Treraer's Blog

Hi! Trying to be a writer Current stories are down below and finished stories can be found in the archive:

[treraer]

New story: Like an Embers Glow

[pink-pone]

When your brain finally has some good creative ideas but it’s 3 AM and you need to sleep

[nig-le-king]

So relatable what the f xD

[mairio]

I would like to make a film to tell children “it’s good to be alive”.

Hayao Miyazaki (via gongsangka)

[treraer]

Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.

Harvey Fierstein

[treraer]

"The most important thing is, that you can love somebody, it doesn't matter who they are. Whether it's a boy or a girl, love is love. And that's something what is enriching. And try to get people think beyond their own immediate sphere. So that we can all be neighbors in the world, and not enemies." - Percy, 78

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOXKf_nPWpk

[treraer]

Those stupid questions are really fucking important. People must not stop asking those stupid questions. If they stop asking the dumb questions, they'll start making up their own answers. That's dangerous. You just have to stop looking for racism in stupid questions, even if they are really annoying and feels racist, it's super important that you answer that. You have to answer them.

Skam Season 4 Episode 7, Isak to Sana

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What’s to happen, happened before

Part 4 – Bitches and Assholes

“Stephan, where are you? Come on baby. I saw you walking backstage.” Now I was angry. Stephan looked at me terrified and with one strong push he was off me. Heather, of course, ran over to us and immediately tended to Stephan’s needs. I got up and walked out of the auditorium for good. Whether I was overreacting or not, this was just way too much. Now he was dead to me. At least until I am of my agro-trip. When Tom and Nemi saw me sitting down next to them, right before math, they already knew something happened. They wanted to know of course, but right now I had a different fight to fight. One of the “Deadly Three”, as they were named by Tom. They were teachers and those, that everybody hates because they are just plain mean or not caring at all about us. The maths teacher Mrs. Higgs was an exception for me. She was a nice person, but was very strict when it came to correcting test and that stuff.  And while I had troubles in math alone, Tom had to deal with her too. She really didn’t like him because she thought he was lazy. He was, but that is still not a reason to be mean to him. Only I can be mean without reason. Tom was always the talkative one, but in math it was like he was spelled by an evil witch that prevented him from forming cohesive sentences. Poor guy.

After a long and stressing lesson, we were released into freedom. We all had to go into the auditorium again because now that Tom and Nemi were the ones taking care of the musical everyone had to know whom to ask if there were questions. The principle and the teacher responsible for events like this announced that Nemi and Tom were the creative minds behind the whole thing. They also had decided who would take the responsibility of casting and what do you know. Stephan and Heather were the chosen ones. While they were walking on stage I already was planning a murder. The next bullet point on the clipboard was to brainstorm and come up with the idea of the musical. Everyone was silent, firstly not having an idea and secondly knowing that if they would say something that Tom wouldn’t like, he would rip them apart. He then presented us with his idea namely: “How abut we all do a musical about the school. We are in our last year so we can make fun of the teachers or the school for example. Also, I would suggest we do not write our own songs, but rather look for fitting pop songs to save time and energy.” The others were happy with that idea. Me on the other hand knew what this was about. That bastard wanted to use my drama to write a good musical. Not with me sunshine. Just wait until I get him in private. I looked at him and after he noticed me, he just put on a smug smile and shrugged with his shoulders. That writer and drama addict in his head are going to get some. Then we had to go together and think who would like to do what so they had an idea what responsibilities would fall onto who.

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What’s to happen, happened before

Part 3 – Feeling and musicals

The next thing that happened was that we all ended up in the headmaster’s office. Tom fired up as he was explained everything rather angrily. And when I say everything, I mean everything. Needless to say, I was completely embarrassed. Also, I had to be in the same room as him. I hated that. Never in my live I wanted to be somewhere else that desperately.

After the Headmaster gave a stern word and him something cold to put on his face we were dismissed and Tom, Nemi and I were getting out of there as quickly as we could.

