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[trishcastroo]

It's funny how people change. It's funny how people fix you: every part of you.

How they suddenly changed the most unexpected and unrealistic things in your life.

Its magical, it's the most powerful thing you could ever felt in your life.

Being in love and being loved at the same time. Having a day with an assurance, having a day with a contentment in your life. The feeling you felt everyday, its beyond any kind of happiness that people could be possibly felt. How devoted and faithful they are in you, how they really make you so blessed. And even into the smallest details in your life they still believes in you. He always believes in you.

How he embraces all your flaws, all your ugliness, and all your scratches in your life. All the failures that you did on the past yet he accepted  you. How he removes your insecurities and make you feel that you are truly beautiful. He never fail to surprise you, he never fail to amaze you. That even in the tiniest part of efforts, he still gives you. He always show what you deserves. The best things in life; yourself. He makes you realize how life is so extraordinary and living is astonishing. They tell you everything, how they critic the world and even into the most nonsense things in life. How trustworthy they are in you. How he put God in your relationship.

How they plan the future with you, and setting goals in lives. How he keeps you motivated to do good, to do better ad bring out the best in you. And patiently waiting to make all the things in life puts into places.

How he fight for you every single time. And how proud he is to show you, to show everybody that he has the most gracious thing in his life. And its me. Nothing else but me.

Loving is what makes people live. And when you found someone who will not only love you outside, but deep within your soul. I swear, they are really the one. The only exceptional person you could ever have. Love him the way you did since the first day and never change it. Continue it as long as you can, and even on the bad days still love him. Still hold his arms. Love him even its on the worst part.

Life is really stunning and full of surprises. Everyday is breathtaking, everyday is full of wonders. But at the end of the day, there will be a person who will never get tired of loving you. Who will love you until the end. Hold them and cherish everything.

xo

[trishcastroo]

Akala

Akala ko tapos na pero hindi pa pala,

Akala ko wala na pero meron pa pala.

Akala ko hindi na, akala ko ayoko na,

Akala ko lang pala lahat dahil hanggang ngayon ,

mahal padin kita.

Puro lang pala ako akala, 

puro lang pala ‘ko haka-haka.

Mga bagay na ang hirap pading kalimutan

kahit tinapon ko na.

Mga ala-alang pinilit ko ng alisin,

pero bumabalik padin isa-isa.

Lungkot, galit, kirot.

Lungkot, galit, kirot.

Paulit ulit ko pading tinitiis lahat,

lahat ng binigay mong emosyon sa akin 

nung pinagpasyahan mong umalis.

[trishcastroo]

Sandata

Ito na naman ako, hawak ang tanging sandata ko.

Pilit na pinaglalaban, pilit na tumatayo.

Hindi ko alam kung ilan pang talata ang maisusulat ko,

dahil kahit anong salita ang bigkasin ko, 

tumutugma padin sa’yo.

Minsan gusto kong isiping nananaginip lang ako,

isang malaking bangungot, para bang ako’y nalulunod.

Wala akong makita, kundi ang aking anino

Puno  ng dilim kahit pa mata’y idilat ko.

Ngunit kahit pala pagkagising ko, nagiisa padin pala ko.

Wala pading nagbago, at wala pading mababago.

Nandito padin ako sa isang sulok ng aking kwarto,

Pilit na sumisigaw at pilit na sinasabing pagod na ako.

Subalit hindi matapos tapos ang mga salita ko para sayo,

Para bang lahat ay patungkol padin sayo.

Siguro nga’y hindi tayo magkaparehas ng tibok ng puso,

Dahil gusto mo lang ako at hindi ang mga katagang “Mahal mo din ako”.

Wala naman akong magagawa kung hindi mo kayang ipaglaban to,

dahil sino ba naman ako para sayo.

Isang hamak na tagatanggap lang ng binibigay mo.

Hindi ako nagreklamo, wala akong ginugusto.

Pero minsan ako’y napatanong sa sarili ko,

karapat dapat bang ito lang ang natatanggap ko.

Tama bang ipagpatuloy ko pa to?

Tama pa din bang nasasaktan ako?

Hindi ako nagagalit sayo kundi sa sarili ko.

Sobra akong nagmahal kahit ganun lang ang natatanggap ko.

Siguro nga’y nakampante ka na nandiyan lang ako.

Na nandito lang ako.

Nalulungkot ako,

lalo na’t nakikita kitang masaya kahit pa wala ako.

Sa tuwing nagtatawanan kayo na dapat na kasama din ako.

Na dapat na nasa tabi mo.

Hinihintay ko lang maubos ‘tong mga salitang maitutugma ko sayo.

Hinihintay ko lang mapagod at masira nalang tong sandata ko.

Ngunit ngayong masyado pang puno tong nararamdaman ko,

Umasa kang may susunod pang mga tula at hindi pa ‘ko sumusuko para sayo.

[trishcastroo]

I just want to ask Trish, who was deep in your thoughts when you wrote that excerpt? You do have the option to answer specifically or hastily yes or no :)

The one that got away. 

[trishcastroo]

Hindi dapat ngunit kailangan na

Mga ala-alang hindi dapat limutin ngunit kailangan na,

Mga bagay na hindi dapat itapon ngunit susunugin na.

