My Tulpa’s Birth

Follow my journey in creating a Tulpa!

[tulpas-and-me]

Hey fam. I just wanna let you know that your choice of wording your last post was a bit off-putting. “ an extension of that person with free will. Think of walling off a small section of your brain so you can’t see it but it’s still a part of you”. I’m not an extension of anybody- I’m my own person and the body is just as mine as my host’s. Then again, I front as often, if not more than them. Also wanna let you know that your blog is very aesthetic and I love the heading picture! 😁

I worded it that way in an attempt to scientifically explain what was happening. Since so many people experience tulpas and obviously so many tulpas exist, there scientifically has to be some way for that to happen. I didn’t mean extension like tulpas are that person but just slightly changed, I meant extension like the tulpa was created by the brain but has their own little section, if that makes sense. It was looking at the tulpa situation from a scientific standpoint instead of an emotional one, so sorry if that wasn’t clear!

Thanks!! I try to make my blog pretty lol

[tulpas-and-me]

What is a tulpa? I saw a video on it but they only stated their opinion.

A tulpa is basically a creature that someone creates in their mind. It can think on its own and is an extension of that person with free will. Think of walling off a small section of your brain so you can’t see it but it’s still a part of you. Science disputes whether or not tulpas are real but there are many people who claim to have created them, intentionally or not.

It’s been a while since I was part of this community so I might have gotten something wrong!

[tulpas-and-me]

You are aware that tulpas are a part of a closed practice, right? Because though your blog is nice it doesn't really seem like you do and it's super unnerving.

I’ve made maybe one post on here in months and that was a reblog. I’m effectively done with the tulpa community lol

[tulpas-and-me]

I’m getting back into the community, saw this again, and wanted to address this. I did research and mainly saw “closed practice” in terms of medical settings, meaning that doctors weren’t accepting new patients. I assume this anon was trying to seem smart by knowing something I don’t and just used a phrase that doesn’t apply to this situation, since I never got further clarification.

Tulpamancy isn’t a “closed practice” or anything of the sort. Newcomers are welcome into the community - tulpamancy is for anyone who needs a tulpa in their life and thinks one would fit!

Gatekeeping isn’t going to help anyone, especially those who desperately need tulpas because of their own life situation. Unless this anon comes and further clarifies things, I’m going to completely write this off as nonsense.

[tulpas-and-me]

Is it possible to have did or osdd from just verbal trauma? Or just emotional neglect? Both I guess. Never knew it was a disorder until in the past few years. I can explain further if needed. I'm just very confused and just seen your posts. I know your not a "did" blog but it's worth a shot lol

(I wrote a lot so here are a few important things for the anon to know)

If it wouldn’t be too difficult, I could probably form a more concrete answer with more information

I explore the verbal trauma part more in this post but I can go through emotional neglect as well if you wish

I’m always available to talk if you need a sympathetic ear :)

Kinda obvious trigger warning for abuse

HUGE disclaimer: I don’t have dissociative identity disorder so I am in no way qualified to answer this, but I’m gonna try anyway! I have a couple friends suffering from DID and I myself have researched it for a few years, so I’ll do my best.

I would guess it depends on the situation. Verbal abuse isn’t always just mean throwaway statements like “you’re going nowhere in life,” although those are harmful as well. Verbal abuse can include threatening to harm someone, cutting them off from the people who love and care about them, and generally creating a hopeless environment. I would imagine that that sort of trauma could result in multiple diverged personalities, especially if it was happening to a very young child. I do remember reading about a case where a woman developed DID because she was kept isolated from literally everyone but the abuser and lost herself to the loneliness and fear, but I do believe that was also coupled with physical trauma.

Here’s an example of a very damaging verbal abuse situation: the person witnesses the abuser hurt something or someone they love, only for the abuser to turn around and promise the same treatment to them. Whether or not they carry through on that promise, the victim is now walking on eggshells, knowing the abuser is fully capable of hurting them. Or the abuser has a weapon and threatens to use it on the victim to keep them trapped. I can imagine that living in constant fear like that, especially as a young child, would take a huge toll.

