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TRICH RELAPSE‼️‼️‼️

when you listen to lizzo and wanna be a chill bitch who’s body positive but your ED is being a brat

lolll when you figure out you’ve been active all day even tho your depression is in all time high just cause your ED said go find something to do so you don’t eat

#thanksss and i thought i was doing well #punching my depression in the face with a cleaning marathon #GUESS NOT #tw: ed

me: being proud of myself i finally didn’t let depression and adhd and trich take over my day off so i can finally clean my house like i’ve been dying to do for months

also me: remembers i’ve been fasting all day (+half of yesterday) cause i’ve weighted myself after ages i’ve been too scared to and anyways nvm it’s just ED taking over the day today 😄

#tw #tw: ed #trichotillomania #depression mental health

beaky-peartree

it's time we start sexualizing thin hair and bald patches for those of us with trichotillomania

#yas queen

people: why spend so much money to straighten your hair and not just go natural and free

me: because then my trich goes all natural and free too

#idk why but it makes the hairs too straight and not interesting to pull #it’s my trick for trich 🥲#trichotillomania

when i figured it was ED you ask?

oh well when i noticed i think so many people who are twice my size look great in my eyes and that i wish i could look that good but me???? i look disgusting even if i’m like 15 kilos less than that

understanding it actually had zero to do with actual fat and weight but all to do with my body image of myself and nothing really else

#also saw pics of me super skinny and i remember still feeling fat #tw: ed

when you don’t feel good but it’s not physical, so people refuse to understand that it’s real

of-faunsandyellowflowers

This is your adhd daily reminder to DRINK SOME GOD DAMN WATER AND EAT SOME FUCKING FOOD BECAUSE IF YOU DONT YOUR STIMULANT CRASH IS GONNA BE WORSE. IDC IF U GOTTA FORCE YOURSELF TO EAT.

slutabed

every time I think I’m getting better about my weight and being accepting of myself at the size I am I get worse again.

I finally bought a size up in jeans so I can wear them on Fridays at work, and I don’t mind the size I wear or the way I look in my work clothes, but all of a sudden in jeans I feel like I look massive and horrible and I can’t look at myself.

and my mom is getting back on me about seeing a nutritionist (who can give me weight loss advice) instead of a dietician (who gives me eating disorder treatment), and she won’t stop talking about food and dieting and her body and how she needs to lose weight no matter how much I tell her not to talk about that stuff with me.

and the whole time I have these horrible thoughts about myself in my head there’s that nagging voice reminding me how awful and fatphobic I am for thinking this way (which in turn is racist and classist and etc etc etc) even though I can celebrate every other body at every size and shape, but when it’s mine I just can’t even though that totally undermines the whole point.

and I don’t usually spiral like that anymore now that I’m on lexapro but I can’t help it tonight and I can’t stop it.

and it just sucks that’s all.

so i’ve been on Fluoxetine for a while now and only recently noticed i haven’t been pulling or touching my hair for some time now

funny how i didn’t even noticed and when i did, even if i think about really hard, and even touch my hair, i just don’t feel like it??? i really don’t have that feeling in my hand where i need to touch my hair and get that defective hair between my nails and then take it off

#yikes i sound kookoo but i guess this is the place to be that #i think this is the only place people will get what i’m saying #trichotillomania #mental health

is it still trich if i scratch my scalp so i don’t pull

#mysterious #trichotillomania

but are we gonna ignore joey from grand army’s trich?

#trichotillomania