Later that day, the school announced our project that the classes had to organize for this year. We were to write a musical and then perform it in front of everybody that would by tickets. The moment they said that I saw Toms and Nemis eyes lit up beside me. If they actually would the room would be as bride as the sun. Tom with his love for music and story writing would take over that part, while Nemi would love to be the choreographer of the piece. I already smelled the gears turning in their heads. I wasn’t really looking forward to it. Yes, I want to be an actress in the play, lead role obviously, but that means being open and reachable for him. As soon as we were dismissed Nemi and Tom ran to the teachers to make sure they would be the bosses of everyone. Leaving me all alone. But then I saw Nate in the distance and rushed over to him for at least a little protection. I must have looked miserable and pathetic. I started talking to him and asked him: “Hey can you please help me getting around. I really do not want to be anywhere near Stephan.” “Come on Sarah. You should really talk to him. There are always two parts to a story. You don’t know his. Just because Tom is ok with shipping you around school doesn’t mean I am.” And then he left. Something must have crawled up his butt. I took the quickest route out of the auditorium which was getting on stage and running away through the backstage entrance. So, that was what I did. But per usual I didn’t calculate in the possibility of someone being backstage. Full force collision. Well sort of.

“Finally,…” he said catching our balance before we both fell to the floor. He had to fall on top of me. God must hate me. Maybe I should go more often to church. After I recovered from the pain of falling, I looked up and saw hi looking desperately at me. “Just let me explain it isn’t what you think it is.” I only wanted to get away. I could feel the tears already forming. “Look I didn’t want to kiss Heather, she just grabbed my face and kissed me. We only were there together because she had some troubles in her family and she wanted to talk about stuff. Please Sarah. Give me a chance to explain this.” I looked into his eyes and saw that he had some emotions there. If they were real or not I didn’t know. But he seemed as desperate as me. Though we both had different intensions.

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What’s to happen, happened before

Part 2 – Not so cheeky Nando’s

„Stop it you can’t do that and I don’t want you to do that. I just want to forget everything. Every moment and memory of him.” I told them and they both looked sympathetic at me and I grabbed the tissue box again feeling the tears already coming. Tom waked over to me and seated himself on my right and asked: “Alright, before you start crying again and I won’t be able to understand you, can you explain what exactly happened?” I nodded and started to explain what happened this morning.

“So, my mom and I went shopping for some clothes and we found a lot of things which I still have to get approved by you Tom, but when we walked into the Nando’s of the shopping mall and after we ordered we sat down. It was a little different there because it had those American booths where you would sit with a date or your family. Anyway, we sat down and started eating when I saw Stephan walking in with Heather. Laughing and having a good time. When they sat down in a booth they started eating and I told my mom what was going on and she was ready to walk over and kill him. I told her not to though, you know her. She is worse than me. We watched them closely and after an hour they stopped talking and while Stephan looked at his phone Heather suddenly grabbed his face and pulled him in for a kiss.”

I had to stop there because the tears where already flowing like the Niagara Falls. “And then we went home.” “If I was you I would have punched him.” Tom said readying his fist. “I just wanted to get out. “It’s a wonder your mother didn’t literally kill him.” Nemi said and I just nodded. My mom was way too surprised and wanted to get me out of there as bad as I wanted to get out. “So you really just want to forget him. I mean you are going to school with him and you are in the same class. There is drama inbound.” Tom explained, as if I didn’t know that already. “Well I take care of him during class when I am with Sarah and you are taking care of her when she is with you.” Nemi suggested and I looked at her still with tears in my eyes, saying: “That’s not going to work.” “It’s the best shot though.”

The next week, when I finally decided to go to school again, Nemi and Tom were already at my said. They both stayed at home too, well we all stayed over at Toms because his home is the biggest and the one with the most to do. I’ll just say pool, billiard and more. That boy’s family is way too rich. He and Nemi were my best friends though. They skipped school just to give me a spa week fun of fun. Once we entered school he was already waiting there. Tom said, that Nate told him, that Stephan wanted to talk to me for days trying to defuse everything. Nemi and Tom wouldn’t let that happen though. As soon as he saw me he walked over and wanted to talk to me. Tom immediately brushed him off and told him to leave me alone. He was very persistent and we all together must have looked like a fan stalking his star. “Come on Stephan just leave her alone.” Tom said and Stephan must have been so fed up by this whole situation that he threw back at him: “Fuck off, fag.” And Stephan used away with force not realising at first what he said. I was shocked just like everyone around us. Stephan wasn’t quiet when he said that. He looked at Tom and wanted to apologise, but as soon as he opened his mouth Tom punched him so hard in the face that he flew against the lockers behind him like a punching bag after a pro boxer hit it. Tom was right, there was drama inbound.

