So this is a goodbye, and it’s pretty easy for me to say it this time around.
I now know that this blog is going to sit here and collect dust… It was fun meeting all of you and stuff. But, roleplaying is supposed to be fun. Not work. And this has felt like work for a long time now… I just felt bad saying anything about it. It’s really hard to take a break and then come back and expect to catch up in something that moves so quickly. It’s something I can’t really do. I don’t have the time or the motivation to keep up. So when my replies piled up I became really discouraged. You’re all so nice about waiting, but there’s only so much time you can keep a person waiting before they start to ask questions. To tell the truth, those are questions I can’t answer. I had a lot of stuff happen all at once in my life- most of it not the best stuff. But I’m not sitting here to tell you all a sob story about how my life feels like it’s falling apart… (even if I did I doubt anyone is reading this anyway). And I’m not here to make excuses for why you should forgive me and take me back, because I don’t want you to. I’m here to tell you that you guys have a wonderful community here and I hope it stays that way. I hope you guys keep making new friends, and telling stories of characters (both your own and not). So yeah… I have some stuff to deal with here, and Tris isn’t going to be part of that stuff anymore. I’ve found myself drifting from her more and more lately. I’m not really that much like her anyway, simply because I am my own person. I’m Brittany, I’m not some character in a story like I wanted to be for so long. I shoved myself inside of characters and fairy tales, rather than dealing with the reality of my life. I’m not the person I was when I joined this community. And in a way I’m sad that girl is gone, but it’s refreshing to know that there’s an actual person inside of me that’s not bits and pieces of characters sewn together. I’m no longer what my friends, and my school life, and my depression formed me into. I’m not a person who needs to hide in a character who is stronger than me. So with that I say goodbye to you guys. If you ever need me or just want to talk. (I doubt you’ll want to but whatever, the thought still counts) you can find me here at my personal, br1ttanyys or if I haven’t been on there (keep in mind I tend to keep my queue running so I may seem like I’m on but I’m not) I’ll be around here on Yellow’s account once my semi-hiatus is up!~ See ya around guys, or you know… Not.