It honestly just depends on the situation and how extreme the verbal abuse was, as well as when it happened. Again, I’m not an expert, but I don’t think a teenager in a verbally abusive relationship would be as likely to develop a dissociative disorder as a four or five-year-old child who is at the complete mercy of their abuser.

TL;DR: In certain extreme cases, I believe it could be possible, but it is uncommon.

[tulpas-and-me]

So what's your situation right now in regards to making a tulpa?

I’m not going to make one and this account is pretty much inactive unless I get curious as to how the rest of the community is doing.

[tulpas-and-me]

You are aware that tulpas are a part of a closed practice, right? Because though your blog is nice it doesn't really seem like you do and it's super unnerving.

I’ve made maybe one post on here in months and that was a reblog. I’m effectively done with the tulpa community lol

[tulpas-and-me]

Why People Might Create Tulpas

[tulpas-and-me]

hey op im kin with u

how so?

[tulpas-and-me]

so do you actually enter your mindscape/wonderland like it's real life if you do go there or is it more like you have to imagine being there?

*let me reiterate that I do not have a tulpa so I could be wrong*

Basically, once your tulpa is well established, you can begin working on controlling (I forget the correct term). Basically, practice switching places with your tulpa. This will begin in small appendages such as your fingers, hands, etc. Once they can control your body, supposedly you can sort of “fall back” and let them front. Then, theoretically, yes, you can enter your wonderland and it will seem just like real life.

I’ve never heard of anyone entirely switching with their tulpa. Instead, people can enter their wonderland but still be aware of their physical form.

[a-minds-ramblings]

I hope you don’t mind me adding my two cents!

What you described is usually called “switching”: you let the tulpa take the front and the host “falls back”. However, as far I know, not always the host ends up in the mindscape. Sometimes they may be “aware” but not in the same way as when they are in front. Be there as a mind. Does that make sense? I hope it does. I never managed to switch so I could totally be wrong on this regard. Feel free to correct me.

However! There’s also another thing called immersion that basically means going in the mindscape, without switching, and feeling it with all the senses. Usually it involves going in a pretty deep meditative state and with enough practice, you can experience the mindscape in a pretty realistic way. Some people compared it to a lucid dream. I managed to do that a few times, my vision was a bit hazy but all in all it was a wonderful experience, although it was hard to stay like that for a long time.

I want to add that both of these skills require a lot of time to learn and not everybody wants to do that (and that’s perfectly fine). Usually people just experience their mindscapes in their mind’s eye (aka imagining being there) and nothing else.

[tulpas-and-me]

I never knew about immersion! Thank you so much for contributing. As you can see, I’m still a newbie with much to learn, and I love that I have the community to depend on for that :)

[tulpas-and-me]

so do you actually enter your mindscape/wonderland like it's real life if you do go there or is it more like you have to imagine being there?

*let me reiterate that I do not have a tulpa so I could be wrong*

Basically, once your tulpa is well established, you can begin working on controlling (I forget the correct term). Basically, practice switching places with your tulpa. This will begin in small appendages such as your fingers, hands, etc. Once they can control your body, supposedly you can sort of “fall back” and let them front. Then, theoretically, yes, you can enter your wonderland and it will seem just like real life.

I’ve never heard of anyone entirely switching with their tulpa. Instead, people can enter their wonderland but still be aware of their physical form.

[tulpas-and-me]

TULPAMANCERS, PLEASE HELP

I want to create a tulpa but I’m most afraid of the future. If you have a tulpa or several, PLEASE HELP!

Right now, I feel like a tulpa could help me cope with anxiety and seasonal depression, along with feeling detached from my peers because of those two mental illnesses. However, I’m worried that when I, say, get a significant other, I’ll be faced with the terror of having to explain this to them - and it sounds weird to someone who has never heard anything about it.

