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She/her. Atheist, ancient, bi. English isn't my first language. Anyone following should expect Chaos. No warnings, no apologies. Just poorly managed ADHD and wild mood swings, sailing in a mad hat. The madness is (probably) non-contagious. The sarcasm is totally curable. May occasionally post in finnish. TO ANYONE I FOLLOWED: my blog is largely dedicated to my hyperfixations, at the moment the tv series 9-1-1, and I KNOW that my posts are likely to drive you mad unless you like the show, too. Maybe even if you do. So please don't feel obliged to follow me back. I may have just followed you for enrichment, to peek at other worlds.

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Something is wrong with my prayer plant it is thriving--

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Reblogging an old post of mine to create a quick link to an account I lost. If anyone is curious to check out The Deeper Well... Be noted that the last posts on that account are extra bizarre because I was riding the waves of a sleep-deprivation-triggered and AI-algorithm encouraged psychosis. I'm quirky like that 🤡

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I'm already so excited for the upcoming Buck and Theo moments. I'll take anything and everything!

... I hope to see Theo grieving and having nightmares and abandonment issues and lashing out. I hope to see Theo acting all tough... and then reporting Monsters Under The Bed because Buck messed up by letting him watch something that traumatized him. Oo, speaking of trauma and monsters under the bed... Would be interesting if Theo was really anxious about car rides 🤔 Like doing all he can think of to post-pone getting into a car, getting panicky and anxious while they're driving, struggling to sleep after or before a car ride etc. He lost both of his parents in a car crash and he was there too, would make sense if some of that horror lingered? I hope they'll need to take several visits to the ER because Theo ate some batteries, or put a pea up his nose, or fell from a roof or whatever. Frequent visits to the ER would be lots of fun especially if Theo hated getting into a car. Maybe they'll be forced to take a bus or the subway because randomly Theo isn't as scared of riding those? Or... wasn't, yet☝️

... I hope Buck's previously ever-so-neat apartment will repeatedly look like a bomb went off in there. I hope to see Buck absolutely overwhelmed and exhausted and randomly bursting into tears because he's so damn tired. (Hopefully on the job, with people staring, and then he has to be like "Omg, I'm so sorry, I didn't sleep much last night, I had to take my foster son to the ER because he sprayed deodorant into his eye, and then when we got home I woke up to the fire alarm because he was making me breakfast. At 4 am.) I hope to see Buck understand why his own parents were so overwhelmed, raising him, a bit better.

I hope to see Theo develop a super intense fascination with wildlife and then Buck will finally have that pet... and it's a garden snail. Or a cockroach. Or something like that. It should have an utterly ridiculous name and require visits to the vet. (I've been watching a lot of Bondi Vet lately, okay? The episode in which the Chinese (?) couple takes their pet snails to the vet because they have cracked shells was so damn endearing. The reason for the cracked shells turned out to be calcium deficiency, btw. They need more than just lettuce!)

Either way, whatever sort of Buck & Theo shenanigans the show decides to go for, whatever they come up with, I'm so in 💕

[trollerina]

It's one of those days when I randomly keep remembering how much I loved 9-1-1 season 9, and feel like I need to pillow to excitement-scream-and-giggle into so that I don't scare my neighbours with my big emotions. It's like being stuck in the mode of an upcoming sneeze, the constant urge to reach for a silencer pillow.

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The joke about Bernard the work-in-progress murder victim calling himself a newshound in 9x15 "Pick Your Poison") just randomly clicked for me 🫣 Bernard... The Hound! Of course.

Ooh, and now I'm reading about Ludwig van Beethoven and just learned that he may have suffered from lead poisoning--- WAIT A MINUTE 😂

[trollerina]

Hmmm since I know nothing about 9-1-1 season 10 yet, I still have time to derp around and speculate on what the Next Big Disaster might be... Today I've been toying with the theory that maybe it could be a riot? I mean... I think a riot would make sense as a nerdy, tongue-in-cheek continuation to the events of season 9, it could be something season 9 gently foreshadowed. You know, since season 9 began with the Big Fish, and then season 9 ended with some religious themes... And Eddie not wanting to fast for three days at the hospital.

So naturally I wondered if fasting for three days has some sort of a specific religious importance, and stumbled on this three-day-fast:

(Source: Wikipedia) "The three day fast of Nineveh commemorates the three days that Prophet Jonah spent inside the belly of the Great Fish and the subsequent repentance with fasting from food and water performed by the Ninevites at the warning message of the prophet Jonah (cf. Jonah 3).[4]"

And then I wondered about the reason why the Ninevites fasted for three days, what sort of warning did they get? Sounds like they were trying to avoid a disaster of some sort, right? And turns out they supposedly fasted because God & Jonah had warned them that the city would otherwise be soon overthrown. (The three-day-fast was Very Effective, The City wasn't overthrown, hurray!)

