i may be your dog or your bullet but i'm always astray @trashcxndy - Tumblr Blog

i fall in love with everything that wants nothing to do with me

ari (she/any) -> minor. bi(lingual) poly(jammerouus) genderfluid (genrefluid). desi. neuron die virgin. tag spammer. sporadic shitposter. im normal about cats and i play the piano and i genuinely like stationary and english class. PROUD LEATHER JACKET + BRACELET WEARER.

#1 parxsos rpf enjoyer. reluctant dazai kinnie. sskk my beloved akutagawa is my son. light yagami was kinda based tbh. #1 evil fathers of four satosugu enjoyer. #1 catboy shin enjoyer #1 sakadays found family enjoyer. #1 fake stay. gojo was lowk a bottom.

interaction and stuff -> asks always open, PLEASE tag me in things! dms are always open to minors and my mutuals (adults included), text me or send me asks about literally ANYTHING. i tag and send asks to my moots a lot, so if you don't want that please don't hesitate to tell me. i absolutely don't mind moots venting to me, just ask first please! if i post or rb suggestive stuff/triggering vents without warning tags, lmk so i can fix it bc i'm a suicidal freak sometimes.

basic dni crit. i don't care what you ship as long as you don't harass people or support (or do) incest/rape/pedophilia irl.

i know that there's no dealing with the way i feel

hello to the fandom -> jujutsu kaisen. bungo stray dogs. simon snow. link click. assassination classroom. sakamoto days. bnha. death note. good omens. supernatural. hikaru ga shinda natsu. x-men. banana fish. kaguya-sama: love is war. marvel. star wars. sasaki to miyano. yuri on ice. young royals. rwrb. spy x family. buddy daddies. saiki k. sonic. artemis fowl. percy jackson. mob psycho 100. ron kamonohashi. i had more fandoms before anime i swear. any queer ya books/shows you can think of.

my band & i -> mcr. waterparks. 5sos. will stetson. ado. a lot of other jpop/vocaloid. ethel cain. panic! at the disco. stray kids. all time low. one ok rock. michael clifford. luke hemmings. negative 25. set it off. green day (9/3/25) onedirection. msi (i don't support obv). louis tomlinson (9/3/25). anything pop punk. some tøp and fall out boy, obviously; katseye, and cortis. the alien stage soundtrack, specifically akugetsu/till!! mother mother & yungblud (2026).

and i'm so out of touch with everyone and everything's a blur to me

my specialz -> @thisusedtobeafanpage @c4erm @iseethingsthathatscareme @because-i-do-it-all-the-time @decemberr-morning @drownin-myeyes @jqydiqm0nds @harpdoodles + my other wonderful moots! lmk if you wanna be added or removed, please :3

@save-me-from-fandoms my annoying ass irl grandmother who i indoctrinated to tumblr i hate you. mwah

pink sparkle fuckery -> @nanochittle my nank potat. @abyssal-system-works big brother @traveling-ink slightly less big but equally beloved brother. @i-need-a-cig lilc. if you wanna be added to our discord server just lmk!

#she says the craziest things -> random op tag

#star talks fandoms -> fandom op tag

#best friends in this place -> moot tag

hope you hate this song -> royal by waterparks

i'm two-faced from the double exposure

vetchtibbles

despite everything, it’s still you (derogatory)

vetchtibbles

wait hey man wait whoah hey

#……#Republicans #<- SPIT EM FACTS

panerasexual-deactivated2017100

arms hurt? saw them off

ohshititsgreg-deactivated201312

How do I saw off the second arm

hashtagloveloses

Tumblr asks the real questions

goddamnfuckinmushrooms

Everyone on this website is a phycopath I swear

feralrobotics

*psychopath. Do your research.

theweepingangelwhofellforburger

*Sociopath. Do yours.

221bitssmallerontheoutside

Alright Sherlock, don’t make me get Mummy.

shaitana-deactivated20130917

Are YOU my mummy?

songofthestarwhale

No, your mummy is dead because she burned up on the ceiling

i-cant-think-of-anything-to-say

hunting down Tumblr posts i see on Pinterest part 733

#i read the spn rb in harry potter's accent this really is the tumblr post of all time #< Ari you mean british #right?#<- eyup but hp is one of the big tumblr fandoms so i said hp instead

trashcxndy

"you're reading into the subtext too much!!1!" my friend this is. this is not subtext. this crossed the line between subtext and glittery rainbow colored graffiti on every single page of the entire subject matter several not-declarations of love and longing homosexual stares ago i'm just not steadfastly ignoring it like you are

#greatest hits #pride month #lgbtq #yaoi #yuri #happy subtext month to satosugu lawlight destiel stucky and the rest of the og tags

panerasexual-deactivated2017100

arms hurt? saw them off

ohshititsgreg-deactivated201312

How do I saw off the second arm

hashtagloveloses

Tumblr asks the real questions

goddamnfuckinmushrooms

Everyone on this website is a phycopath I swear

feralrobotics

*psychopath. Do your research.

theweepingangelwhofellforburger

*Sociopath. Do yours.