Please explain how you guys have overcome this!

[study-squirrel]

Hey there, I have had something of a tulpa for 4 years now (I can’t really be bothered to explain properly now so we’ll go with that) so maybe my experience will be helpful to you.

I have had two partners throughout my time with Mae. Neither of them knew about her existence, nor do I think the current one will ever have to. Obviously, everyone is different but in my case, I am able to connect with Mae through thoughts so finding time away from my boyfriend isn’t really a problem. I believe this is quite to be able to do but I wish you luck there ^^

The other thing is your wonderland. Do you have one? If not, I would highly suggest it. You can visit it whenever (I usually like to visit at night before bed and in the morning when I’ve just woken up) and it just looks like you’re meditating from the outside.

Have fun and I’m always happy to answer more questions :)

[tulpas-and-me]

So you don’t have to tell your SO about your tulpa?? That’s a relief!

[pienaeight]

there is a thing called tulpa！！？ sounds so cool I want to draw some! Can anyone tell me about it?

[tulpas-and-me]

I’ll tell you anything you wanna know :)

[tulpas-and-me]

TULPAMANCERS, PLEASE HELP

I want to create a tulpa but I’m most afraid of the future. If you have a tulpa or several, PLEASE HELP!

Right now, I feel like a tulpa could help me cope with anxiety and seasonal depression, along with feeling detached from my peers because of those two mental illnesses. However, I’m worried that when I, say, get a significant other, I’ll be faced with the terror of having to explain this to them - and it sounds weird to someone who has never heard anything about it.

Please explain how you guys have overcome this!

[tulpas-and-me]

2/25/18

Looking at my schedule for the next couple of months, I can feel my heart sinking. Hardly a day goes by when I don’t have some prior engagement, birthday to celebrate, or school to attend.

What has been whispering in the back of my mind is finally gaining volume: I am too busy to make a tulpa right now.

I will have to put the process on hold - at least, for the next two months.

*

The prose piece says it all. I’m super busy so I’ll be unable to create my tulpa. I want to use this time to really keep researching tulpamancy, possibly making videos, and truly thinking about what it will mean to share my consciousness with another living being.

I will try to remain active but don’t expect a lot from me until after the first week of April.

[tulpas-and-me]

2/24/18

The week has passed more slowly than I would have thought possible. The weekend, however, has finally arrived.

And with it, my resolve to truly begin work on my tulpa.

So I begin talking to her.

It’s as easy as that.

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Tech Insider video framing tulpas as healthy voice-hearing experiences, featuring myself, Veissiere, ShinyuuWolfy, and a few others. I add a substantive cringe factor, and the differences between tulpas and mental illness aren’t really addressed (almost implying that all voice hearing experiences are tulpas?), but it’s positively presented with the intention of destigmatization. Comments are worth a peek >_>

[tulpas-and-me]

I scan the post excitedly. So I’m not the only one attempting to educate people about tulpas! A grin splits my face, and although I cannot watch the video immediately, I press the reblog button to ensure that this lovely thing is saved for later.

[tulpas-and-me]

2/21/18

THINGS I WANT TULPAMANCERS TO KEEP IN MIND:

Being a tulpamancer does not mean you have a disorder because you gave it to yourself. It was a conscious choice you made.

Tulpamancers and people suffering from DID are not the same. They are worlds apart.

THINGS I WANT DID VICTIMS TO KEEP IN MIND:

Many tulpamancers actually have mental disorders and creating tulpas is their coping mechanism. All they want is a way to feel happy. Don’t shit on them for wanting that.

Most tulpamancers haven’t created their tulpas with the thought of, “Hey, I’m gonna invalidate DID victims today!” Instead, they view it as fun and it continues to be such. They don’t think they’re tragic because they chose their tulpas.