Anyway, since Season Nine started with The Big Fish swallowing a man, and ended with a three-day fast which Eddie perhaps didn't follow that religiously because "it WaSn't tHat dEep 🤥"...? Is that a hint that Eddie has been a bad boy, and broken his fast a tad too early 🤪? Maybe he's angered his God ☝️, and God won't be sparing The City this time, and instead it'll be overthrown somehow? By... I don't know, football hooligans, or something?

🎼BE PREPARED 🎶

[trollerina]

Lately I've been kinda busy being social, and outdoorsy, and artsy, and scholarly (yeah still deep-diving into aquariums)... But it's already July 👀 which means that Season 10 keeps creeping closer... 🤔 *Starts uncorking a whole new batch of unhingedness.*

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I started the watercolor painting at 8pm, and now it's finished... And it's almost 2 am, and my circadian cycle is once again Confused. Oops.

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I'm just randomly in my feels about the fact that The Son who hurt Eddie in the season 9 finale was a sunrise. (I'm talking about Anatoly, the son who unexpectedly lost his Father. The meaning of the name "Anatoly" is Sunrise/He of the Sun.)

🎼 But whose heart would not take flight?

Betray the moon as acolyte

On first and fierce affirming sight

Of sunlight, sunlight, sunlight... 🎶

[trollerina]

The bonfire was very pretty. I think I spotted some people planning on doing some Midsummer Spells - they were picking flowers and kinda... giggly about it. Finnish folklore has lots of beliefs about Midsummer's Magic but a well-known belief is that if you pick some wildflowers and stick them underneath your pillow before you go to sleep on Midsummer's Eve, you'll get to see your future spouse in your dreams that night. (I didn't pick any flowers tonight but maybe that's for the best, considering the way that just last night the star of my dreams was Mr. Lobster. Not sure I want to meet my Future Spouse. Also, if last night was a preview then I'll find my future spouse in a forest chilling on a patch of moss, and also, for some bizarre reason he's blue. This sounds more like a murder mystery than a romance, does it not?)

I also went for my Midnight Bicycle Ride as planned. It was lovely, 4 and a half out of 5 lobsters, would try again. (Half a lobster is lost because I forgot to wear any socks and my scandalously bare ankles got cold.)

[trollerina]

Okay, I'm removing my toxic spores from the internet now. Real Life, ready or not, here I come!

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Once again I find that my gloomy, delicate ass needs to isolate from the Buddie fandom because honestly... The frequent, insistent Eddie-is-definitely-the-dumbest-most-clueless-thing-on-Earth-fandom takes have started to smell like unconscious racism to me (like why are you buying this concept the show taunts us with zero-questions-asked, without even wondering if it might be a red herring, it's bizarre!), and also, I can't deal with this laser focus which interprets Eddie's every action as suppressed homosexuality. Tastes pretty bi-erasure-tastic to me? So me doing Buddie right now is basically like Gollum caressing the Ring all-by-his-lonesome. I don't even care if I end up swimming in the lava in the end; Actually Intelligent And Self-Aware Bi!Eddie-head-canon continues to be my precioussss drug and anyway, I'm Finnish, I can handle a nice, hot sauna 🌋👌 (Well. This is a lie. I can handle a hot sauna yes, not so sure about Dumbest-Of-The-Dumb-Canon-Eddie. But YOLO or something. Artistic Licence To Kill.)

[trollerina]

I had a really intense dream last night about a pet lobster I lost at an office?

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It's Midsummer this week, how is this summer going so fast?! Definitely does look like Midsummer though, it's 23.35 and it's still not dark outside. I think I'll celebrate the Midsummer's Eve this year by going on a bicycle ride at Midnight. Oh and it's been raining lately but might not rain on the Midsummer's Eve... Sounds like there will be a Bonfire, then! Yep, I'm way ahead of you Andrew, I'll be multi-tasking both sides of Too Sweet this week: Waking Up Smelling Like A Bonfire but NOT Dark As A Lake 😎

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"Pro-life" is a blatant lie. You pretend to be "pro-life" while you put the rights of a corpse above the life of a living woman.

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I made the mistake of entering a pet store today and now it's evening and I'm desperately pining after a fish I met there. Is it bad to rob a bank if it's for aquarium purchase purposes--

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Grreblbbh I'm sitting on the edge of my seat waiting for this new Fish in a Birdcage album release. It's not even healthy how many times I've listened to the short loops we've been given so far. I LOVE THEM ALL 😵‍💫! And THE ART!!! ... And the art has already got me investigating. If I've got it right, the Roman numeral in the artwork is 16... And that, combined with the tower in the artwork, is making me think that the new album (Perspective) might have something to do with the Tarot card "Tower"? 🤔

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Literally me 🤡, getting the random urge to paint 9-1-1 fanart:

Ooh, I could paint an angler fish ☺️💕 That would be nice homage to the season 9 finale!(No, I'm actually not even kidding. I'm seriously planning on painting an angler fish, and that, to me... is now 9-1-1 fanart 😂? And yikes, I'm getting the temptation to use glow-in-the-dark paint even though it's not very light-fast 😅 Technically art shouldn't follow rules but then again... I'm not keen on painting something only for it to self-destruct within months or a couple of years.)