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What’s to happen, happened before

Part 1 – Love is like a two-sided sword

Sarah ran to her friend Nemi and cried her soul out in front of her. She never thought he would do something like this. They were together for only a few months. Once she reached Nemi’s house, she knocked on the door like a mad woman and shortly after Nemi opened the door, surprised to see her friend there.

Sarah’s POV

As soon as Nemi opened the door, I flung myself at her and cried on her shoulder: “He cheated on me with Heather.” Nemi was clearly surprised when she heard what I said, but as soon as she did she invited me in. We both went in her room and she set me immediately on her bed and gave me a box of tissues. “Tell me what happened Sarah?” Nemi asked me and through my tears and crying she still understood me. “That son of a bitch. Why would Stephan cheat on you with Heather? You seemed so happy the last time I saw you.” She said and in fairness Nemi was gone for two months to visit her grandparents who were admitted to a hospital, so she wouldn’t notice the fights I had with Stephan. They weren’t big just were we would go for dinner. Like the usual couple-bickering you would see everywhere. I didn’t think he would cheat on me because of something like that.

Suddenly the door opened to Nemi’s room and Tom barged in looking like he was about to kill anyone. “What is going on. What did he do?” He said coming closer to me and put a hand on my shoulder.

“How the hell did you get in? My parents aren’t here and I locked the door.” Nemi asked Tom and he just smiled at her saying: “A window was open.” They still weren’t the closest, I should add. She punched him in the arm and then explained to him, what I just told her.

Silence filled the room and I slowly calmed down. “How do we hurt him?” Nemi asked and Tom immediately threw in: “Blackmail. Get your laptop and your photoshop skills while I get the pictures.” “What pictures?” Nemi asked him and he replied: “Come on, two months and you forget that I sometimes hang around the locker room when I am waiting for Nate to finish changing. You wouldn’t believe the things I saw, photographed and picked up from other guise’s phones.” “You went through other guise’s phones?” I through in and he looked at me offended. “Please you know how easy it is for me to manipulate these jocks. They sent them to me because they wanted to know if they are attractive in this or that, mostly though when they were shopping. But sometimes I get a good look at some covered junk.” He put a strange emphasis on covered and I really didn’t want t know… “And before you and Stephan came together he sent me a few pics too.” 

That bastard. “Come on give. The computer is ready since you began talking, I could be finished by now.” Nemi said and that made me stop them: “Guys stop. I don’t want you guys to blackmail anyone.” Bot just looked at me and stammered a silent ‘but’. “I just want to forget that piece of shit and you guys could get into a lot of trouble for that like seriously.” They threw a glance at each other and then Tom said “Like someone is going to catch us.” And Nemi snickered in accordance.

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The Beasts Below

The beasts below who sound their voice

Their latest victory they rejoice

The monsters from above died all out

They stopped the dreaded and feared drought

 Dancing around in the deep, deep sea

They shiver thinking of the monsters who flee

To worlds far far away

Leaving families here astray

 In hope they never returned

For peace was always what they yearned

The beasts below only wish

The monsters never find other fish

by Treraer

[frankieholingsworth-deactivated]

All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.

[treraer]

When you are accustomed to privilege, equality feels like oppression

Unknown

[amargedom]

“People fear what they don’t understand.”

Skins, Effy stonem (via amargedom)

[treraer]

It is better to risk saving a guilty person than to condemn an innocent one.

Voltaire

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The Other Land

Chapter 2 Part 9 – Just keep running

I looked back at the giant rock-men. They were bigger than the last ones I saw and they did give me motivation to run. I saw that they were carrying big stones which they heated up until the point where they would nearly melt. Then they threw them at us. Shavua already changed back into his wolf form and helped everyone who was further behind. He gave Braid the order to protect me and bring me to the castle. The people and creatures around me looked at me desperately to help them and I tried, I tried thinking about destroying those rock-men, but it simply didn’t work. I kept running towards the castle which was a few miles away.

