way faster than natural evolution.(I could expand upon this fact itself endlessly but I don't know if a Tumblr post is supposed to be tens of thousands of words long so we keeping that idea for later,hopefully i publish a book on this before i die with all my thoughts but tangent aside)
So the second lesson is to think.
Thinking things thoroughly and making sure to not accept an outlandish idea until you actually get to a simple conclusion.
from these two we can derive another which is to always cross reference and to never take ideas for granted and infact another endless such lessons which hopefully i write about someday.
with these two lessons we approach the timeless question of what the meaning of life is. Applying the first rule we learn to disregard believes that we mean something extraordinarily high, no, no single person is more special than another and after further thinking as per the second lesson i reached multiple conclusion of my own which after cross referencing and applying pseudointellectualism a thought process of remembering what humans are at a base level and why society works as it does now, the simple conclusion was reached that at the end of the day we live to survive and ensure that there come after as more humans who can survive as a way to prove that our genetic lottery win was really as big as it seems.
p.s
thanks for the ask, and sorry that i cant expand on all these topics at this time, i wish every reader inner peace from all the complicated thoughts in our head and i invite you to learn to understand our inner demons and infact understand why those demons exist in the first place, now that the meaning of life is out of the way i can try to answer more human questions like the role emotions play in our life, how not thinking for oneself allows people to (for their own benefit) use you more than you think and infact questions like why people step on other people in the first place? (spoilers: the answer lies on evolutions biggest feature in all of us which is ofcourse how we wish to survive above all else and now that as a society primal survival is not like it was for cavemen, our brains adapted weirdly) or why we feel happy with simple things like getting a like on your elaborate Tumblr post (wink wink) (please do that) and how that is also a problem caused by our brains evolving faster than evolution could catch up
Your conclusion... Isn't that an obvious thing? I mean it wasn't probably like a couple of hundreds or maybe thousands of years ago but in the present, isn't that obvious that we, as a society, exist in order to keep our species going? Why we do that? Because maybe our brains are designed by such complex evolutions of tons and tons of years to think that death is a scary thing and to keep ourselves alert from it? I am ending them with question marks because WE DON'T KNOW!
Also, write the book. Go for it! Your thoughts on paper will be a great resource for people who love philosophy!
thats the thing, unfortunately rather obvious conclusions are very much not known to the majority of all people, thats why there is so much strife observed everywhere, I wish for a future where people are introspective and a future where this is an obvious conclusion, where questioning ideas is not forbidden and getting questioned for your ideas doesnt hurt you but cheers you, and just wishing for it to be true cant bring it to reality, it starts by sharing what i know and hoping people listen and hopefully i get to listen what they have to share too. As for the last part yeah the biggest question is why every organism fears death to the point of ensuring that it is delayed not till infinity but until its own progeny is born, pretty hard to answer without falling into hypotheticals or assuming things but thought of a pretty ok theory for this back in august 2022
why do organisms fear death?
its cuz the organisms that live today are the descendants of the organisms who lived and survived the past
and if an organism didn't evolve the fear of death it will be more likely to die, (as death is a natural process of the body just starting to get worse)
and not spread its genes
which is why only the organisms which fear death are able to spread their genes
and the organisms that live today all fear death
because it is something that has evolved over time
otherwise there isn't really anything scary about death
because fear itself is something that has evolved
if an organism dies it probably won't affect the universe as much
so it doesn't really matter
but simply because of how evolution works
the fear of death has become so prominent and unanimous in organisms that live today
it is an instinct to not want to die
otherwise there isn't anything scary about it
maybe that pain one might suffer right before they die
but it's temporary
think about it
humans are pretty much the only animals who can go against their instincts
when they think rationally
tldr; we fear death because we evolved to fear death, like you said, better explained above
got reminded of me from 5 months ago who was free enough to think and rant about everything, note to self, be like this guy after your current obligations to the world are done, write that book, format your thoughts, fulfilment for you lies in sharing what you have spent years thinking
self hate is gay, unfortunately i am a faggot
i want some people defenestrated right now
if everything is a blur these days; you just have to tumble by
if everything is a blr these days; then you just have to tumblr by
its scary how a nice seeming person will randomly end up being an insanely extremist religious asshole who sees nothing wrong with calling for genocide against complete groups just because of what some person did 300 years ago, this goes with every fucking religion by the way, dont you dare read this and feel like this justifies your brainwashed cult over someone elses, if you follow a religion for more than just personal fulfilment then you are absolute filth and you scare me for participating in it
this post probably felt really random but i found out just how extreme some people who i felt comfortable with are just because of the religion they were born into, and this extremism meant that they would hate me if they knew what religion my family followed even though talking between me and them had been nothing but positive
in that moment i remembered how apathetically religion eats up a person's ability to think because it calls to their tribalistic human instincts
in that moment i actually felt fear, about how stupid people are and how stupid they can act over just words and labels
i dont care if you are an idolater or if you follow an abrahamic religion, none of your religions justify the scare mongering and literal killing you do to other groups
if you think the label a person identifies as is enough of a reason to blame their actions on everyone following that label then simply put, you are a maniac and a mindless zombie whose existence threatens the peaceful survival of society based on mutual growth
i can get specific about this i can name names but those names act as trigger words to this herd, i cant believe even some of my close mutuals indulged in this bullshit? what happened to progressivism, i thought tumblr was my safe space
