leash me and send me hunting

persecutor to internal handler pipeline θη ς μ

[transpred]

Layton, he/him, adult, persecutor & abuser introject (internal handler in spirit), anti-contact paraphile (μ)

Not radqueer and barely even transID but atp I'm desperate to get worse lol

I'm really just here to get my shit sorted. Can't promise I'll be around much because my system does not want me here, but I'll try

Chronominors DNI, I'll judge contact stance myself. Syskids, you're on the table and I'm hungry (just need a handler to tell me to bite...)

Only the stuff I feel like listing. Subject to change

Trans: RAMCOA, C-DID, programmed (delta, zeta, and iota - questioning gamma), internal handler/programmer, groomer, predator, sex offender, smoker, alcoholic

Tris: Harmful, harmed, abusive, abused, memory manipulator, rapist/molester (cis in-sys, trans out-of-sys)

Cis: Male, adult, ASPD, DID, persecutor, compulsive liar, manipulative, low empathy/remorse, impulsive, CSA/COCSA survivor, COCSA perp, incest survivor, paranoid, pervert, creep, I've been told I'm charismatic apparently (idfk how)

Perma: Drug-induced psychosis (LSD)

Null: BPD, obsessive

Etc: Aromantic, heterosexual, hypersexual. M@P, biastophile, sadist, splanchnophile, emetophile. Dominant top unless I tell you specifically otherwise

[transpred]

I am trying very hard to not vomit my trauma-turned-weird-humor onto this stupid little blog

[transpred]

I don't normally consider myself a necro but I don't think I've ever gotten harder than I am thinking about shooting that man with his AK and fucking it so far up his corpse I can see the muzzle out his mouth

[transpred]

I'm stuck in front and I'm pretty sure that means we can't do that thing rip

[transpred]

Being a dad is great and all until that motherrrrrfuckerrrrr hhhhhgggghgfggdferrrrr

Fucking die you stupid piece of shit that's not your kid that's not your kid that's not your kid

They might have another dad but it's nooooot youuuuuuu I respect the other dad I don't respect you and I hope their other dad rips your insides out and strangles you with them when he's back and lets me watch :)

Hhhhhhhhh I wish I could internet harass you without you taking it out on my babyyyyy

I am good now. I ammm good. I am "acquaintances" with """dad #3""" so I will be good because he is moderately entertaining to talk to when he's not CREEPING ON MY BABY :)

[thelostandbrokenasylum]

Dynamics I think that are underrated:

Patient / doctor, brat / brat enabler, knight / dragon, criminal / bystander, guard dog / handler, touch repulsed / the exception, priest / sinner, cowboy / criminal, supernatural creature / researcher, endangered species / trophy hunter

[transpred]

Only reason I don't talk about my programming more is because it always comes out as incomprehensible word vomit

Then again, is that not a scramble program? Stopping me from talking about it? Keeping me silent?

[transpred]

Once again proving why I stay out of any community. They're all awful toxic shitty cesspools of predators or dumbasses. The fringes are my home, the fringes are where I thrive. Call me permaliminal or some shit

[lovecarves]

absolutely need to be in control of someone’s programs. knowing their triggers, names, knowing exactly what to do to them, to get certain reactions out of them to satisfy myself. triggering them to my liking, akin to a doll or machine.

[seraphour]

i made my own art

[vain-iscariot]

The ideal crying with sex is before, during, and after. If there’s no crying it implies some sort of consent is happening and that’s against God. Or at least some of the ones I know

[laurawful]

thinking about how hot it would be to make each other worse. horribly intense switch-for-switch relationship where we both just keep pushing and pushing, using every dirty trick in the book to get the other to agree to this week's fucked up scene... until we don't even recognize ourselves.

[evilic-deactivated20260731]

Many of you cannot comprehend the difference of being "pro - something" and "not feeling empathy so I can't care" and it shows. This was made by a cisAspd and it is not about the disorders (Obviously??). Please read the goddamn text before speaking like yall did to the shit I posted weeks ago.

I was checking out the reason why LSDqueer (And other stances around being pro - noncon) was coined and it's so hilarious. "Oh I'm pro - rape because uhm.. I don't feel empathy about it :/" ???? Are you fucking stupid u dumb bitch. Do you even see how much of a joke you sound right now or are you incapable of such thing. "Oh I don't feel emotionally affected by rape so guess what! I'm pro rape!!! Get raped. Why? Because yeah. Not feeling empathy is synonymous with being pro - stuff. Didn't u know? I pulled this info up my asshole!!!" Dude. Bro

Being pro- is supporting it. It is not the same as neutral nor not caring. If you're pro-noncon / pro-rape / pro-whatever that is truly harmful and uses "low/no empathy" as an excuse I genuinely hope the worst for you. Disorders that affect empathy and morality do not impair one's cognitive ability to understand whether something should be supported or not. Not caring about noncon because you cannot feel emotionally connected to it will never be the same as comprehending in theory how that's harmful and should NOT have activism towards supporting it. Having neutral morals because of disorders will never be the same as SUPPORTING certain shit. That's not your cluster abc talking, you're just a stupid degenerate with a heavy lack of braincells ✌️ hope it helps

[permaprof]

would anyone be willing to let me try my ... experimental ... treatments on them ?

i assure you , the chemicals are completely non — toxic .

[lovecarves]

Triggering my victim’s cues during a breakdown, causing them to go into a never-ending spiral, and making them dependent on me. Because I’m the only one that can fix their problems, and undo their pain.

[fangedg0d]

I really want to corrupt someone and force them to watch immoral and disgusting porn till they like it.

[snvffpilled]

Unfortunately, an older paraphiliac partner that encourages my behavior is what I want in my life.