Mga ngiting naguumapaw ngunit ngayo’y naging luha na.

Mga yakap at haplos ng kamay mong ngayo’y sa panaginip nalang umaasa.

Mga lugar na binabalik balikan ngunit ngayon ay iniiwasang daanan pa.

Mga oras na hindi ko na kailangan pang magsalita dahil alam mong ako’y masaya.

Mga salitang nagpapasaya ngunit ngayo’y naglaho na.

Mga araw na wala akong ginawa kundi yakapin ka, ngunit ngayo’y ito ako at magisa.

Mga pagkakataong tayo’y magkasama ngunit ngayon ay hindi na magkakilala.

at ang iisang bugso ng damdaming mahirap baguhin dahil hanggang ngayon ay ikaw parin.

Lubos akong nanghihinayang at nalulungkot sa mga bagay na hindi ko na kaya pang balikan. 

Isa ka nalang alaala. Mahal kita pero siguro nga, hindi talaga tayo ang nakatadhana.

Kalimutan ka’y hindi dapat ngunit.. kailangan na.

[wnq-writers]

And if the moon and the stars could speak to you, my love, they’d narrate how much my heart aches for your gentle touch and how my soul misses its other half.

unravelsky (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

I am sick because I love you. Because I can’t stop loving you. Because I can’t see anyone else. Because I see your face, And my entirety melts. I am weak because I love you. Because I miss your hands Your skin Your mouth Your smell. Because you hold my heart My gaze My mind My shell. I am cold because I love you. Because you will not let me love you. Because I wish to love you deeply. Because I see you’re not all gone. Because you’re trapped and can’t love freely. Because I’m singing all your songs. I ache because I love you. Because I miss your heartbeat Your breath Your warmth Your burn. Because I cannot run Nor hide Nor change Nor turn Over memories in darkness With your voice that I so miss, And I know How I’d shake With just one kiss; How I’d break If we left this; How I’d wake up and sing from my soul Just to know That you finally Feel Whole.

chaitschillnstuff (via wnq-writers)

[artsnquotes]

Being an artist means forever healing your own wounds and at the same time endlessly exposing them.

Annette Messager  (via wordsnquotes)

[wnq-writers]

You are the reason behind my laughs, and you are the cause of my grieves.. Being in love with you is like being in a war. Part of me wants to surrender, and part of me wants to wage war..

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[wnq-writers]

Let me tell you what it’s like to fight against memories. 1. She will tell you that she loves you. She will caress your heartstrings like they’re taken the most expensively made guitar and you will never feel more comfortable than in those moments when her lips curve into a smile or if you’re lucky (and lucky you will feel) press against yours. Yet in the evening, when she is blanketed by quiet and cannot escape her loud mind, the fight you never knew you were in begins again, even as night slips into morning and you are still conversing. 2. She will tell you that she is upset, that there are nights that she doesn’t have the best rest. You will offer to comfort her, offer to stay by her side and talk to her in an effort to create the bond you desire, and she will thank you graciously yet won’t really open up. Even so, you will never once for a moment imagine the possibility of someone else. 3. If she can find space somewhere in her cluttered mind to truly think about you, she will eventually explain that her heart is torn, that it’s leaning towards you but that there are times where she remembers him, the one who held the heart your fingertips can only seem to graze just long enough to leave fingerprints. She will give you the option to leave that truly screams ‘please don’t go,’ and it will be up to you to decide whether or not the wait - this war - is worth going through despite the always possible injuries you may incur. 4. It’s your turn to lose sleep. You tick off each day in your mind; you reread the conversations and mentally relive the moments you spent together and question how it could have been possible that you left any room for error. Any room for him. You question everything, the genuinity of her feelings and the current status of yours. You don’t know what to think, you don’t know what to feel, but your heart won’t stop leaning towards her. 5. You decide that it is worth it. You decide that she is. 6. You find temporary happiness again. You lose yourself in the look she has in her eyes when you are alone, the way she teases you, effortlessly switching from what you would expect in a girlfriend to last night with the guys except with a lot less testosterone, a touch that sends tremors down your spine and a laugh that whispers ‘Stay.’ Your smile finally touches your eyes and the light in them is extraordinary, the only description being that they are reflecting the light she had radiated all along. 7. You will remember him. If she cares enough or isn’t blinded enough by her heart’s longing, she will resist saying his name around you, she will refuse to talk about the issue but you will know by the way her touch has changed and the way her eyes have lost that light that something is wrong. You will remember everything you don’t want to remember, the warmth inducing good times and the guilt inducing bad times you’ve shared as well as the day she told you , and in those moments you will somewhat understand her pain, but never truly. 8. The decision is still yours. You can choose to walk out of her life at any time, but you don’t. You have this desire to see her happy, the possibility of how she could be once free from his ghost excites you in a way you haven’t been since the age of seven, and you hold onto that idea. You continue to fight. 9. You hope for the best with your heart somewhat breaking a little bit more every time you see that look at her eyes again, the look of guilt over you and pain and longing over him. Your eyes develop a look of their own, the light is still there but the determination in them and you as a whole is stronger, and if you’re lucky, she gets over him. If you’re not, she doesn’t. You will simply be left alone to wonder about her abrupt disappearance. And in some cases, you may never even know this war was being waged.

maxwelldpoetry, “Memories are like ghosts after all.” (via wnq-writers)

[trishcastroo]

Hey love

"I still miss you. I know that I am totally out in your life. But just in case you remember me, please let me know."

