Man, I kinda forgot about tumblr. I just wanna rant a little bit because I never really use this and I think it would be a great way to release some of the thoughts that I’ve been having recently.
I don’t really know where to start because there’s quite a lot. Ima just start with myself really and what’s going on inside my head. Everytime I see my peers going out and all, my stomach turns like…I feel like I gotta prove to everyone that I’m just like everyone else and that I’m independent, I’m stable, I can do my own thing but I just have this thought in the back of my head saying “that’s too much work.” “You wont ever amount to them or do better”. I think I’m still stuck in my old ways and let people and myself get in the way of what I really want. I don’t know. I’m just really harsh on myself because I feel like I’m always below average. It’s always been like that but I want to change that. I really do wanna improve myself but at the same time, I also wanna prove that I got it going on you know?
Next one! Working. Jobs. A stable life. I’m kinda worried about what I will be doing in the future but I also KNOW what I wanna be doing. I wanna make it to Hollywood. Now, you may be wondering, “what do you mean like you wanna be an actress, singer, ??”. Well, I wanna be mostly a performer. Mostly a dancer and be on tour and experience the late night parties and shit yk? Like we literally only live once. I wanna be fucking famous! I made a tweet yesterday saying “y’all gonna see me on stage” and stuff and I wanna put out more positive affirmations because I realize that when I say these awful things about me, it really does come back to bite me in the ass but I wanna be a little bit more optimistic and support myself. Yeah, I just wanna love what I do for a living and not waste my life away in a fucking office job or a restaurant but, I realize I have to work for it so I’m gonna try and take baby steps towards my dream job! I also have back up plans but, this is MY priority.
I think that’s it really. I don’t know I just wanted to come on here and express myself and my thoughts. I’ll come back on here…I’ll try. If I don’t remember but, yeah. Alright bye bye
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