221bitssmallerontheoutside

Alright Sherlock, don’t make me get Mummy.

shaitana-deactivated20130917

Are YOU my mummy?

songofthestarwhale

No, your mummy is dead because she burned up on the ceiling

i-cant-think-of-anything-to-say

hunting down Tumblr posts i see on Pinterest part 733

#i read the spn rb in harry potter's accent this really is the tumblr post of all time

yournonbinarypal

it be like that sometimes

#makima shouldn't have messed with the strongest sorcerer alive (no exceptions)#csm #chainsaw man #oikawa tooru #haikyuu #bakudeku #bkdk #dkbk #mha #bnha #anime #fic is linked it's peak

jessaerys

hate when im reading and theres a word i dont know so i search it in the dictionary and its like: beuperer. noun. a person who beupers. i'll fucking kill you

#and op didn't even tell us what a beuper is either 😒

you're so handsome when i'm all over your mouth

#i tried to be good am i no good am i no good am i no good #with my memory restricted to a polaroid in evidence #i just wanted to be yours can i be yours can i be yours can i be yours #if i'm turning in your stomach and i'm making you feel sick #am i making you feel sick?#anyways if anyone wants to consensually kidnap me after i run away from home and cannibalise me in their basement (romantically and fatally

beeneedssleep

Will, Violet is missing. Stop being horny.

bvrtysbvtches

#THREE ENTIRE PEOPLE WHO HE FUCKED THEN (GOT) FUCKED OVER (BY)#BRUH

quelmdn

Dark king and his lieutenant

...Bonus angst justicus 🥺:

jos--10

sarcean is such a dumbfuck with good taste coz wdym we wouldn't be in this mess if he hadn't fucked three blondes

less3nthedamage

I have thought so since I finished reading Dark Heir but my recent reread has really solidified my theory about the collar forcing James to act not according to Will's desires, but his own.

I think it would have satisfied Sarcean more not to have complete control over James by force but rather to envision a collar that would force James to act on his own desires rather than his moral codes or what his duties to the Sun King demanded.

We see very little of Sarcean himself in this book but my basis for claiming that this would have pleased him more is very simple: because Sarcean is Will and we know Will.

Yes, he is possessive and jealous, but choice is very important to Will. The difference between someone following him willingly or not is massive to him. He agonizes over the possibility of James only wanting him because of their proximity to the collar, we see the elation when he thinks James has accepted him for who he is, he even boasts in his head about how he managed to have his friends follow him willingly.

So, returning to the past. Because Anharion desired and loved Sarcean, the collar compelled him to fight by his side, even though he found that morally reprehensible and it eroded his reputation.

And I think when we get flashbacks to the past we will see this dynamic of love/hate play out between the two of them. Anharion loves Sarcean, which makes the collar compel him to do his bidding, and he hates Sarcean because he has forced him to act against his values and better judgement.

Sarcean is satisfied, or as satisfied as he can be in this past life, because every move Anharion makes to protect him is born of a genuine (if buried and repressed) desire to do so. In this way, without having true allies or equals, and without truly having Anharion (as his loyalty and his support are not given freely), at least he has this tangible evidence that what Anharion and he felt for each other was real, and still is.

While seeing Anharion compelled by the collar would please him, it would also cause him to be resentful and sadistic towards Anharion. After all, what Sarcean wants (as Will wants) is something freely given. We even hear James say it in the end of Dark Heir, when he tells Will/Sarcean what he wants to hear, saying "I will rule with you, by your side", not "I will be ruled by you", or anything else. Sarcean wants to "possess" Anharion as much as he wants Anharion to desire and concede this possession.

So, let's get into James' POV at the end of Dark Heir and how this fits into my theory. James has no love/hate relationship to Will in the current time. Will has been fiercely loyal and protective of him. Smart, charming, assuring. A great leader. So when we get his perspective, it makes sense to me that it be pretty straightforward, devoid of the intense love/hate contrast that Anharion/Sarcean had in the past.

I feel like his point of view has made some believe the collar controls his opinion of Will/Sarcean completely, but I don't believe that is the case. James likes Will so much he asked him to collar him! I think the collar, in present day, is compelling James to act on Will's behalf, yes, but beyond James' actions, I think his inner dialogue is actually his own. And I can't wait to see how it contrasts with how Anharion felt.