[blackandwhite-cf]

black and white

[trishcastroo]

Being an easily attached person

Everybody has its own perspective of being an easy come easy go life. But some of them isn’t like that. Living in an unfair world is an everyday battle that everyone should fight.  Getting emotionally attached are some of the worst case scenario. Some of us take it as an exercise of their daily lives. It’s like getting stuck around EDSA. Guadalupe bound going all the way to Quezon City. Who doesn’t like to move on? Who doesn’t like to be happy and set their heart free. A long way process that keep on repeating everyday. 

What are the facts of being an easily attached person. Here are the things I would probably say all of us can relate to:

1. You have a good catch to EVERYBODY

You can easily dwell in to whoever talks to you. Being approachable is your asset. You are accessible person that everybody love about you.

2. Very good SENSE OF HUMOR

You can deal with anything that comes. Every time you make jokes, segues or scenes, they are really amazed. 

3. A WALKING CALENDAR

Birthdays, gatherings, first dates, first kiss, anniversaries, and even an ordinary hang outs and everything.  You tend to remember it because it is important for you. 

4. A Sentimental “SENTI” Person

You got a lot of souvenirs you saved every important event that happens. Even receipts, tissues, gift wraps, movie tickets, and other small things that really matters to you. 

5. You love to make them surprises

Every occasion, you think of a lot more fun to make the event extra special. Why cards, why not cakes. Why not balloons. You always think of something different that everybody enjoys afterwards.

6.Life as an OPEN-BOOK

You always open up to a lot of people because you think they are your closest friends. Everybody knows your stories and dramas. They comfort you, they give you advice and that's the way you want to make yourself calm. 

7. You TRUST everybody

Self explanatory I guess. You are a generous person that makes everybody to love you. And in return, you gain trust to them. You are easily captivated to small things they didn’t know matter to you most.

8. The GESTURES

All those clingy gestures and even the smallest things they do for you is the one you always treasure. You will never ever forget those. 

9. Not everyone you love stays

Face the reality. Not all of them are still there with you. But somehow, you made them happy. And some of them stays and made them really special ones.

10. Characters are for real!

Watching and reading any story attached you the most. You easily put yourself in their case, feels like you are the character of the story. When they cry, you cry. When they laugh, you laugh. You always apply them in your real life. And it takes decade for you to forget that character. 

Lastly, writing is your best cure. Being broke makes you so weak. You turn your heartbreak into literature to lessen the pain and burst it out through words. 

[culturenlifestyle]

[wordsnquotes]

culturenlifestyle:

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BBDO creative director Stephen McMennamy constructs ingenious surreal images of unlikely pairs of photos, which behave as a cohesive optical illusion. By slicing images of food with intimate objects, McMennamy creates an alternate reality, which appears authentic and seamless. 

[trishcastroo]

Lost and nowhere to be found

Not moving on is same as you are still holding on. 

Holding on to those fictional things you always wanted to do.

Stuck at the same old dreams. 

Trap at the same old world.

Making yourself into pain.

You are lost, you are drowned.

Indescribable feeling makes your world go round.

World that will never be existed.

You always let your emotions win over matter. Over reality.

But sometimes its not worth the pain; its not worth the time.

Best thing you can do is detach a feeling.

Detach your pain, your hatred, your anxiety and your fear.

Your loneliness and abandonment. 

Learn to realize things. See things differently. 

Understand that not everything is on point. 

Sometimes they does but not on your side. 

Yes it makes you hurt but on the long way all the pain will be worth it.

All the lonely nights will be worth it. 

Because some people aren’t there to stay in your life but gives you lessons.

Lessons that will make you realize that you can be better, you can be braver. 

Detach feelings, accept things. 

Forgive the people who makes you hurt. 

Accept reality. 

Endure the pain they gave you.

Forgive also yourself for the things you did to make you fool.

Refresh things. Be a more positive thinker.

Accept again the reality. Bear with destiny. 

Give time to yourself and bring back the things you wasted.

Make a change. Physically and emotionally.

Trust me, it will be worth it.

And hopefully, you’ll find yourself laughing differently. 

Enjoying little things you never knew it will.

Smiling again with no fear. 

Braver. Tougher. Wiser.

Yet same as gold as your heart. 

We can always get through things if we want to. 

We live through thorns and knives.

Not petals and unicorns. 

[wnq-writers]

Remember, don’t be ashamed of your thorns, sweet rose; without them, you are incomplete and it’s fine, you don’t have to hide them underneath your petals or leafs, be proud of them. You have thorns to complete your imperfections.

you’re not the one with thorns, everyone has them too. (c.s)   (via wordsnquotes)

[wnq-writers]

I didn’t know you, and then all at once you were the air in my lungs.

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