All of a sudden Braid pushed me hard to the floor and then threw himself next to me. A big rock flew past our heads and smashed into the ground shaking the earth around it. Braid helped me up again and we started running again. In the distance I could see that dark clothed person again. It looked more like the one out of my dreams which made me hesitant to continue my run for my life. I got slower as the figure started running towards me and Braid, who kept pushing me so we wouldn’t be crushed by the rock-men. “What are you doing we have to continue running.” He screamed at me and I pointed at the figure saying, “Don’t you see that thing over there. It is straight heading for us.” And it was, getting faster and faster with each step. “What are you talking about? There is nothing there.”

I looked at him surprised and then the figure was gone. I turned around to see if the rock-men were still after us and there stood the dark figure. Directly behind me as I turned. I made a jump backwards and tripped over a small dirt pile. The figure was floating in the air coming closer to me, breathing in my face and then it laid its hands around my throat and started squeezing. I tried kicking it off, but it was like I was kicking the air. Braid grabbed my shoulders and helped me up and just then the figure disappeared.

We started running again, but I had a lot of trouble breathing because of the choking that just happened. When I needed a rest I just stopped dead in my tracks and took a few breaths. Braid didn’t notice, but when he did he turned around. I could still see the panic in his face, but it surprised me that no ‘missiles’ were flying past our heads. There was silence all around us. No screaming, no explosions. Just absolute silence.

I turned around and the rock-men slowly fell apart. Those massive living structures first lost their limbs and then their heads. Until only dust remained. I saw the survivor behind us. Some of them were stuck under rocks, but those also vanished into thin air. Braid went straight to them to help them, while I still tried to catch my breath.

Braid called me over to help him and I walked over to the small family that needed our help. There was one son, a baby girl and their parents. The father was stuck under one of those rocks and was now bleeding heavily from his leg and arm. He probably was stuck with his right side under the rock since there were the obvious wounds. “Heal him, come on.” Braid said and I immediately tried. But nothing happened. It just didn’t work.

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The Other Land

Chapter 2 Part 8 – Returning Hope

I knelt in front of the line between desert and woods and I then I thought returning that man back to his original state. I imagined, that the colour to his skin would return, just like you would see it in movies or on TV. I always thought that those people who died for others deserve the most respect. They are the true heroes in the stories.

I touched the figure in front of me and nothing happened. Braid quickly pulled my hand away once he noticed me touching the sand stature. Absolutely nothing happened. He didn’t turn back, but I didn’t turn into sand. “Don’t touch him or you’ll turn into sand” he said and I was surprised that I could understand him. “But I touched him and didn’t turn into sand. Look.” I showed him my hand, but he was more interested in what I was saying. “I can understand you.” He said and I nodded. “So can I.”

We heard gasping around us and then I looked at the sand stature. It was slowly turning back into the alpha. Just like I imagined. Why was my magic so suddenly back? The man fell on all four and got off the sand as quickly as he could. Braid helped him and once he was on forest ground again a water spring appeared from where he stood before. It quickly spread across the whole desert. All the statues turned back to their living form and then the spring started to dry out again.

Then a single blade of grass grew out of the spring and the whole desert began to look like a giant green field. You could hear birds chirp and water flow. Then the big sandy castle changed from a yellow to a white castle. It was on the top of a hill with lots of trees. All the creatures around the castle went towards it while I just stood there and was bewildered by the scenery. I didn’t know my magic could be that beautiful. I just turned a whole desert in a living and thriving biome.

“How did you do that?” Braid asked me and I just looked at him before the alpha guy said: “Because he is the saviour. My name is Shavua. I am deeply grateful for what you have done for me. I owe you my life.” “If I’m correct you saved me first so I guess we owe our lives each other.” He smiled and then turned to Braid “This is my son Braid, he will one day take over the lead of my pack.” “Yeah we already had the pleasure.”

Just then we heard grumbling from the mountains and with a big explosion the rocks flew in all kind of directions. They were burning hot and some small fragments hit the bystanders around us three. “Quickly, we have to get to the castle before the rock-men arrive.” “Did I mention? I’m not the best when it comes to running. Even if my legs are perfectly fine.” Everyone started running and Braid took my hand and said, “Don’t worry in a few seconds you will have enough motivation.