all we do (is chase the day)
Tsukkiyama Month -Ā Space/Astronomy
Summary: In which Tadashi is hopelessly in love with his best friend Tsukki and convinced that he won't reciprocate his feelings. He doesn't want to ruin their friendship by confessing, so Suga offers to arrange a blind date for him, to see if he might be able to move on.
āI just donāt know what to do,ā Tadashi complained. He was lounging on Sugaās couch, hugging one of the cushions, while he watched him punching holes into some university materials and putting them into files.
Suga thought about it for a moment. āAre you sure you canāt talk to Tsukishima about it? Maybe you can hint something.ā
Tadashi groaned. āIf he had picked up on those hints I wouldnāt be here. We never really talk about love and crushes and stuff. I donāt want to bring it up and Tsukki never talks to me about it on his own.ā
Tadashi was hopelessly in love with his best friend. It had started out with mixed feelings that he couldnāt pinpoint, whenever a girl asked him about Tsukki, but quickly turned out to be major crush ā and he wasnāt referring to the girls. Tadashi had hoped to get over it eventually, but they were in their second year of university and nothing had changed. He didnāt dare confront Tsukki about it. As long as he didnāt have a confirmation that Tsukki was feeling the same way he did, Tadashi wouldnāt risk their friendship for it.
āHmm. Iād either tell him about my feelings or move on, otherwise youāre trapped in this constant state of āwhat ifā and nothingās going to change,ā Suga said. āBut I know that thatās easier said than done.ā
Tadashi nodded. He knew that if he wanted his situation to change, he had to do something about it, but he didnāt like any of his options.
āDo you want some more tea?ā Suga glanced at his empty cup.
Suga left for the kitchen. Tadashi squeezed the pillow in his arms. Why was this so hard? He was unhappy by not making a choice, but making one would be even harder. Tadashi sighed. Suga was one of the few people that knew about it. A special level of trust had developed between them since Tadashi had become captain of the volleyball team. Suga had given him advice and had lend him an ear.
āYou know what?ā Suga asked while he came back from the kitchen. He was holding two cups of steaming hot tea. āI think I have an idea.ā
Tadashi jumped up to take the tea from his hands but Suga was faster and already put them down on the small table in front of the couch.
Suga grinned. āYes! How about I set you up on a date? You can get out there, get to know someone, talk to them, and see how you feel about it. You donāt have to meet up with them again.ā
Tadashi thought about it. Maybe it wasnāt such a bad idea. He doubted that he could fall in love with someone on the spot, but it could help him forget Tsukki. Forget his hopeless situation. And if it couldnāt, then at least he tried. āAlright, Iāll give it a go.ā